Teresa

Congratulations! That's awesome I am close to that. I wish I felt a little more awesome but I guess just going to take time it took me years to do the damage so it's going to take time to undo it.

Hi @Krae19&@ALA. I have been clean since January 16th . I thought it was February but I had to look back at my texting and it was January 16th so I've been clean longer than I thought! I started in 2018 I believe. I was clean several years before that then started up again. I cleaned new construction for 20 years so it was my crutch. "I needed" it. I had to be a perfectionist at my job. It was taking a toll on my body. I am quite a bit older than you two and it is bad My arms were killing me my hands were stiff I ached all over, but I blamed the hard work I was doing I had high blood pressure I was on a mission to kill myself I guess. I just live in denial. When I don't take it I cry a lot I think I have gotten past that finally but when I would get back on it after quitting I would feel so on top of the world. In February 2019 we took on two little granddaughters 9 months and 2 So I retired from new construction cleaning and started over raising children. we were just at the beginning of remodeling our house and so we had a lot going on now we really have a lot going on so I kept taking it. Praise God after 3 years Mom really got her act together and now we're back to being Grandma and Grandpa. I also take care of my 38-year-old disabled son who requires 24-hour care I get paid to do that and I keep him 3 days a week 24-hour shift He's not too much work just mentally. He had a bad reaction to his DPT shots at 2 months and he's basically 9 months to2 years. He's nonverbal and can be aggressive. I am sorry I am writing a book I just get talking and I never quit. So I will quit rambling I can tell you more later anyway my point being I totally understand where you are coming from and why we do what we do. I am so glad to be clean but I miss it I don't want to do it again because I want to live to see my grandchildren grow up I am so glad I found this group because you guys all know where I'm coming from. My husband has a little bit of a hard time understanding it because he is not an addictive type person and I totally am. Okay I'm going to say goodnight for now. Please reach out to me if there's anything you would like to talk about. I have pretty much been there done that!!

I quit cold turkey on January 16th. It was awful. I couldn't sleep. I finally started taking CBD gummies with 3 mg THC an hour before bed and it has helped. I still have very little ambition or energy. I was taking 60 to 100 mg per day. I just want to get better!!

Thank you so much. Those words are so encouraging. I know I am kind of off the going crazy trying to find supplements to fix me because that can get crazy expensive! This is awesome I don't feel so alone!

I also took high doses. Like sometimes 120 mg a day. I always ran out before my prescription was due. I would get so mad at myself but it didn't matter

WOW Thank you so much!!! I am totally into mushroom supplements I will look into that immediately because of course I am always looking for a fix per say I do take lots of vitamin b and magnesium and zinc and I've been trying to drink lots of water and I drink green drinks you know the whole nine yards I just keep telling myself it is going to take time. And since I quit taking it my arms feel great that's pretty scary. I so appreciate your feedback Thank you again.

Trevor95... That was like reading my own story I know exactly how you feel. I wish I had the antidote for all of us but I am in the same boat as you. I never got it off the street and I've done meth in the past and don't ever ever go to that with all the fentanyl that's out there you could do one dose and be dead not an option. I think about it everyday and wish I had some but it's just a vicious cycle so I guess I will just keep plugging forward I have lost interest in everything I loved. I crafted all the time kept my house immaculent and now I don't do any of it. My house is okay but barely. I just joined this group so if I come across something that might be helpful to you I will certainly let you know

Hi there I thought this might be a good place to be. I have been off Adderall for 3 months. It is still hard. I have no ambition and I don't care. I have been taking supplements and just trying to be kind to myself and be patient. My husband is patient and understanding. Has anybody taken any supplements that has helped their brain start healing. I was on Adderall for at least 5 years I quit taking it before and stayed off of it for a few years and then went back to it and when I took it again it felt like oh boy I feel so normal again. However the damage it does to your body is so obvious My arms were hurting so bad I was getting arthritis and aching joints and I didn't want to have a stroke or die from it. I am 61 years old and I'm so sick of my behavior. Is it going to take years for my brain to heal? I would love to hear from y'all because somebody might have some great suggestions that I haven't thought of. Thank you for taking the time to read.