LILTEX41

Hi QA Friends, I am so excited to report that today, I have been clean for 21 months! I am so grateful that I've made it this far beyond my wildest dreams. I was so far gone 21 months ago it makes me cringe. I have had so many life changes in the past 6 months. I sold my condo, started a new job at my dad's company, moved into my fiancé's house for 4.5 months, and we just recently moved into this glorious new home. My future stepchildren will live with us part-time. I had to put my kitty down a month ago, and it was devasting. She had a brain tumor. I was so sad I went out and got two new ragdoll kittens, the cutest things on earth. Anyhow, with so much going on, I realized I need to get back to meetings, or I am in a dangerous place, as when life gets good, I tend to relapse. I just want to tell anyone struggling with this addiction to please not give up. Life is so much easier without the volatile ups and downs of the binge/recover cycle of Adderall abuse. Do whatever it takes to find your way out! Godspeed my friends! Liltex

@Hmmmm Congrats on your 4 months and going to rehab!! That's such a huge step and life-changing. I reiterate what Doge said about trying an NA meeting. Going and listening is perfectly great! It's amazing what a support group can do. I know from experience that not having one leads me to my way back out to my addictions. My life has been crazy, but today I am so PROUD to say I have 21 months clean again!!! Stick with it and please keep fighting. It will get easier, I promise!

@Lizzie Congratulations!!! So proud and happy for you!!

Dear Hopefully, I am so happy to hear I've inspired someone out there! This makes my heart smile beyond words! <3 Please let me know how the Naltrexone goes!! It is incredibly cheap and sometimes even free with insurance!! It's the most beautiful thing that's ever happened to me. I was so horribly hooked on alcohol, kratom, and concerta. I never thought I wouldn't struggle to want those things, but I never think about them. It's miraculous!! As far as marathoning, omg, yes, get it!! Are you running now and working towards the marathon goal? I am more than happy to share my favorite training plans and anything I can to help you. Crossing that finish line is one of the most epic feelings ever! You will love it!! And yes, I can't suggest running enough for post-adderall recovery. It's a life saver! Feel free to message me anytime and keep us posted on your training and kicking that last 10mg. You got this!! Love, LilTex

Dear QA Friends, Eighteen months ago today, on 2-22-2022, I had the most epic downfall of my life. As I was being presented on stage at a sales kickoff event for work in Las Vegas, I was tweaking out of my mind and drifted into hallucinations of things that still, to this day, I cannot conceive possible. I hit the hardest rock bottom of my life and lost my job. It was the most tragic thing that happened to me as I loved my job more than any job I had ever known, and I worked around the clock for 18 months straight. I was a president's club winner, received a promotion, and worked on multiple projects for this company. My epic $838,000 sale was presented on stage at sales kickoff, but I had spiraled so far out of control with alcohol and concerta I lost everything. I was unemployed for 8 months. I could not find a job. It was god awful. I went from being the company's star to what felt like the world's biggest loser. Today, 18 months later, I am happy to say life is good again. I am engaged to a lovely man who has two small children and I will become a stepmom next spring. I sold my condo, and we are building a brand new amazing dream home, which we will move into this November. I have three jobs today. I am now working for my dad's company and have begun a new career in finance. I also work for a triathlon company with my fiance and get to serve athletes at racing events all over Ohio. Last but not least, we are eloping to Maui, HI, in May, running a half marathon on my birthday, and then getting married on the beach at sunset. It's all on my birthday (the day we got engaged) last year. I also work at a retail store for discounts and fun. I have restored my relationship with my family members and have a total new life. I also just completed Ironman Louisville 70.3 this past Sunday. It was epic. I mention all these things to give hope to anyone out there who is struggling to find their way out of addiction to Adderall and or any ADHD medication, amongst other drugs. I've had addiction issues since I was 13 years old, and I am now 45. It is never too late. It's amazing looking back at how much changed in just 18 months. It makes me wonder where I will be 18 months from today as long as I continue to stay clean and sober. The one different thing is this. time around I began taking Naltrexone which has been a God send. It eliminated my cravings for all drugs and alcohol. I do no want any of it, and I don't even attend meetings. The desire is not there, so I'm good. Not that meetings can't be helpful; having a support group is great. I just don't have time for one at this point in my life I have so many things going on. However, my fiance doesn't drink with me and supports me 100%, which is truly the most remarkable and incredible thing that has helped me. We do a lot of road races and keep ourselves busy with all kinds of fun activities. I don't even miss my old, wild, crazy days. I am happy with the simple things in life, like taking road trips, spending time with family and friends, etc. Please don't hesitate to post your story if you come here lurking around and need help. We want to help you. Secrets will keep you stuck. Please share your story and open up the doors of your soul to those of us who have found our way out of hell. The flip side is a much happier place. Peace, love, and joy to all. Love, Liltex41 P.S. I've had this dream for over 10 years that one day I will write a novel, and it will be called... Cheers to another chapter written, lol.

Absolutely not. You have accumulated all those days off the drug rewiring your brain to form a different habit. Please don’t ever let anyone tell you that you’re back to square one!! Not true!

@quit-once I can't believe I never put two and two together regarding your nickname here. I love it so much!!! It's PERFECT!

@DogeAwe, I am so glad my story encouraged you! How are you doing? Still going strong, I hope?

Doge, I am so proud of you for getting back on track and coming here to share your story. You reminded me I need to check in on this forum more often and stick with the winners. It helps to help others. This addiction is brutal, and I am so grateful to have found my way out again. I wanted to give an update on my life to anyone who has heard my story so as to provide some hope and inspiration. I have been clean and sober for almost 16 months now. I recently got engaged and am in the process of building a gorgeous new big home for us and my fiancee's children. I'm going to be a stepmom. <3 I've been offered a job at my dad's company, working in the financial industry. I am finally escaping the minimum-wage job I had to take due to hitting rock bottom with my Concerta prescription. All I know is I don't ever want to go through this horror story again. We spent this last weekend running, biking, swimming, and moving almost everything from my condo to a storage unit. I did all this work with no stimulants and once again proved to myself it could be done and that I could achieve so many great things without it on my own accord. I am mentally, physically, and spiritually in a better place today. How I fell back down the rabbit hole blows my mind, but your post made me feel better in the fact that I am not alone. We must stay vigilant of our recovery and never take our foot off the gas. I am just so glad to hear you got right back on track and didn't have to lose another year or two of your life being consumed by the addiction all over again. Stick with us here, and thank you again for sharing your story! You never know who you just helped by sharing it.

Hi QA Community, I decided to make a chart this morning to keep a logical frame of mind regarding stimulant abuse and keep the negative consequences UP FRONT AND CENTER so that I do not start thinking positively about the substance again and stay on the right track. I would love to continue this list of pros and cons if anyone else wants to add to the list with me.

Sending prayers your way! I love that you mentioned it doesn't throw away all of your growth. Think of the slip like a flat tire. You are back on the highway now and right back on track. Keep going!

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You CAN DO THIS! Don't give up!!! 8 months is amazing! Just get back on the horse and keep going!

Congrats!! So happy to hear this! 9 days is a game changer! Just don't give up! I have to share my exciting news. I just got back from Arizona this afternoon. I won 1st place Female Masters Division at the Saguaro Half Marathon. This was the hardest half marathon I've ever done as it was 7 miles on the road (uphill in the mountains) and then 6 miles in the Saguaro Desert. It was insane! I wiped out 3 times on the rocks and managed to roll right out of it back on my feet. This took place 1 day after my 1 year anniversary of quitting Concerta. It was the best reward for staying clean I could've ever dreamed of. Good things happen when you're clean & "sober"... at least for me they do! Hope this brings you fuel for today to keep going. Cheers!