Sprad

Congrats on 8 months sober! I am a couple days in and hoping my work does not suffer. Honestly it’s already suffering because on adderall I focus on the most useless tasks. My brain feels frayed because I can’t get motivated with or without it. I’ve been taking adderall for 2 years. The not being able to focus on my current dose plus abusing it to try and get that boost scares me. I know my only options are to quit or go further down the rabbit hole of increasing the dose. Thanks again for the encouragement.

Sirod - Thanks for the reply and Congratulations on 2 years of sobriety! You have given me hope. I currently take 30 to 40 mg a day. I still have my job and can pay all my bills. I’m just tired of feeling so unhealthy mentally and physically all the time. I feel like a zombie. I’m mostly worried about the depression I’ve experienced when I’ve ran out of pills. But taking the pills is in itself also depressing. My mindset when I run out is also not coming from a point of wanting to be sober, but from where’s my next fix. So I’m hopeful that with a new mindset of wanting to be sober the depression won’t be so damn depressing.

I have been abusing adderall for about 2 years. Year one was amazing. I was able focus and meet all the demands of both working full time and being a solo parent. Year two I started needing more than I was prescribed. I started snorting them and running out of my prescription by week 3. Then falling into horrible depression without them until I could get my next fill. I have started to uncontrollably rub my tongue on the back of my 2 front teeth. My amazing focus has turned into useless zombie focus on nothing of importance. I just want to isolate myself from my family. I don’t make the effort to connect. This list could go on an on. I’m scared of the withdraw. The depression. The inability to get anything done. I have so many things coming up that need to get done. Any advice, suggestions or tips that helped you function when quitting?