nlz104
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I am taking 80 lb in less than a week I'm to the point where I was before when I was abusing it and for what nothing but a false sense of energy and I'm getting things done and I have to be focused but really I don't have to be I need to be a mom in a good one and in my head I said it was going to only take it when I work the night shift then now it's gone and I haven't slept in days and I kept taking it cuz I don't want to gain any weight back it's been forever since I've been the skinny and I've gotten so many compliments but my mind is so fucked up and I'm not even getting anything done and it's not like I can even tell anybody anything I'm such a happy person and when I take it I'm so irritable unemotional and it's to the point where I'm just seeing things cuz I'm so tired and I'm random body twitches when I should just be asleep I hate who I am on this shit I know better
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I quit and this Website did help - Here is my story
nlz104 replied to Hello542's topic in Tell your story
Tell me not to pick up my prescription tomorrow even though I'm eagerly waiting for it to be refilled -
How are my moms out there
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Day 1 over, fatigue hasn't reached me yet but the tears have been flooding all day, had stressful news today which didn't help but maybe I'm being tested. I relapsed on this prescription after 10months but have been clean from alcohol almost 3 years and haven't touched opiates in probably 8-9years. This doesn't throw away all of my growth but it does show thst I need to have a stronger foundation. Prayers plz
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Day one,
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Well I'll be back starting tomorrow made it almost 8 months. It's crazy to me how it fucks with my confidence, self esteem, my everything. I lose all strength and wallow in shame. Ppl don't understand wat it does to some ppl, it rips all my hard work out from under me and crushes my mind with negative thoughts and suspicious feelings, things that aren't me. My eyes dried out, mouth clenched, chest heavy, dint want to eat or drink, socially isolated, obsessing over things thatd usually never bother me. I can do this
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Relapsed a week ago, now i remember why i stopped, the lick jaw dry mouth ears full, dried film in back of my throat, inability to socialize and be me who i love. I type type search do do do and yet hav done nothing. In 1 week ive turned my own mind into a mess. Fuk this shyt.. But whst i know is even though im going to feel horrible i know now that i dont like this anymore and ill be ok
