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Help, sucked into a vyvanse/adderall addiction
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to Twinmomaddict's topic in Tell your story
Hi, one thing adderall addiction will make you believe is that you're not capable of doing anything without them. THIS IS A LIE OF ALL LIES. You were capable (maybe tired, but still capable) before, you are capable now. There is research that says those on adderall think they produce superior results, when in actual fact, the results are the same as anyone else's. You can and will do this on your own. You deserve it for yourself. Yes, the kids are important, but you are more important. It will be hard but you will laugh again soon and get proper rest and the insanity will go away. We believe in you! You can do it! -
I hope you are able to help each other. Please tell her you posted here, it may help her not relapse. Does she have support?
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Began posting in 2013, now it's 2019....
Motivation_Follows_Action posted a topic in Tell your story
Hey kids, well the good news is I can honestly say I am proud that i haven't taken adderall or any stimulant since 2013. I had to move countries and begin my life again in order to do that. And that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But as we know the world is small now and if you want anything bad enough you can find it, so I'm not sure my own story is even relevant these days. I think about how much I hated myself back then, though; or at least had no idea what I wanted or deserved. I was a shell of a human. Today, I have a relationship with a good man, and plans for my future. And I'm hopefuo that if I stick to the program, my dreams will come true. Why? because they have so far! One other trick of the trade: I to Narcotics Anonymous and AA meetings at least 3 times a week. I can tell you, it didn't cure me, but it saved me. I suggest maybe try it. Amphetamines lie, only you can know your own truth. Only you can aset you free. My prayers are with you. Fiona. -
Hey LuLamb. You are loved. And no matter what, adderall or siroquel etc you have value. I posted here tons in early recovery, and I haven't been back here fore a year or so; but yours is the first post i read and I wanted to reasure you that you are better without the drugs than with. Moment by moment. You can do this.
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This post was 2.5 years ago so I doubt the poster will still be wondering. But I'll answer in case anyone is interested. I got to the stage where I was doing insane things, having moments of psychosis etc. In my clean hours, I knew this was unsustainable.It just so happened that I'd had a horrific binge while traveling to SFO (another crazy drug story) and scared myself straight. i jumped on a plane and went back to Australia, with only a suitcase and a bottle of pills. I gave the pills to my mother. She threw them away. For me that was literally the only way I could quit. I have recently learned that Adderall is now available in Australia (it may always have been but I never went to ask) and I admit sometimes I have been tempted to get it. But two things have happened: 1) doctors here are more responsible than in the USA and don't just prescribe it in the first appointment, it would take a lot of lies and I'm not that kind of person any more; and 2) If I get psychotic again I don't think I can make it. I hope you don't get to read this, Speeder. Not because I don't care about you but because I hope you're clean. What a horrible drug Adderall is.
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I can't believe I remembered my password, when I forgot so much about my life. I was an avid poster to this site, so much so I was granted admin rights... this is about 3 years ago, so hello old friends For those whom I don't know, I quit Adderall many times, and thought I had it beat, but went on year long bender when my husband and I broke up and I lost everything. While I can't say I think adderall is solely to blame, I do know that I behaved like a total meth-head towards the end, my behavior was totally out of control. I was taking around 120mg/day, not sleeping, eating, drinking water, nothing. I would walk home from a bar in midtown at 4am in 3 inch heels just for the "fun" of it. I lived near wall street. I eventually got fired from every job, lost all my money, and returned to my hometown to live with my mother. As a woman in her early 40s that was not easy. I got a job eventually and I've gained 30lbs, but that dark period of my life from 2011-2015 was so confused by my adderall binges that I am just getting over the ptsd of what I did to myself. Anyway for everyone on here who tried to reach out, I'm sorry. All I can say is that I still get cravings for adderall and I am working on rebuilding my life. I am happy for family, and for self forgiveness. Stay strong, friends.
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I need support and guidance. a quick synopsis
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to kori's topic in Tell your story
Hey can I be argumentative for a sec? You don't need "drastic change".. that sounds hard and scary and impossible and most likely to put you off from doing anything about it. All you need to do is make the most helpful choice for you RIGHT NOW. Don't think about big changes, it's exhausting. Just think about the you you want to be at this very instant, and give that awesome person inside you a chance to shine. Be positive - you know what to do. Hugs. -
Hey Whittering: 1) Good on you for coming here when tempted; that takes balls 2) No matter what happens, relapse or not, we don't judge you; and 3) Recovery is not a linear process 4) Think about the end point. That's what I try to do when tempted (which is more than I let on). I think about where it will lead, when it will stop, what it will do. And then I try to change the tape. Do something different. Think about something different. Just stop thinking adderall will solve all your problems - because you know it won't, it's a liar and a cheat. YOU ARE BIGGER THAN A FUCKING PILL!!! You can do this.
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Major Insomnia anyone else have this problem
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to speeder1975's topic in Tell your story
I think someone else said it just today or recently, that recovery really has no rhyme or reason. I remember reading that any or all of the following can be symptoms: 1) Hunger 2) Loss of appetite 3) Extreme fatigue 4) Insomnia Go with it... and basically anything and everything is to be expected. I remember about 6 weeks in to my recovery I thought I had a stomach ulcer because I threw up for 20 hours straight and couldn't even swallow water. Oh, fun! Well, your body at least is telling you it don't want the adderall in its system any more :-) -
Last Dance (saying goodbye to adderall)
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to Jonah's topic in General Discussion
Hey Jonah, what's your regimen - be interested in hearing what you've decided to do... and congrats on sticking with it/us. Glad you're still here! -
Hey there, First off, don't worry about anyone else on this site except you! And WOULD YOU STOP APOLOGIZING!!?? Sounds like you're sorry you're not a perfect wife, perfect mother, perfect ex-adderall-addict, perfect nurse, perfect dishwasher-cleaner, etc etc. Hey guess what? Perfectionism is a great mask for not accepting the amazing person you really are, underneath all those expectations you and everyone else around you places on you. Can I ask why you started taking adderall in the first place? Sometimes that helps understand the root cause of what needs to be addressed: for example, I started taking it really for 3 reasons: 1) because I was doing 2 jobs, badly, and couldn't cope with the stress; 2) I thought the key to my success was all focused on getting to a certain number on the scale; and 3) I was trying to avoid a stressful and emotionally painful personal situation (which was probably the real trigger, tbh). Had I been able to know/articulate any of that at the time, I would probably not have ended up in a cycle of addiction and abuse. Anyway, that's my insight for you - try to figure out what made you start taking it, and if that stimulus is still there... because if you haven't dealt with it, then the temptation will always exist... does that make any sense? And yes, your husband is doing pretty well, all things considered. Marriage is complex and no one is in any position to judge anyone else's, especially where addiction is concerned. If you feel he is supportive (without making you feel like the guilty party), then that's great. My marriage has suffered a lot from the fallout of my addiction - and my husband has been heroic in his support, and is a workaholic like it sounds like yours is. Strangely enough, now that I've rounded the corner and am "stable" (or whatever) and gaining confidence and health and strength and consistency back, I'm starting to hear about just how deep the scars are on his side. Ugh, addiction. Hurts everyone involved. But enough about my whole story -- just know that we're cheering for you from the sidelines, it's ok to feel whatever you need to feel whenever you need to feel it, and whenever you feel those horrible waves of depression wash over you; just know that they will pass. I promise. You rock, lady!
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To flush or not to flush....
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to lunax's topic in General Discussion
LILTEX where does such wisdom come from? You are like a mythical creature, offering all the right things to say at exactly the right time. I think henceforth I shall refer to you as "she who doth say awesome things that belie her youth"... -
Historical amphetamine epidemics
Motivation_Follows_Action replied to Cassie's topic in General Discussion
... and onwards I imagine it will go. The perennial drug looking for a disease. I wonder what the disease will be 10 years from now? No new thing under the sun.