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  1. Welcome to the Forum. Backpacking in the mountains is such a special experience! I'm sorry that your trip was ruined by a bad adderall experience. You've come to the right place to quit. With adderall, it's all or none. I suggest kicking them ASAP.
  2. 2 Years!

    I really like sugar-free red bull, and I really haven't noticed a down side to having one once in a while when I want a lift (or a mix with vodka). I also really enjoy my daily pot of coffee. Wow, it sure doesn't seem like it has been two years since you first started posting. I remember your early profile picture was a helicopter and I thought that was pretty cool. Thanks for sticking around and providing your valuable insight!
  3. I’ve been on adderall more than half my life....

    Wow, that must be awful! You had no preparation or notice that you were going to have to quit? I can only imagine how debilitating this must be for you. Your doctor was rightly concerned about your well being considering your heart condition. The good news is that after a few days, the struggle is entirely mental once the physical withdrawal symptoms have subsided. And quitting cold turkey gets the worst of the withdrawals over with in one lump sum so you can move on with your life and recovery from your 20+ years of adderall use. I wish you the best! Welcome to the forums. There is plenty of support here!
  4. Optimism

    Adderall did not give me optimism. Just the opposite. It created an uncertain future knowing I would have to quit that unsustainable addiction and that I was mortgaging my future health and well being by continuing my addiction. I had a greater sense of optimism, even a few days after quitting, than I ever did while being a slave to Adderall.
  5. Hesitancy With Wellbutrin

    Welcome. My advice is to go with what your gut tells you to do. If it doesn't feel right taking the Wellbutrin, then bag it. Seek out another antidepressant or just stick it out au natural for the summer. Summer can be a happy, energetic , and active time of the year and all the extra sunlight and vitamin D enhances it even more. You are in control of your own body and health decisions. I went through it using only supplements, not more drugs. It's up to you!
  6. Weekend warrior

    Welcome to the Forums. I am also a former weekend warrior. It started off just Friday and Saturday, and most Sundays. then Monday. But, hey, I was still not an addict because I still had my three days off in a row, right? Hell, I even had names for those recovery days...residual Monday, Tired Tuesday, and rebound Wednesday. My tolerance was reset as long as I had those three days in a row off of Adderall. But, eventually it became an everyday habit which I needed to kick. I kept up the weekend warrior thing, for a good cause, for about seven years, then it was a daily addiction for the last two years. When I finally did quit, I considered myself incredibly lucky to have slithered out of that addiction without any known long term damage to my body. Don't worry about that. Just make a plan and quit the shit. Distancing yourself from your friend is a good start, I really resisted that move but we really didn't have too much in common outside of taking drugs. Do you have any kind of self-imposed penalty in mind in case you fail - like rehab or counseling? Anxiety is a big part of early recovery, so if you are worrying about needless shit right now, consider that part of the mortgage payment required to be repaid for all the enjoyable moments you had on Adderall. Give your recovery the time it needs to move on with life. With a couple of years of complete and total abstinence, you will feel mostly recovered. Of course, you likely know that "once a pickle, never again a cucumber" holds true with this addiction, like all others, and no amount of speed is a safe amount to take, ever again, or your addiction will surely return.
  7. 2 years

    I just drove the entire length of western Colorado last week north to south and back again. What an incredible state! Congratulations for the two years of your recovery.
  8. Congratulations for being accepted into the monastery in your quest of becoming a monk. That kind of lifestyle is bound to help you continue with your path through recovery. It is also a good thing that your dad has kicked his meth addiction and you have forgiven him for the abuse. Please be careful with the kratom. I have read some posts on this forum of somebody becoming totally dependent on that plant like any other hard core drug addiction. If I can find that post I'll come back and post the link for you here.
  9. withdrawal side effects

    I've read about those brain zaps on this forum before, but I think it was related to discontinuing an antidepressant drug like Wellbutrin. I suggest you use the search feature in the upper right hand corner - it looks like an empty bar with a magnifying glass. Broaden your search for things like brain shock, brain zap, etc.
  10. Feeling Lonely

    Hey Drew- Definitely try out yoga - I have been to yoga class twice already this week and have done it for about 7 years now. It keeps me flexible in middle age. I spend a lot of time on another online forum that has lots of friendly people, from all over the world, who don't like dating. https://www.asexuality.org/en/
  11. 23 months clean on my birthday

    Happy Birthday and congrats for finding a job already. What part of Colorado are you living in?
  12. I was so addicted to the act of just taking a pill whenever I needed a boost. I'm sure I got a tremendous placebo affect from taking the herbal stimulants that I used during my first year of recovery. Even 5 hour energy and sugar free red bull provided the boost I used to seek from Adderall. Just last weekend, I slammed a red bull in mid afternoon and happily went off into my day.
  13. Experience smoking meth

    I don't think any less of you for what you did. In fact, if you have always been curious, it was bound to happen, especially since you've been struggling with abstinence lately. I consider meth to be adderall's sinister sister. Very closely related, but not exactly the same shit. Meth is actually cheaper and easier to get than Adderall. I have had friends "graduate" from Adderall to meth and continue their addiction for several more years, so be careful. Personally, I tried meth several times before taking up Adderall. I didn't like it - for me it was way too intense and I hated its side effects. I think your best chance for a successful recovery will be if you leave your toxic environment and start over somewhere else. When are you planning to move to Denver?
  14. Anyone experienced lack of empathy and extreme hostility?

    It was the opposite for me. While using, I was emotionally numb. Sometimes I blurted things out that I later regretted, although most of the time I felt like I showed remarkable restraint. After quitting, the anhedonia provided a cover for my emotions and I really didn't give a fuck about most things enough to say anything hurtful, or constructive, for that matter.
  15. SUGAR FREE REDBULL !!! I discovered it shortly after quitting and began buying it by the case at Cosco. Sometimes I like to slam an entire can like a shot. Sometimes I mix it with Vodka and grapefruit juice, and sometimes I just drink it like a normal beverage.