Bearman,
If you're getting to the point where you're second guessing your decision to quit right now, maybe I can be a lesson for you..
I quit for a couple months, I had been feeling great, finally. After about a month things will start to come together again... friends, relationships, wanting to get out of the house, wanting to hit the beach, wanting to be anywhere but home, it's only natural. But you may need to push yourself a bit to get out and change your habitual isolation tactics that have become a part of your everyday life. Push yourself, get outside, meet people, focus on not being the same person you've been on adderall... because for me this was conflicting with the habits I had become accustomed to of isolating myself from the world when I knew the pills were running my day that day.
Well, anyway, I ended up filling my prescription yesterday..
Took 1 10mg little blue pill, which immediately turned into 2 and 3. All-in-all, I took 90mg yesterday, and of course, as we all know I'm sure, when you haven't taken the pills in a day or two the euphoria is high and the lows are LoW. Honestly, I don't know wtf happened. I promised myself I would take the prescribed dose...
I couldn't sleep last night, stayed up all night, I had work at 2:30pm today but had to get someone to cover my shift because I was feeling completely blitzed out-of-my-mind and tired and pissed that I couldn't sleep. So as of now I am drinking some wine to kill the buzz of the 4 pills I took today, and quitting again tomorrow. What the fuck was I thinking.
Oh yeah, and what exactly did I accomplish on these pills? You'd think you could create something truly awesome in 48 hours of no sleep. But I studied for a Summer school class that hasn't even started yet. LOL. Please... Don't be a dumbass like me. Get out and live your life bro.
Zach