Popular Post Frank B Posted September 7, 2016 Popular Post Report Share Posted September 7, 2016 Recently I have been steadily gaining self motivation unlike what I have ever experienced in the past several months since quitting. Instead of dreading things making them look like mountains I'm slowly building up steam to conquer these task and once started on them they do not seem like mountains but smaller hills. Im also gaining that feeling of "fuck rest" Im tired of wasting my spare time away on the couch I'm wanting to do more and actually doing it! I'm not just thinking about doing it. I still have yet to touch a sip of caffeine for three weeks plus I cant say that is why the change for the better or not but can say I have more cash in my wallet. Hope this is maybe a little inspirational and hopefully things keep going the right direction. 8 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted September 10, 2016 Author Report Share Posted September 10, 2016 Had a really good workout today had that sort pain u get near your rib cage, I love that feeling. Then came home cleaned the garage I'm worn out in a good way. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted September 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted September 12, 2016 Had a good weekend sort of relaxed today but over all feel like things are turning for the better. Yesterday took kids to the pool played basketball with my older son "he beat me by one grr lol jk" went to a small sort of weekend old town ate dinner went shopping enjoyed the day did not feel tired and had a good time. Looking forward to a hopefully productive week. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluemoon Posted September 12, 2016 Report Share Posted September 12, 2016 That's awesome Frank. Glad to hear things are looking up for you. I've been feeling pretty shitty over here lol. Maybe I should try cutting out caffeine and see what happens. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Danquit Posted September 12, 2016 Report Share Posted September 12, 2016 Very encouraging Frank! I'm glad to see you're doing better at almost 10 months. You're living your life without Adderall! Bluemoon, I'm sorry to see you not doing so great but keep on going and don't look back. Just put one foot in front of the other and move forward. Caffeine seemed to help me in the early days but now when I have a cup, it gives me anxiety even though it does help me wake up in the morning. I just don't understand how Adderall, a potent stimulant, could remove all my anxiety and fears. I guess that's why I loved it so much. Anyway, hang in there, I'm sure you're close to another breakthrough! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted September 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted September 12, 2016 That's awesome Frank. Glad to hear things are looking up for you. I've been feeling pretty shitty over here lol. Maybe I should try cutting out caffeine and see what happens. I'm not sure how much I can credit no caffeine but it may have played a role. Your body builds up a tolerance to caffeine so in order to feel normal you must dink it often or you start to crash. I'm sure if I had a cup of coffee today Id be feeling a big caffeine kick but then I do it again tomorrow a little less. If I continued everyday for a week I would need a cup just to get back to how I feel now with none at all. Its just like any stimulant your body builds tolerance then you need more and more to feel normal. I wish that I tried this experiment earlier in my recovery. Hope things get better for you we all recover at a different speed but seems like my progress has always been a little quicker then yours but you always seem to catch up so hang in there! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
msb1128 Posted September 23, 2016 Report Share Posted September 23, 2016 Frank B, last time I was on I remember you were really struggling. It's great to hear you're doing so well!!! Sounds like you're over the worst and on your way! Danquit, the anxiety thing is indeed weird. You would think you'd be less anxious giving up a stimulant like adderall since it sometimes can rev you up too much, but I went through a period about two months into quitting where I was very anxious. It was this constant feeling of dread, like always sensing something horrific was about to happen. I guess maybe the adderall gave us a shot of confidence, albeit artificial confidence, while we were taking it. :/ 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted September 23, 2016 Author Report Share Posted September 23, 2016 Update this week was pretty decent would like to be doing more but overall can accept where my progress is. I gave into having a cup of coffee in the morning the other day it really kicked me into gear on a day I was dragging ass. I think if I limit caffine to the minimum mornings only it is way more beneficial then loading up all day. Although I had a cup again today in the morning had bad anxiety. I told myself will only drink regular old coffee to get caffeine not waste money on overpriced rip off energy shots or drinks. I'm glad I did stop caffeine for a few weeks now actually feel the benefits when I really need it. Side note had a temptation for a easy score of oxy today and I didn't even break a sweat. I mean that literally in the past if I came across them by chance I actually sweated thinking about them right in front of me. Now the only thing that comes to mind sure I can take one feel great for a couple hours then have a consuming guilt of ruining 9 months without giving in. I also consider the consequences of getting caught taking one that's not mine while I was addicted that never made me not do it in fact made it more of a thrill but now I see the big picture a little buzz is not worth risking what I do have. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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