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  1. Another motivating factor is that the opportunity to quit comes around infrequently. I found that to be true with both adderall and cigs. It could be another few months or years before you feel like quitting again. keep going!
  2. It's funny how that works. I used to quit smoking cigs by having them around, and when I kicked Adderall, I kept a mutilated melted glob of two burnt pills on a rock until.....well, I still have that trophy. I burned my last two available pills when I quit. What matters most is your solid determination to make this Quit succeed!
  3. Welcome to the forums. You have a good start with this endeavor by cutting off your supply. Being older certainly makes quitting more challenging. I was 48 when I quit after using it for nine years -and that was about eight years ago. When I was in the process of quitting, it gave me tremendous encouragement to read the stories of people who had actually successfully quit and moved on with their life. I've always felt there are three variables that impact the length and difficulty of Adderall recovery: how much you used (daily dose); how long you used (years on speed), and your age. I remember the early days of recovery, when food and rest were my main motivators. I hope you can rest a lot during these first few days of your journey. And don't worry about eating too much. I'm sure you know that drill..... Good Luck!
  4. Struggles of letting go

    Welcome to the forums. It certainly won't be your last time quitting if you don't so something different. Obviously, you haven't told your doctor you are ready to quit. That would be a big first step. It takes a log of courage to do that. If it is easier to lie, then tell your doctor a whopper like it gave you some really unpleasant side affects or tell the truth about how badly you dislike the ups and downs of your addiction. But if you don't cut off your supply you will be right back in adderall hell again next month. Another thing I suggest is to create some kind of negative outcome if you fail to quit this time, What could you consider to be a significant penalty or next step if this Quit fails?
  5. Have you tried the supplements, like St Johns Wort, L-Tyrosine, vitamin B-12, vitamin D and fish oils? I used all of these at some point and each one worked in their own way. I don't like drugs or doctors anymore.
  6. Doctors won't listen to my concerns

    Welcome to the forums. It sounds like you are sincere in your desire to kick the adderall habit. It is in the doctors' best interest to keep you prescribed to a drug - it's good for their business. Wow, you have seen three doctors and not one will unprescribe you the pills. That last suggestion of moving from adderall to Vyvanse just amazes me. Your beer to vodka analogy is spot on. You are also spot on about the depression. I tool it thinking it helped alleviate my depression while it really made it even worse. Depression is the #1 challenge with adderall recovery, so you need to be prepared for that. Look into some dopamine-retaining supplements or even antidepressant drugs like wellbutrin. Here is my suggestion: find a doctor who specializes in addiction medicine. It is one of the newest medical specialties and I don't know how easy it would be to find a doctor like that. But if you can, he may be able to give you some tools to rid yourself of the addiction. Another suggestion I have is to be more forceful with the doctors prescribing you the adderall and insist that taking speed isn't working for you anymore. Ten years is a long time to take speed. I took the shit for nine years and then quit eight years ago. Life is certainly much better on the other side of your addiction.
  7. Welcome to the Forum. Backpacking in the mountains is such a special experience! I'm sorry that your trip was ruined by a bad adderall experience. You've come to the right place to quit. With adderall, it's all or none. I suggest kicking them ASAP.
  8. 2 Years!

    I really like sugar-free red bull, and I really haven't noticed a down side to having one once in a while when I want a lift (or a mix with vodka). I also really enjoy my daily pot of coffee. Wow, it sure doesn't seem like it has been two years since you first started posting. I remember your early profile picture was a helicopter and I thought that was pretty cool. Thanks for sticking around and providing your valuable insight!
  9. I’ve been on adderall more than half my life....

    Wow, that must be awful! You had no preparation or notice that you were going to have to quit? I can only imagine how debilitating this must be for you. Your doctor was rightly concerned about your well being considering your heart condition. The good news is that after a few days, the struggle is entirely mental once the physical withdrawal symptoms have subsided. And quitting cold turkey gets the worst of the withdrawals over with in one lump sum so you can move on with your life and recovery from your 20+ years of adderall use. I wish you the best! Welcome to the forums. There is plenty of support here!
  10. Optimism

    Adderall did not give me optimism. Just the opposite. It created an uncertain future knowing I would have to quit that unsustainable addiction and that I was mortgaging my future health and well being by continuing my addiction. I had a greater sense of optimism, even a few days after quitting, than I ever did while being a slave to Adderall.
  11. Hesitancy With Wellbutrin

    Welcome. My advice is to go with what your gut tells you to do. If it doesn't feel right taking the Wellbutrin, then bag it. Seek out another antidepressant or just stick it out au natural for the summer. Summer can be a happy, energetic , and active time of the year and all the extra sunlight and vitamin D enhances it even more. You are in control of your own body and health decisions. I went through it using only supplements, not more drugs. It's up to you!
  12. Weekend warrior

    Welcome to the Forums. I am also a former weekend warrior. It started off just Friday and Saturday, and most Sundays. then Monday. But, hey, I was still not an addict because I still had my three days off in a row, right? Hell, I even had names for those recovery days...residual Monday, Tired Tuesday, and rebound Wednesday. My tolerance was reset as long as I had those three days in a row off of Adderall. But, eventually it became an everyday habit which I needed to kick. I kept up the weekend warrior thing, for a good cause, for about seven years, then it was a daily addiction for the last two years. When I finally did quit, I considered myself incredibly lucky to have slithered out of that addiction without any known long term damage to my body. Don't worry about that. Just make a plan and quit the shit. Distancing yourself from your friend is a good start, I really resisted that move but we really didn't have too much in common outside of taking drugs. Do you have any kind of self-imposed penalty in mind in case you fail - like rehab or counseling? Anxiety is a big part of early recovery, so if you are worrying about needless shit right now, consider that part of the mortgage payment required to be repaid for all the enjoyable moments you had on Adderall. Give your recovery the time it needs to move on with life. With a couple of years of complete and total abstinence, you will feel mostly recovered. Of course, you likely know that "once a pickle, never again a cucumber" holds true with this addiction, like all others, and no amount of speed is a safe amount to take, ever again, or your addiction will surely return.
  13. 2 years

    I just drove the entire length of western Colorado last week north to south and back again. What an incredible state! Congratulations for the two years of your recovery.
  14. Congratulations for being accepted into the monastery in your quest of becoming a monk. That kind of lifestyle is bound to help you continue with your path through recovery. It is also a good thing that your dad has kicked his meth addiction and you have forgiven him for the abuse. Please be careful with the kratom. I have read some posts on this forum of somebody becoming totally dependent on that plant like any other hard core drug addiction. If I can find that post I'll come back and post the link for you here.
  15. withdrawal side effects

    I've read about those brain zaps on this forum before, but I think it was related to discontinuing an antidepressant drug like Wellbutrin. I suggest you use the search feature in the upper right hand corner - it looks like an empty bar with a magnifying glass. Broaden your search for things like brain shock, brain zap, etc.