[my very sad miserable life]

My self esteem has been shattered by this pill. I easily get anxious. When this happens, I can't function or get anything done.

[my very sad miserable life]

Does adderall make anyone feel psychologically paralyzed and have abnormal thoughts.

[my very sad miserable life]

Hey everyone.to start with, I wanna thank the maker of this website. It's the only useful forum right now. I'm 18 years old and I have been on adderall since 6th grade. I just finished high school with a very low GPA. Last year, I popped too much adderall. I took around 80mg to 100 mg. I took adderall with caffeine and if u were a tweaked, u know that caffeine makes it more intense. In school I went through daily withdrawals. I was up all night doing meaningless things, while in the day I slept throughout all my classes. I used to do well during junior year. I could easily think, with or without adderall. My life was full of positivity and the year was great. 2013 and 2014 were really good years. The more I used adderall the more I became stupid. My thinking patterns have been greatly altered by the binges. Around August of 2014, I noticed a slight change in my psychology but it wasn't too concerning. My emotions have been incredibly dulled by this pill. I feel like a zombie who is half alive. I'm trying so hard to live life but it seems so difficult. I have really slow reflexes, my thoughts are very slow. IV ruined my creativity and I'm really down. I don't want to be put on anti depressants because I was never depressed until I abused adderall. Sometimes I get terrible anxiety attacks. I can physically feel my brain like there's something wrong with it. I'm scared of psychosis and not returning to normal. IV been sober for 60 days but I don't see any improvements. Should I also stop caffeine? I wanna be stimulant free.