Greg Posted August 17, 2014 Report Share Posted August 17, 2014 I think for me, my dependency on it, began immediately...I loved it immediately and felt like I found the answer to my problems ( which at the time, which seems so trivial now, was being able to pay sharp attention in class and comprehend my complex textbooks, especially philosophy which completely confused me)....then slowly I ran out earlier and earlier each month. But I distinctly remember at my college graduation walking around the campus, asking random people, during my graduation of all places, if they had any adderall on them or if they knew anyone who had it. It was really desperate and maybe that was the moment. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
quit-once Posted August 17, 2014 Report Share Posted August 17, 2014 When my binge usage turned into a daily habit, I knew I had an addiction problem. But it was such a gradual process, there wasn't one single moment when I said, "Oh fuck, now I am addicted to this shit". 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted August 17, 2014 Report Share Posted August 17, 2014 As soon as I got my own prescription it went from recreational use to a daily habit. I realized I was addicted after a year and a half of daily use. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted August 18, 2014 Report Share Posted August 18, 2014 As soon as I ran out. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted August 18, 2014 Report Share Posted August 18, 2014 2 weeks before my prescription ran out and I had forgotten to make an appointment. Having to call and beg the stupid receptionist to let me talk to the nurse to beg for a prescription to bridge the gap until I saw the doctor...every time... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mila490 Posted August 19, 2014 Report Share Posted August 19, 2014 Well I posted a dramatic and lengthy post on here about giving up cold turkey after I had enough of how crazy it made me. I got rid of all my pills and felt free. About 2 weeks later I called and begged for a dr's appointment. I received a call the day of my appointment that it had to be rescheduled and I just about lost it. Like almost cried at work lost it. Went back on it and fell into my old ways with a big knot of hopelessness in my stomach. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetCarolinee Posted August 19, 2014 Report Share Posted August 19, 2014 Probably when I was taking it everyday and not just on school days. Even days where I was doing nothing or watching movies or even on days I was hungover or working out. Why would I need it these days? Come on now. Because I was clearly addicted. One time a few years into my 7 year addiction, while in college, I flushed them all down the toilet because I was so sick and tired of taking them and being so freaking dependent on a pill and then freaked out a few days later, called my doctor and got more like no. big. deal. Even though I said I wanted to stop taking them. SO glad I finally did! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
betterreadthandead Posted August 19, 2014 Report Share Posted August 19, 2014 The moment I realized I was an addict was after I was fired from another job, paying out of pocket for a doctor's visit, then retail price at the pharmacy. No insurance discounts. No income on the horizon. Foolishly handing out cash for another fix of pills. Brand only, of course. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andreas Posted August 20, 2014 Report Share Posted August 20, 2014 The Moment I Should Have Realized It (this list could go on forever): When I thought everyone should be taking Adderall and offered them some of mine When I saw 2 doctors to keep me in the 160mg IR/per day lifestyle that I had grown accustomed to When I went to the doctor last year and was 280 lbs with a resting heart rate of 105 and BP 170/120 When I had my first Ischemic Stroke (practice/training stroke) When I had my second Ischemic Stroke When I had a Hypertensive (High BP) Hemorrhagic Stroke (blew a gasket) and nearly died last year (8 days unconscious in the ICU When the first words out of my mouth upon my release from the hospital, "When can I get back on Adderall?" The Moment I Realized that Adderall had Taken Over My Life: The moment I realized that I accomplished more in the year after the stroke without Adderall than I did during 13 years with Adderall. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted August 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted August 21, 2014 Probably when I was taking it everyday and not just on school days. Even days where I was doing nothing or watching movies or even on days I was hungover or working out. Why would I need it these days? Come on now. Because I was clearly addicted. One time a few years into my 7 year addiction, while in college, I flushed them all down the toilet because I was so sick and tired of taking them and being so freaking dependent on a pill and then freaked out a few days later, called my doctor and got more like no. big. deal. Even though I said I wanted to stop taking them. SO glad I finally did! Flushing it down the toilet is so ineffective. All u have to do is go get the prescription again. That's why cutting of the doctor is the best way. I distinctly remember when I starting taking aadderall to watch entertainment. I went to to see a broadway show and I was SO engrossed it. I started taking it to read for pleasure to watch movies etc...no longer to study. That was a big turning point in my addiction too. The moment I realized I was an addict was after I was fired from another job, paying out of pocket for a doctor's visit, then retail price at the pharmacy. No insurance discounts. No income on the horizon. Foolishly handing out cash for another fix of pills. Brand only, of course. that sounds like me although I could go with generic not just brand. The Moment I Should Have Realized It (this list could go on forever): When I thought everyone should be taking Adderall and offered them some of mine When I saw 2 doctors to keep me in the 160mg IR/per day lifestyle that I had grown accustomed to When I went to the doctor last year and was 280 lbs with a resting heart rate of 105 and BP 170/120 When I had my first Ischemic Stroke (practice/training stroke) When I had my second Ischemic Stroke When I had a Hypertensive (High BP) Hemorrhagic Stroke (blew a gasket) and nearly died last year (8 days unconscious in the ICU When the first words out of my mouth upon my release from the hospital, "When can I get back on Adderall?" The Moment I Realized that Adderall had Taken Over My Life: The moment I realized that I accomplished more in the year after the stroke without Adderall than I did during 13 years with Adderall. Wow--Andreas. Was adderall the cause of those strokes? ( high blood pressure) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andreas Posted August 21, 2014 Report Share Posted August 21, 2014 Hey InRecovery. High blood pressure is the most important risk factor for stroke (according to the American Heart Association) I had normal blood pressure before taking Adderall (120/78) I had high blood pressure the entire 13 years I was on Adderall peaking at 170/120 just before my stroke 6 months after the stroke I was off Adderall and took no blood pressure meds and I was back to 118/80 I may not be able to prove causation but I certainly can prove a high correlation. It's only during the last 4 months that I have recognized the central role Adderall played in the shitification and of my life and I'm working on my quit story where I will document the 180 degree turn for the better my life took after the stroke. I am amazed and inspired that so many of you have quit/or are trying to quit before you end up in the hospital or the morgue. Keep up the good work. Your lives depend on it. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hyper_critical Posted September 14, 2014 Report Share Posted September 14, 2014 I put up some ALL STAR bp #'s toward the end. They took it every time I went to a walk in clinic to pick up a few days' worth to fill in the gaps. My cholesterol was through the roof from all the binge eating as well. At the time, I was somewhat proud of how hardcore I was (sacrificing myself "for the cause" at work). That is some SICK thinking! BP is all the way back down to normal again, and cholesterol is coming down. Anyway, to the original topic: a few months in. I took it before going with some friends in college, got blackout drunk, got thrown out of a party, broke some guy's nose who gave me shit for it on the way out, then got gang-beaten by his friends, suffering a pretty bad concussion. I woke up the next day to my then gf nursing me back to health. Then I took more Adderall. Part of me knew something wasn't right about that situation, but it took me another five years before I accidentally lit my car on fire and ended up in rehab. Cut off your prescribing doctor/psychiatrist. Tell your family about your problem. Take the first step. This shit will kill you. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
formydaughter Posted September 15, 2014 Report Share Posted September 15, 2014 For me It was when my husband who is my best friend and love of my life said to me"adderall or me"? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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