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I’ve been prescribed adderall since march of 2023. It seemed positive at first. I obtained my drivers license and I bought a car to do Uber eats. That was working for quite a while. I stopped going to college because I decided at the time, that is was not for me. But suddenly I started to decline when my psychiatrist prescribed Zoloft. Zoloft and adderall do not mix. I spent my savings and racked up three thousand dollars in credit card debt from affirm, buying shit like game consoles, AirPods for christmas and heaters, etc. I stopped Zoloft, and adderall fucked my life up In a single month i said I don’t want any more adderall. I was put on Ritalin but that shit only made be high and tired. I crashed my car because of that. Luckily I was not on a trip for uber. Stimulants have destroyed my life. Taking these medications everyday is not for me anymore.

I don't know what is going on with me at this point. I’ve been off Adderall for approximately three months with the first two weeks being the worst. I am having anxiety on a daily basis. Of course my thoughts are to take a pill but I’m not going to throw away three months just to experiment. I have also taken benzos forever along with Adderall but didn't expect to need them when i quit adderall . Does anybody else experience anxiety after quitting adderall? Thanks for being here. This is the only place I trust that I will read actual experience of Adderall users..

As usual I am almost out of 90 pills in 4 days of 20 mg this is by far the worst I've ever but felt I can't collect my thoughts I haven't slept I'm so choking on thick slam my teeth are drying her they were once so beautiful my skin is dried out and my toes are turning a darker color my eyelashes are falling out and I can barely even talk why do I do this to myself It's hard to make eye contact with people cuz I know they would know I sat on the floor today in a psychosis like state not moving because I haven't slept since 2 days ago and I've been working in the hospital as a nurse for the last 4 days this has to go before something bad happens as I'm sitting on the floor not sure what I'm doing completely disassociated I just start to pee myself , I looked down and urine is just leaking because I never put clothes on after getting out of the bath that I laid until it was cold for 2 hours I'm 34 years old I'm pretty I'm smart I know this but I also know something that's going to happen if I don't stop

I seriously hope you are ok. You deserve to be ok ❤️ it’s not worth what you are going through! As I tell more and more people about my journey they are so supportive. You just have to ask for help. Sending you good vibes, prayers and love your way!

@LILTEX41I'm so happy for you. You made it back into the zone! I'm so sorry to hear about your fur baby's brain tumor. They really do leave us too soon. I wish we could give them some of our years. I'm glad you added new kittens to your family. They are so helpful with healing the broken heart.

Hi dyingalive, Please call you prescriber and tell them what's happening. It's scary to do so because they'll take the pills away but this is what you know needs to happen. You said it yourself. "Something is going to happen" if you don't stop. And you will die. Going through almost 4g in 4 days is taking an incredible toll on your body and health. We're here to support you but we can only do so much as we are strangers on the internet. Please, please, please seek help in person. I don't know much about the symptoms you describe but you may very well need medical attention already. Have you eaten? Haven you taken fluids? What you're describing sounds scary. Take care of yourself, we want you to get well!

Tomorrow it will be two years since I’ve taken adderall!!! Woohoo. Wow crazy. Just posting in case anyone is looking for encouragement. I was on adderal for about 10 years daily use about 40 mg a day.. it got so bad I would take it sometimes before I would get out of bed and wait until it kicked it. I was highly dependent on it and would be panicking if I had to go to work without it. Life seemed to revolve around when I would get refills and when I would take the medicine. It got to a point where I would use something as simple as doing the dishes for an excuse to take it. My mental health was terrible.. bad social anxiety.. no exercise, cholesterol and blood pressure were rising. I’m pretty sure adderal had a part in giving me thyroid disease but it could have been the massive stress I was under. Two main things pushed me to quit finally.. one was the adderal shortage started and it was harder to get refills and two I realized that my sleepless nights that occurred very often were very bad for me. There were many nights I would get two hours of sleep.. averaged like 5 hours a night and would take Benadryl every night just to sleep. im happy to report things are going awesome!! I’m killing it at my job.. im doing way better than I ever did on adderal, making more money. My cholesterol and blood pressure are normal and i sleep great. I also work out now 3 times a week which I never made time for before when all I wanted to do was clean and do work. It wasn’t easy it was one of the hardest things I ever did but it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

Thank you so much

I can’t believe it has been 2 years since my last dose already. It’s crazy how powerful the drug is. I hadn’t had a craving or even thought about the drug in months and last Friday that little voice in my head was telling me that I could take a dose and finish a task and it won’t bother me. It’s an ongoing battle but you can’t make the decision each day not to. You have to decide up front and never stray from it. Good luck to those still trying and to those who have been successful! Hope everyone has a great 2024

I had extreme anxiety when I quit.. it’s normal and gets better. I had to start on Paxil 10 mg to curb the symptoms but it’s been year and 4 months now and I’m doing much better. Keep up the good work!

Thanks guys for the considerate and thoughtful replies...I have a history of pill addiction in my past and have recovered before with a twelve step program. The key to recovery is a loving connection with self through God as we understand him. When I hear of the long term recovery and consequences of Adderall, I know that the key to moving forward Is to shut the shame down, name it so I can tame it and understand that I am a loving child of God. I won’t beat myself up and I know what a loving empathic person I am. I’m also the most sassy and resilient woman you will ever meet and being honest to myself and others is key. The problem with any addictive substance is the shame and secrecy’s and the lack of self love and compassion. Through the years I have learned that if you don’t have compassion for yourself then you won’t have it with others. I am human, I have insecurities but I am always learning and remain humble and teachable. Addiction will not survive in environments with connection, support and self love. I also will not deny that ADD is real and I was a child that battled with it and still suffer from this disorder in the work place and personal life. From lack of confidence in my abilities and perfectionism (beating myself up). The meds worked at first and then I realized they were controlling me. Who wants a monkey on their back continuously ugh... Again thanks for the replies...I need the support right now regards Bell xo

I needed to read this today! Its been 3.5 months and since I quit and I haven't been able to get back some of the things I use to love. Ive also gained 10 lbs which isn't helping with the depression. Anyway... thanks for the post. It's important that I remind myself this is temporary.

Awesome post. Should be turned into an article that's fixed to the home page.