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I haven't quite started yet, but have a target date slated for the beginning of next month. I'm doing all I can to prep ahead of time so that I basically don't relapse.

What needs to happen is that you need to make a commitment about whether or not you're going to quit. If you decide to quit (which based on what you've posted, you probably should), then do it and don't look back. Stop giving excuses as to why you keep falling off the horse. We all have hardships. If you keep blaming external circumstances (family, detox, etc.), then you'll be stuck in this limbo for the foreseeable future. You have to get your head right before you can get your situation right - never the other way around. Posting things like "I'll never get away" puts you in a state of vulnerability and is a surefire way to ensure that you will fail. If you want to accomplish something, then you have to give something up in return. In the case of giving up adderall, there are a whole slew challenges to overcome. But you know what? This site is proof that people can overcome them, and damnit, you can too. I'm fully aware of how harsh this post might seem, but frankly the commitment to succeed at something like this requires a lot of personal accountability. It is well that you found this site and this community, and I do wish you the best. Now get out there, keep your head up, and beat this thing!

Hi Paige, I'm pretty new to this site myself, but one piece of advice I feel I need to give - talk to your husband about it. Whether or not he agrees with what you want to do, he deserves to know the big things that are going on in your life, and you deserve to have the confidence in your decision. This was one of the hardest conversations I've ever had with my wife, when I told her I was thinking of quitting Adderall, and the implications that go along with it. We ended up working it out, and she now supports me in full force. I can't speak for your marriage, so your mileage may very. If he loves you, he'll support you. If not, then you can't let that stop you either. You're looking to embark on an incredibly difficult journey - better to clear the air now than in the think of things. Not very Adderall-specific advice, but it applies nonetheless. Welcome to the site, and good luck on your journey!

So this is my first post since signing up to this site a few days ago. I just wanted to check in, say hi to everyone, and detail a little bit about my Adderall adventures. I promise it'll be short, as it's very similar to a lot of the other posts I've seen on this forum (which is actually one of the things that drew me to this site to begin with). I started about 7 years ago when my psychiatrist perscribed it to me. I was reluctant at first, but I figured that I could trust a "professional's" opinion on the matter and went ahead with it. Of course, my grades and productivity skyrocketed, and I got hooked, etc etc. Fast forward to age 28 (present day), and more and more I'm noticing the classic side effects - sleeplessness, restlessness, mid-day crash, and the libedo of a 90-year-old. Probably the worst part is that even now, that increased productivity is steadily deminishing - which was the whole point to begin with. I've been toying with the idea of quitting for about... 3 or 4 years? And I think now is as good a time as any to strike. I've made a tentative start date of July 7th to quit cold turkey (I'd do it right now, but I want to make sure I'm fully prepared so that I don't end up back on the stuff). I've talked to my wife about it and she is on board. The thing that scares me the most is how my work perfomance is gonig to suffer. A couple months ago I tried going to work without the meds and had to go home within 2 hours, as I damn near had a panick attack - I wasn't affraid of anything specific, but I just started freaking out for no reason. I think now that I've been getting myself mentally prepared to do this, I'll likely have a bit more success now. But I'm still terrified of losing my job over this decision. I am going to go through with this however, as I'm not putting work before my health. So that's about where I'm at. Feel free to message/friend me, and if anyone has any advice I'd be glad to hear it. Glad to be on board!