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    Moving cities

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    Hey guys, as you know I recently relapsed after 18 months clean. I’m now moving from Biloxi MS to Denver CO. I feel it’s times for a change. I’m going to be able to stay with a family member till I get a job. I’m hoping for the best. I haven’t really been able to get things going here in Biloxi because of all my old friends I just go out and get drunk on the weekends and since my relapse I lost the job I had. Anyone thinking about relapsing FUCKING DONT. I had a job and was working weeks and playing music on the weekends. Since my relapse I lost my job and I’m now just getting drunk when I can. Anyways, wish me luck. As soon as I get to Colorado I’m going to find a job and never fucking get back on god damn adderall. FUCK THAT SHIT!!! 

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  5. My story living with my adderall addicted wife

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    Yeah my girlfriend was completely heartless about the end of our relationship. She was cheating and she literally ended our 7 year relationship on nothing. Didn’t even say good bye. Came home one night and she was asleep then I went and picked up some food came back and she was gone. Blocked me on everything, didn’t return my calls. Zero closure. 

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  10. Adderall Affects That Have Changed Your Spouse's Personality, Destroyed Your Marriage & Family

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    Man, adderall does some crazy shit spiritually. I’ve considered the idea of me losing my soul at least the one I was use to and the one I had pre adderall and thought about the idea of a new soul taking its place during all the terrible nights of not sleeping and not eating and massive amounts of crank. I don’t think about that idea anymore though because it led me nowhere and just caused me severe paranoia and psychosis. The dillusion of soul loss and new spirit taking its place has stuck with me and caused me a lot of anguish. 

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  15. Ritalin WD

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    I have/had all the symptoms you’ve mentioned. I’m at 18 months clean and I’d say about half have subsided. It’s been a rough recovery but I think another year from year they’ll all be gone hopefully. 

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  16. My story living with my adderall addicted wife

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    This drug really regresses you emotionally. You end up very immature, avoiding any responsibility, playing the victim and so on because you’re out of touch and want to just keep getting high and avoid the person you’ve become and all the problems that have developed from your drug abuse. Some people come to realize this fact and this realization was a big part of me getting clean. It broke my heart to see the person I had become and to look back remember the person I was and realizing I destroyed that guy and all the years it took to develope that good character that I had before this drug. This has been a big motivator for me to stay clean because I loved who I was and I want to get that back. It’s also a depressant because I’ve spent 19 months trying to get back what I lost and there’s been little progress. Although it did take me 22 years of sobriety to become the person I was before I started adderall. I hope your wife eventually developes some self reflection because that will be a big part of her quitting. I know what it’s like to deal with someone who blows up when you discuss touchy subjects. Thats a method of emotionally manipulation. They do this to keep you from bringing it up. Don’t give them what they want. Stay strong, confront them, fight, argue, whatever you go to do but they need to face these issues. You’re not helping them by giving them what they want, what they need is to be held accountable. If you’re thinking about leaving you mine as well before you go give it a shot to confront and discuss these issues. Worst case she just keeps blowing up and it doesn’t help and you leave as planned or possibly you’ll get through to her and save things. 

    Anyway, I wish you the best and I’m sorry you’re going through this.

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  17. Social vs Socially Awkward

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    For me it had to do with my state of high. First few hours and the peak I was extremely social, empathetic, curious. Couple hours later I could give two shits about anyone or what they thought and had no desire to interact even with my closest relationships. I just wanted to be alone because it felt like a burden to have to think of conversation when I didn’t give a shit.

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  18. My story living with my adderall addicted wife

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    I agree it would be a great idea to show some stories of similar situations on here to her. Even show her your own post. I think it will help her. She needs to know how much you care and how hard you’ve been trying to stay with her. Of course if she’s deep in the grasp of the addiction she might get angry or lash out because you implying her to stop what she happens to love the most at this moment which is the drug. But if she has happened to have a few thoughts of quitting on her own or second guessed her usage, seeing all the people on here and how closely we can relate to her might give her more motivation to stop.

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  19. My story living with my adderall addicted wife

    in Tell your story

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    Man.. I hate to hear this. You’re really doing good to still be hanging in there with her. This is to a tee exactly what adderall did to me and my relationship. Of course like any sane person my significant other decided to leave me. From the sound of it I don’t think I was even near as bad as your wife has been. I would get a little frustrated, sometimes i’d avoid people or just want to be alone even if it meant away from the person I loved the most. This drug poisons you and your genuine love and all you care about is getting high and other dumb shit. You forget the kind of love and care you use to have and you ignore your own shitty behavior. Good news is everyone eventually figures it out although for some the price is much higher for example losing their family, job, friends, mind. It looks like your wife is on track to lose you and I don’t blame you at all. Until she decides to quit adderall she’ll continue to get even worse than she is now. Luckily after I lost my gf and job and dropped out of school and went to mental health rehab I realize what I was doing to myself and people around me and got clean.

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  22. Letting Go Completely

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    Yes, thoughts like that have cause me to relapse recently after 19 months clean I still had thoughts like what you’re having. I felt I could handle it now and a low does would really help me. While I did handle it and I didn’t abuse it and I did stick to a low dose and I ate and slept and worked I still felt guilt for relapsing. I still had this feeling to be a real, healthy, person I needed to not be on speed.

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  24. Tired of thinking about Adderall

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    @Cheeri0 thanks! Man, I’m nervous as hell that I won’t even be able to make the c’s. But yeah, like you said if I can just make myself go and make myself put in some effort and befriend my professors I might have a chance. It’s so hard be social and I’m afraid despite my effort they’ll think I’m an ass because I tend to have that resting bitch face and being emotionally out of sorts makes it even harder to get past that. Anyway, thanks for the advise and support. Wish I could land a internship but in my field you literally have no chance unless you have a 3.5 or higher not to mention a badass resume on top of that. Ahhh!! Stressed af.

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