Traceme Posted March 11, 2016 Report Share Posted March 11, 2016 It's doctor day. My love was without adderall for the past 10 days. I can only imagine that feeling you all must of experienced being without for so long...to somehow miraculously pick yourselves up and pull it together long enough to get a new script. I've read how awful you have all felt being without before you realized this Rx's negative affects to your lives................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. ................then there is us. The non-addict. The loved one. I am sure that the non users in the addicts "circle of trust", experience something different...my experience is one that's relate-able I'm sure. The 10 days of hell...well that's why I'm still here. That's where the windows are. I can still see the sweet man I knew before adderall. Your lazy like, foot shuffling walks to the bathroom are glimpses of the walk you had before you took adderall. Your tired eyes twinkle with a sense of humor even you yourself seem to recognize sometimes. Your sweet warm hugs pressed against your more frail than ever frame feel heartfelt and genuine-something I don't feel when you are medicated. I can almost see the future through the very faint present of a person who is trapped inside a vessel that's going full speed-still tied to the dock. Those little moments of being your perfect imperfect self are heaven. They are why I am still here. I wish I could say this to you without making it seem like I get pleasure from your pain-because that's not it. Not at all. I love you all the days of the month as if they were the last days of the month. I just love you. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted March 11, 2016 Report Share Posted March 11, 2016 You have a beautiful writing style, by the way! I truly enjoy your posts. I hope that you can convince him to not go get that refill... 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doge Posted March 11, 2016 Report Share Posted March 11, 2016 I totally know what you mean here. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted March 11, 2016 Report Share Posted March 11, 2016 Yes, such beautiful writing. We are all rooting for him here!!! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Traceme Posted March 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted March 12, 2016 My friends, I appreciate the company. Someday he will know how many humans he has rooting for him........... Someday. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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