5 Worst Things Adderall Did To You?

[StAnne0822]

What were the 5 worst things adderall did to you, now that you are off and can look back?

Mine (not in order as it all was bad):

1. Paranoia 

2. Manic episodes 

3. Physical issues - shaking, sweating,  stomach problems 

4. Delusional thoughts 

5.  Hurt my family 

[Somewhere]

1. Sleep Deprivation
2. Destruction of all routines, non-work commitments (especially working out and writing)
3. Got me out of shape
4. Health concerns (physical and psychological: stomach/digestive problems, sweating; paranoia, impatience, quick temper)
5. Caused a rift in relationships, social life

After looking over this list, it feels like each symptom was caused or exacerbated by the previous one.

[StAnne0822]

22 minutes ago, Somewhere said:

1. Sleep Deprivation
2. Destruction of all routines, non-work commitments (especially working out and writing)
3. Got me out of shape
4. Health concerns (physical and psychological: stomach/digestive problems, sweating; paranoia, impatience, quick temper)
5. Caused a rift in relationships, social life

After looking over this list, it feels like each symptom was caused or exacerbated by the previous one.

Well said, I was thinking that as well, they all grew with each other making it all worse.  Thanks for sharing!

[LuLamb]

1. Undermined my self-trust

[LuLamb]

2. Made me age more quickly

3. Acted like a gateway drug: pot, alcohol, tobacco...

 

[Tom23Jones]

1. Extreme anxiety/ paranoia

2. Made me a liar and a thief

3. Stole a decade from me of what could have been positive growth 

4. Wrecked my health; sleep, digestive, nutrition, cardio was all trash

5. Wrecked a lot of relationships

[LuLamb]

4. Really caused some damage to me physically: led me to over-do-it physically resulting in herniated disks which cause constant issues with nerve pain all over my right side. The clincher was the time I decided the paved walkway in my backyard needed to be re-done (all by myself, mind you). I spent my weekends going to Home Depot buying 50# bags of crushed granite, huge paving stones, etc. Loading and unloading all of it by myself; digging the long trench the new path required (by myself)...you get the picture. Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever...crazy stupid body-breaking adderall-fueled "seemed-like-a-good-idea-at-the-time" projects...

[LuLamb]

5. Led me DEEP into debt. 

[quit-once]

On 4/10/2020 at 0:25 PM, LuLamb said:

Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever.

That gave me a good laugh as well.  I certainly moved a lot of big rocks that didn't need to be moved, but at least I owned the rocks and the land and I can still look at them and shake my head.  I grew more gray hair in a short amount of time on adderall as well.  After quitting, the gray hair turned back to brown for a few more years.  I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

[dolssa]

1. made me a zombie (could not feel any emotions)

2. isolated me from everyone. no close meaningful friendships. i only cared about my pill bottle, i literally had feelings for it

3. no personal growth, because adderall makes you only successful in your head so I spent 5 years in an adderall rollercoster not getting anywhere

4. MIND RACING A MILLION MILES A FUCKING MINUTE 

5. deep sleep? don't know her

[StAnne0822]

1 hour ago, quit-once said:

I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

What type of side effects?

[Mark S]

Gave me so much anxiety I would have panic attacks and was afraid to talk to people or be around people. Every family.

2 self isolation. No one could understand why I chose to stay in my room all the time. It distance me from my kids and family when they needed me. I still have lots of regret on this one

3 financial ruin. I couldn’t work for a year because of anxiety issues. This is especially painful because I’m 55 

4 depression for having altered my brain so much. I that I lost so much.

5 lots of physical health decline. Age faster teeth decay BP issues facial tics I would unconsciously rapidly move my tongue back and forth . People would laugh it was so humiliating and embarrassing 

[LuLamb]

11 hours ago, quit-once said:

That gave me a good laugh as well.  I certainly moved a lot of big rocks that didn't need to be moved, but at least I owned the rocks and the land and I can still look at them and shake my head.  I grew more gray hair in a short amount of time on adderall as well.  After quitting, the gray hair turned back to brown for a few more years.  I feel really lucky that I slithered out of that addiction without any significant long term health problems, despite plenty of side effects while using the shit.

I don’t live in that house anymore, but I’ve actually looked at GoogleEarth pics Before to see that pathway I made so I can laugh and shake my head about, lol.

 

[quit-once]

17 hours ago, StAnne0822 said:

What type of side effects?

Just these:

 

[StAnne0822]

55 minutes ago, quit-once said:

Just these:

 

I was told I was similar to an alcoholic by my counseling. 

[m34]

1) skin problems to the max, embarrassing 

2)anxiety and jealous tendencies in relationships 

3) tense muscles constantly

4) being held back because I would rely on the drug to “push” and motivate my projects. When I was out my life was on hold until I could get more 

5) financial issues from instant gratification spending of all types.

[Civilengr2020]

Hurt a lot of women/past relationships 

gave me an “addictive” personality; Illegal drugs, alcohol, porn, risky behaviors

killed my spiritual life

Indifferent towards family and friends 

Converted me into a scumbag version of my true self 

 

 

[DelaneyJuliette]

On 4/10/2020 at 2:25 PM, LuLamb said:

4. Really caused some damage to me physically: led me to over-do-it physically resulting in herniated disks which cause constant issues with nerve pain all over my right side. The clincher was the time I decided the paved walkway in my backyard needed to be re-done (all by myself, mind you). I spent my weekends going to Home Depot buying 50# bags of crushed granite, huge paving stones, etc. Loading and unloading all of it by myself; digging the long trench the new path required (by myself)...you get the picture. Oh - and the house was a RENTAL and I spent all of my own money, time, and energy doing it and I never even asked the landlord if he minded or whatever...crazy stupid body-breaking adderall-fueled "seemed-like-a-good-idea-at-the-time" projects...

omg i so relate.

[DelaneyJuliette]

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

[StAnne0822]

10 hours ago, Civilengr2020 said:

Hurt a lot of women/past relationships 

gave me an “addictive” personality; Illegal drugs, alcohol, porn, risky behaviors

killed my spiritual life

Indifferent towards family and friends 

Converted me into a scumbag version of my true self 

 

 

Thank you for sharing! 

On 4/12/2020 at 6:00 PM, quit-once said:

Just these:

 

I was told I was similar to an alcoholic by my counseling. 

[StAnne0822]

9 hours ago, DelaneyJuliette said:

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

Thank you for sharing!

[StAnne0822]

9 hours ago, DelaneyJuliette said:

1. Takes time away from my family

2. Causes me to stay at work til all hours of the night doing things that don't really matter but I am convinced that they do. 

3. I have spent so much money on people to help me "organize" when all I end up doing is moving shit around that I already don't need and then go by more on an adderall fueled frenzy. 

4. Waaay over-commit and then have to take more to actually get thru the committments... I don't have time for down time or reading or watching movies. 

5. No intimacy with my husband - literally, sex annoys me b/c I could be "doing something productive"

6. Less confidence in myself when not on it. 

7. Never ending cycle of awful. 

Thank you for sharing!

[LuLamb]

I’m realizing increasingly that my marriage never stood a chance while I was on Adderall. 

[DelaneyJuliette]

I often get angry at my husband and find that i choose to use and then blame my choice (in my head) on him being an asshole.  But the truth is, that just further fuels the negative cycle.

[LuLamb]

I used to use and go crazy on “home improvement” projects (aka marriage avoiding and destroying projects) and then get so upset that he “wasn’t doing anything”. It’s insane and heartbreaking to think about.