CarpeDiem! Posted June 25, 2015 Report Share Posted June 25, 2015 hi all. I stumbled onto this site, and I'm so glad I did. I've weaned myself off of a 200-250mg a day adderall addiction that's been building up for 15 years. I took my last 30mg pill today, and I'm totally out. For good! I'm embarrassed at how high my dosages got, and how I acted on it. The withdrawal process hasn't been fun, but my daily Wellbutrin and L-tyrosine have made it tolerable. I'm ready to get my emotions back, my silliness back, my love of people in general back. I've done damage to my body, I'm sure. I'm loaded up on all my vitamins and I hope my body recovers over time. My daughter deserves to have a mom who is fully present and not one who is always telling her to hold on so I can finish the next task or load of laundry, or whatever. I don't need adderall to be a good mom or person. This drug totally changed the laid back fun loving person I was into a spastic robotic neat freak. No more. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ResilientCat Posted June 26, 2015 Report Share Posted June 26, 2015 Hi CarpeDiem, Congratulations on quitting adderall and cigarettes! I totally know what you mean with becoming so task oriented. I've realized on stimulants everything becomes a task on the to do list... Including social events, family time... I don't enjoy that quality time like I used to. And cleaning or organizing always seem more important! There is so much more to life! I've been thinking of trying L-tyrosine when I finally wean down to nothing... What dose of tyrosine do you take? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 26, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 26, 2015 I've been taking two 500mg capsules in the morning on an empty stomach. It's helped so much. There are two other things by a company called Now that I've been taking. It's L- theanine for anxiety and something called True Focus for mood and focus. I ordered them off of Amazon and really like them so far. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted June 26, 2015 Report Share Posted June 26, 2015 OMG Congratulations CarpeDiem! Such a wonderful decision you've made. It sounds like you've been working hard on this for some time already. I'm so happy for you that you are now in a position to take that final and wonderful step! Welcome to the boards! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 26, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 26, 2015 Thanks! I feel great! Not nearly as bad as I thought. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ResilientCat Posted June 27, 2015 Report Share Posted June 27, 2015 This is so great to hear, well done! You are an inspiration to me!!! 😊👠Think I will have to get some L-Tyrosine for when I actually quit. Lots of good reports on here. Will also look into the Now supplements... Thanks for the tips... Gonna need all the help I can get! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 27, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 27, 2015 Second day without adderall and all is well! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted June 29, 2015 Report Share Posted June 29, 2015 Congrats CarpeDiem! It's a roller coaster but hang on because it's so worth it! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 29, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2015 Thanks! Tomorrow is day five without adderall and I feel pretty damn good! Went on a three and a half mike walk with my daughter in her stroller today, eating good food, laughing, sleeping great. For being on really high doses for so many years, I was bracing for the worst, but I'm so ready to never take that nasty drug again. Thanks for all the support on here 😊â¤ï¸ 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted June 29, 2015 Report Share Posted June 29, 2015 Wow! I hope that you have continued good luck with your quit. Don't get discouraged if you slip a bit and feel like a slug. it is okay to be less than perfect. Welcome to the forum! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 29, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2015 Thanks, AlwaysAwesone. I look forward to the future. I'm so glad I found this site ðŸ‘🻠2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted June 29, 2015 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2015 Oops, meant AlwaysAwesome. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
survived Posted July 1, 2015 Report Share Posted July 1, 2015 Congrats on your quit Carpediem! Welcome, and I hope to see you around the boards! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted July 2, 2015 Report Share Posted July 2, 2015 How are you feeling? Still hanging in there? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted July 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 2, 2015 Today is day 7 without adderall, although it feels like day 535764. I'm doing fine though. I'm a little crabby the last few days, but I think that's a touch of PMS ðŸ˜. Or maybe a combo of the two. My daughter is with my parents for the night and it's raining here, so I'm on the couch with a book and some peace and quiet. I see a nap in my near future! Overall though, I don't regret quitting for one second. I just couldn't do it anymore. I want to live a long and healthy life, and the way I was going, that wasn't going to happen. Exercise has really helped give me a boost too, combined with the vitamins. Thanks for checking on me, AlwaysAwesome. This site and the folks on it make this quitting journey so much less lonely. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted July 2, 2015 Report Share Posted July 2, 2015 This post makes me so happy. Keep up the awesome work! By the way, check out this thread. You can post every day to let us know how you are doing so we can highfive you each day! http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/1742-the-30-day-challenge-reloaded-welcome-all Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted July 2, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 2, 2015 Thanks !!!ðŸ†ðŸ† Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ResilientCat Posted July 4, 2015 Report Share Posted July 4, 2015 Congrats on a full week CarpeDiem!!! ðŸ‘🎉 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted July 4, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 4, 2015 Thank you! Today is day nine and I'm hanging in there. Happy fourth everyone 💥💥 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted July 7, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 7, 2015 I think I'm the only one here most days, lol. Anywho- day 12 just about done! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted July 7, 2015 Report Share Posted July 7, 2015 congrats! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nouedis Posted July 8, 2015 Report Share Posted July 8, 2015 Congratulations! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ResilientCat Posted July 8, 2015 Report Share Posted July 8, 2015 Woohoo!! This is great news... Nearly 2 weeks well done!! Keep the updates coming 😊 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarpeDiem! Posted July 17, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 17, 2015 Day 22, and I'm ok! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spence23 Posted July 22, 2015 Report Share Posted July 22, 2015 Awesome job staying clean for 23 days! Keep it up I am almost 3 months without Adderall after being addicted to it for 7 years. It feels so good to know that there are people who are going through what I am. I still get the craving for it MULTIPLE times a day, and I plan on those urges staying with me for years to come. Just try to remember to take every day at a time. If you ever need someone to talk to about your addiction I am a message away The reason I quit was because my heart began palpitating and going crazy (I used to drink a pot of coffee and worked out while on my stimulants). Although it is gradually improving, I know the drug damaged my heart. I am curious, since you took such a large dosage, if you ever had any of the same symptoms as me.. At times I felt like I was going to fall over and have a heart attack.. but mainly just constant heart ache. Currently my heart only aches if I drink ANY coffee or go on a hard run. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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