JaneDoe

I have been reading the forums on this website for a while now, but don't ever have the energy to comment . . . because like the rest of you I am tired, unmotivated, etc. I am finally deciding to write because your story struck a cord with me. Like your sweet, innocent daughter I too was put on concerta when I was about 10 or 11 years old. I switched to adderall at some point during undergrad, but had been on concerta for many years. I am now 27, just finishing graduate school for holistic medicine. Oh the irony. Since diving into the natural health field about 3 years ago, and finding out the truth about these prescribed poisons, I have always told myself that I would attempt going off of the meds once I got finished with school. (I attempted quitting cold turkey a couple of times while in school and that was just a nightmare) So I began tapering down my meds about 2 months ago. As you know, it is SOOOOOO hard. I won't go into all of those details, but I just wanted to share some of the emotions I have been experiencing. Let me first say that I am not an angry person. I typically do not have "fits of rage" or hold grudges. If anything, I am probably too forgiving. BUT now, looking back over my life and realizing that being put on ADD meds has been the cause of SO MANY problems, I am REALLY pissed off. I know it wasn't directly my mother's fault, but I'm still mad. Both of my parents were alcoholics/addicts and I have worked so hard my entire life to rise above all of that and have considered myself to be pretty successful. Until now. I have been on ADD meds for 17 years and I feel like now I'm stuck. I want to go back so badly and just kick my mom for doing this to me. Once again, I know it's not directly her fault, but just knowing that one sweet, innocent little girl, just like I was, is being saved from the hell that concerta caused me through the years, is so uplifting. You are my reason for smiling today. You have no idea the psychological trauma and physical problems that you are saving your daughter from. I commend you for not taking the easy route. I PROMISE you are doing the right thing. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I really, really needed some hope today and you have just given it to me. =) Also, your daughter will be able to fully develop into the body she was created to have, unlike me. I am BY FAR the shortest person in my family, to the point where I KNOW concerta stunted me growth. God created your daughter so perfectly, just the way she is and it makes me so happy to know that she will be able to discover that. I just hope that one day I am able to find out who I was truly meant to be too.