Bubbagump99 Posted June 11, 2015 Report Share Posted June 11, 2015 What did I just do😤😠What have I gotten myself into? God help me please. what feels worse? A hangover or not having adderall? 😳 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thomas Posted June 12, 2015 Report Share Posted June 12, 2015 You did the right thing. Life is better without it. And continuing on will ultimately lead to Loss and destruction. You can do this. It will take time. Not gonna lie. But you know you can't continue on this drug forever. A little pain now is better than a lot of pain and loss over the next few years or decades to come. I believe in you. Do you have anyone who knows about you're decision to quit , or what you might be going through. ??? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2015 Yeah, I do.. I just feel like no one really understands. I mean you're on this drug everyday for 8 years.. Not sure who I even am without it😔 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thomas Posted June 12, 2015 Report Share Posted June 12, 2015 I was on the drug 10 years. At the end I was prescribed 90mg /day. I also had a liberal dr. And lots of extra cash to get extra scripts so I was taking a lot. As bad as that sounds, I just want you to know that I am better now. Life is looking up. I've been clean almost 2 years and I'm not going back. So yes , you can do this. It will suck for the first few weeks. After that I think it's more about learning to live again without this little idol we all hid for so long. I am going to pray for you. That God would give you strength and peace and the ability to forgive / love yourself through this. Don't get too bogged down with people saying it takes years,... That's discouraging. Yes it has taken a long time for me but most of it was in my head. Like I said , learning to live again. I think that's a more positive way of looking at it. It feels like doing certain things for the first time to me and I think that's just a process. But a healthy thing. Also feeling certain emotions was new to me. At first I felt very exposed and vulnerable without the magic pill to mask pain, stress, etc. But it's part of coming back to life. Real life. Like waking up after a long bad dream. it gets better and easier with time. I'm proud of you. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2015 Thank you😌 it was so weird driving to work today.. Everything looked so much clearer... hard to explain.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 12, 2015 Report Share Posted June 12, 2015 that is so awesome. while you are in this state of strength, i highly recommend cutting yourself off by telling your doctor the truth. it's so hard to tell yourself no when the romanticizing/cravings begins (like probably impossible in my case) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 15, 2015 Report Share Posted June 15, 2015 I love the clarity! I remember just sitting outside and feeling the sun on my face. How long since I had just relaxed in the sun and enjoyed the day? Better times are ahead of you, guaranteed! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 15, 2015 Thanks.. I hope so. I actually had an old rx in my wallet from February and had my husband fill it for me yesterday just bc I felt like I wasn't gonna be able to physically get out of bed this morning for work. I was just gonna take half my dosage and start tapering from there. However, when I woke up as bad as I felt, I felt like I didn't NEED the half of pill. I drank my blowfish (for hangovers) instead lol it has aspirin and caffeine in it and it's been making me feel better since quitting. I haven't taken an adderall since Wednesday. I can't believe I'm actually typing those words right now... Sigh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 15, 2015 Report Share Posted June 15, 2015 LOL, my husband would not take my prescription in for me. I had just told him that I was quitting, so he wouldn't do it. I think if the script had been in the house, I would have taken it. I was weak that way... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted June 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 15, 2015 Yeah, were you working at the time you quit? Feel like if I had at least this week off I wouldn't of asked him to fill it. I feel like I'm just at a point in my life right now that I just really want to stop and not live like this anymore, you know? :/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
survived Posted June 16, 2015 Report Share Posted June 16, 2015 Well the hangover part is bad! lol....but getting rid of the Adderall is the best thing you could have done and so worth it. Congrats! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
survived Posted June 16, 2015 Report Share Posted June 16, 2015 A little pain now is better than a lot of pain and loss over the next few years or decades to come. Love this! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 16, 2015 Report Share Posted June 16, 2015 My job is kind of a cake walk, so...I am fortunate. I tried to get other jobs, because I thought I needed some extra motivation. I am glad none of them worked out, because this job is just what I need at this time in my life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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