• Content count

  • Joined

  • Last visited

Community Reputation

1,654 Excellent


About quit-once

  • Rank
    Senior Member
  • Birthday 06/04/2011

Profile Information

  • Gender

Recent Profile Visitors

14,507 profile views
  1. Recovery from Relapse

    Hi, LilTex, glad you're back. Wow, a 2.5 year relapse is a long run. Was your relapse on alcohol, Adderall, or both? Are you still an advocate of Smart Recovery?
  2. I can't believe it's me...

    I am one who benefits from the placebo effect, so yes, that worked for me. The only CBD product I have tried is a muscle ointment I got from my chiropractor. CBD wasn't even a thing when I was recovering.
  3. I can't believe it's me...

    I used fake speed to curb my cravings. Anything that was stimulating that did not contain a stimulant drug - like five hour energy, energy pills from GNC or truck stops, or even slamming redbull. Vitamin B12 under the tongue gives a nice buzz. I was almost as addicted to taking a pill on a regular basis as I was to the actual drug. I used this approach well into the second year of my recovery.
  4. I can't believe it's me...

    Send that pill to hell and flush it now! (unless you already took it) I found a lone pill a couple of years ago, and I was going to hang on to it for a friend. The temptation was unbearable after about five minutes so I flushed that little blue fucker. Do you really want to go through this recovery game all over again? Don't give up, you have over a month of freedom under your belt already!
  5. I can't believe it's me...

    From my standpoint, I dread the thought of waking up under the addiction of Adderall. I just can't imagine how awful that would be anymore. I saw my adderall addiction as a mortgage on my future. The pain of recovery is merely the act of paying off that loan. The first ten weeks of recovery are absolute hell. But even during this challenging period, some days are better than others and eventually the good days will outnumber the bad days.
  6. Be careful, that can be a slippery slope. Even the smallest amount of the drug can change thinking pathways in your brain. It could be enough to make you just say "fuck it" and go back on it despite your best intentions. Total abstinence is the only effective way to ensure your Quit will succeed.
  7. Another motivating factor is that the opportunity to quit comes around infrequently. I found that to be true with both adderall and cigs. It could be another few months or years before you feel like quitting again. keep going!
  8. It's funny how that works. I used to quit smoking cigs by having them around, and when I kicked Adderall, I kept a mutilated melted glob of two burnt pills on a rock until.....well, I still have that trophy. I burned my last two available pills when I quit. What matters most is your solid determination to make this Quit succeed!
  9. Welcome to the forums. You have a good start with this endeavor by cutting off your supply. Being older certainly makes quitting more challenging. I was 48 when I quit after using it for nine years -and that was about eight years ago. When I was in the process of quitting, it gave me tremendous encouragement to read the stories of people who had actually successfully quit and moved on with their life. I've always felt there are three variables that impact the length and difficulty of Adderall recovery: how much you used (daily dose); how long you used (years on speed), and your age. I remember the early days of recovery, when food and rest were my main motivators. I hope you can rest a lot during these first few days of your journey. And don't worry about eating too much. I'm sure you know that drill..... Good Luck!
  10. Struggles of letting go

    Welcome to the forums. It certainly won't be your last time quitting if you don't so something different. Obviously, you haven't told your doctor you are ready to quit. That would be a big first step. It takes a log of courage to do that. If it is easier to lie, then tell your doctor a whopper like it gave you some really unpleasant side affects or tell the truth about how badly you dislike the ups and downs of your addiction. But if you don't cut off your supply you will be right back in adderall hell again next month. Another thing I suggest is to create some kind of negative outcome if you fail to quit this time, What could you consider to be a significant penalty or next step if this Quit fails?
  11. Have you tried the supplements, like St Johns Wort, L-Tyrosine, vitamin B-12, vitamin D and fish oils? I used all of these at some point and each one worked in their own way. I don't like drugs or doctors anymore.
  12. Doctors won't listen to my concerns

    Welcome to the forums. It sounds like you are sincere in your desire to kick the adderall habit. It is in the doctors' best interest to keep you prescribed to a drug - it's good for their business. Wow, you have seen three doctors and not one will unprescribe you the pills. That last suggestion of moving from adderall to Vyvanse just amazes me. Your beer to vodka analogy is spot on. You are also spot on about the depression. I tool it thinking it helped alleviate my depression while it really made it even worse. Depression is the #1 challenge with adderall recovery, so you need to be prepared for that. Look into some dopamine-retaining supplements or even antidepressant drugs like wellbutrin. Here is my suggestion: find a doctor who specializes in addiction medicine. It is one of the newest medical specialties and I don't know how easy it would be to find a doctor like that. But if you can, he may be able to give you some tools to rid yourself of the addiction. Another suggestion I have is to be more forceful with the doctors prescribing you the adderall and insist that taking speed isn't working for you anymore. Ten years is a long time to take speed. I took the shit for nine years and then quit eight years ago. Life is certainly much better on the other side of your addiction.
  13. Welcome to the Forum. Backpacking in the mountains is such a special experience! I'm sorry that your trip was ruined by a bad adderall experience. You've come to the right place to quit. With adderall, it's all or none. I suggest kicking them ASAP.
  14. 2 Years!

    I really like sugar-free red bull, and I really haven't noticed a down side to having one once in a while when I want a lift (or a mix with vodka). I also really enjoy my daily pot of coffee. Wow, it sure doesn't seem like it has been two years since you first started posting. I remember your early profile picture was a helicopter and I thought that was pretty cool. Thanks for sticking around and providing your valuable insight!
  15. I’ve been on adderall more than half my life....

    Wow, that must be awful! You had no preparation or notice that you were going to have to quit? I can only imagine how debilitating this must be for you. Your doctor was rightly concerned about your well being considering your heart condition. The good news is that after a few days, the struggle is entirely mental once the physical withdrawal symptoms have subsided. And quitting cold turkey gets the worst of the withdrawals over with in one lump sum so you can move on with your life and recovery from your 20+ years of adderall use. I wish you the best! Welcome to the forums. There is plenty of support here!