Thanks for sharing your story. I wish I had found this website sooner. It sounds like we started taking Adderall around the same time. I keep my addiction a secret and it has honestly been so comforting to finally be able to talk to other people who can actually relate to what I'm going through. I can relate to pretty much everything you said. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Since finding this website, I feel like I finally have the strength to quit for good this time. I'm just trying to strategize and find the right time to flush the rest of my pills. I know I'll be pretty useless without them and I have a very demanding job. I'm not trying to make excuses, but I'm under a lot of pressure at work and I don't think I can handle being in withdrawal while at work. I have a week off at Christmas, so that would be the most ideal time to quit... But at the same time, I don't want to put myself through another month of this hell and delay my recovery any longer. Ugh
How are you doing since quitting? It sounds like you are under a lot of pressure work wise as well. Please keep us posted on how your recovery is going. Your story really struck a chord with me.