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I was prescribed 180 mg adderall a day plus 60 mg of vyvanse. The doctor prescribing it didn't seem to care what it was doing long term to my brain. After researching I decided to stop taking it and stop going to that doctor. It's been a year now and I still feel mo motivation and no joy. I look at the wall and long for the days I felt like doing anything. I wish I had known I was depleting my dopamine. I figured if my BP and blood work was within normal range I was OK and when I would quit I would return to my baseline. I was way off. My kids are stuck with a lame ass mother now that looks at the wall all day.