Teresa

@krae19 I would never go back. I just keep praying I'll wake up one day and feel better. I feel good in the mornings It just doesn't last very long.

@sirod9...I'm 61 and past menopause. I remember when I quit years ago I was finally ok. I think part of my problem is my husband has been doing our yard. It's been 3 years. I'm so sick of it. He won't get help. And he's a hoarder. I just want simple and clean. We've been married 33 years and I'm not giving up although it plays in my mind. I'd have enough from a divorce to live a nice quiet life that I'd regret. Oh the brain. "NOT TODAY SATAN!"

It's been almost 8 months. I don't think I'm ever going to feel better. I can barely do regular life. I just look forward to bedtime. I don't have the energy to exercise. I went outside and help my husband with yard work for about 30 minutes and I was exhausted. I absolutely hate this life. I know I sound like a pity party and I am one I just want a quick fix and there's no such thing. I take care of my disabled son and my grand daughters 3 days a week and it's just exhausting to me. I don't know what I'm going to do I really don't want to go to the doctor and say give me a pill I so badly wanted to do this on my own I'm so mad at myself. Thanks for letting me vent

@jnolanmartin, Oh dear I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. I took Adderall for years and I quit and started back up several times. This time was January 16th. It's been hard. I still suffer from insomnia but it's getting further between. But the lack of motivation and drive is making me crazy!!!! I try ever supplement on the market. I usually end up getting my money back because nothing works. I think it is just going to take a long long time. A good year wouldn't surprise me. I woke up early this morning because if I get plenty of sleep I feel pretty good if it would only last all day. Today is even day six since I stopped vaping that has been a challenge also but I'm determined to do it. Stupid vaping just drags me down even further. Don't give up It will get better. That's what I tell myself everyday lol. I wished I had never met Adderall. Take care of yourself and do not give up. Most all of you are way younger than I am because I'm 61 and I've been abusing myself for many years so don't like that long keep going

@sirod9 Sorry I was referring to vaping. I've stayed Adderall free since Jan 16th. I'm doing a lot better with the vaping finally. I hit off my daughters once a day. Hopefully it will get easier .

I'm there too . I have to quit and I can't seem to get it done!!! Makes me so mad at myself.

Has anyone taken ambilify to normalize their dopamine and serotonin? Can it be taken temporarily and then quit because you won't need it anymore? Thank you

I don't know if that's possible when you're addicted. Some people can do that but probably very few. I took it daily I abused it I was taking Adderall and my prescription was 60 mg per day some days I took 40 some days I took 90 but I always ran out. My husband would take a quarter of one once in awhile,and I was like why bother? Or he'd take a half ... He could take it or leave it ...not me. I have been clean since January 16th and I'm still struggling with having no energy. I have been contemplating taking ambilify it is supposed to balance out your dopamine and serotonin it definitely doesn't make you feel like Adderall by any means. But it's supposed to improve your mood. I may try that because I don't feel like my dopamine is improving at all I take supplements and some days I feel good if we get out and do something but I just look forward to bedtime everyday. I'm just starting to read a book called it's not supposed to be this way . Finding unexpected strength when disappointments leave you shattered it seems like it's going to be a really good book. You are only 24 I am 61 I deceived myself thinking that all my side effects were because I cleaned houses for 20 years new construction and it was hard work My hands hurt my fingers were stiff I had arthritis setting in my arms for my shoulders down would be numb in the morning My blood pressure was high...After stopping the Adderall all of that went away. I still have trouble sleeping at night but the fact that my body feels so much better is reason enough for me never to go back because I know if something happened I wouldn't die I would be an invalid faced with my choices that I made and how it affected everybody else. Adderall, Vyvanse it's all the devil's drug. You are young you will bounce back. You just need to find hope in something else. This forum is an excellent place to find encouragement. I really need to get out and exercise I went for a jog around the park and I was so winded and out of shape I could have just died. I couldn't believe how out of shape I was. I'm not overweight so I know I can do this. Please stay strong and stay clean you will not regret it. You are young and you have your whole life ahead of you you can do it without medication. I talked to my friends about it I blurt out my addiction and I don't really care what they think most of them seem to be understanding and it really seems to help me stay accountable to myself. I'm kind of rambling. But I took Adderall for years and years I wished I would have quit taking it years and years ago. If you need someone to talk to I am here and I will listen I totally understand what you're going through.

That is awesome! I don't think it gets any better than that!!!

@Jon BI totally get what you're saying. I've been beating myself up lately because I can't quit vaping! I hate it but can't stop. It's been a couple years I guess. I lay in bed at night and think I'm just going to die what is stupid reason to die. At least Adderall we cut off our supply and it's done. Not with vaping. It even makes my stomach hurt So what the hell is wrong with me? I have the most addictive personality I've ever seen. I feel like my health is in such decline and I want it back but I can't stop doing the things that are so bad for me. I don't really even have the desire to ever take Adderall again no matter what because I know it's a vicious cycle and at my age it could be deadly. And vaping is no better but it's like I have to have something bad to do. I tried doing self-hypnosis and I think it could work I just need to do it several times a day. They have you say I don't want to poison my body I want to live etc and when I'm saying it I believe it then after I'm done I go hunt it down I am so screwed up it feels like. So there you go now you don't feel so bad lol there's me! You do what you have to do to get on top of things and the benefits will come I just know it now if I could tell that to myself and believe it I'd really be doing something! Best wishes for nothing but success.

@tjzenThank you so much for your inspiration I slept like a rock last night and I feel pretty good right at the moment. I'm going to get cleaned up put on my makeup and try to have a productive day. I can't wait till 10 months passes by to see how I feel.

Tired and went to bed around 10. It's 3:30 am and I'm wide awake. This sucks!

@sirod9thank you. I needed to hear from someone. So thank you. I'm trying to just go with the flow. I have grandkids today and I can manage to make meals and clean up and that's about it then I crawl on my bed and lay here and cry because this is just not me. But I will survive .I had holes drilled in my mouth for implants and I have to add that pain on top of the other junk in my trunk but I know I will hopefully eventually get past all this. My husband is very patient but I hate being this person. Thank you it helps does having someone to talk to that understands.

Wow I just feel so sad today. I went to the dentist yesterday for the beginning of my implants. That went well. But today I just feel worthless. I don't think I'm ever going to feel good again. I've been clean since January 16th. Maybe it's never going to be the same again. I make a lousy partner. I try so hard to be upbeat and positive and do things. But more than anything I look forward to bedtime. Thanks for letting me speak my mind. I hope everyone else is doing better than this.