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  1. 2 years with no adderall

    At the one year mark, I felt determined to start changing things slowly. Since then motivation has kind of come and gone, which I think is normal for most people. Overall I have enough motivation to get important things done without procrastinating.
  2. 2 years with no adderall

    You will eventually get to a better place! One month is huge and I believe if you can make it a month then you have what it takes to fully recover. Just give yourself time. I literally sat in bed for about 3 months straight before I gradually started making healthy habits again. The most productive thing you can do for yourself right now is to relax and open up Netflix Be super patient and when the time is right, do all you can to get your life back together. You won’t always be tired, you won’t always feel mentally sluggish, you will be able to do everything you thought was only possible on adderall.
  3. What motivates you to stay clean?

    Actually at one point in my recovery I got a prescription for Wellbutrin to help me with the fatigue. The first dose I took felt like a very mild version of adderall (the anxious racy sort of feeling) and it was enough for me to remember how god awful the sleepless nights were on Adderall. So yeah I would agree, remembering the hellish parts of adderall does help. Congrats on 7 months! On those days you get discouraged, keep in mind the benefits from quitting continue to get better even after a whole year of quitting! It’s gradual, but one day you are going to be very happy.
  4. What motivates you to stay clean?

    After quitting I was able to have healthier relationships with my family, friends, and partner. These alone would keep me from going back. Also sleeping at night is nice
  5. This post is so spot on it's scary. I have been clean for 2 years now and life has never been better Anything I thought I was only capable of doing while on Adderall I have been able to do off of it plus more! Your advice here pulled me through some rough times in the first year, thank you so much.
  6. Two years ago I was faced with these same exact concerns and questions. Quitting was the best thing I have ever done. I am truly happy in a way that I haven't been in since before I took this garbage medicine. Yes initially I felt like garbage, but every day I survived it got easier until I no longer felt bogged down. You don't know just how much you have to gain until you try.
  7. Hello everyone! Today I realized that I have been free of Adderall for a little over 2 years now, a milestone I genuinely thought I wasn't capable of accomplishing. What was once a centerpiece of my life is now just a memory of a lifestyle I used to live. These days I don't think about Adderall much at all, because the craving that used to be so prominent is now gone. This change was gradual but enormous over the course of these years. Before I quit Adderall, I was certain that I wouldn't be able to keep a job and feared that quitting Adderall would make me useless and dumb. This has turned out to be one of the greatest lies I ever believed. For those of you who are currently trying to quit Adderall, this is what worked for me. A month prior to quitting two years ago I had truly hit rock bottom. I was stuck at was I thought was a dead-end job, had no friends, no girlfriend, no college experience, I didn't care at all about hygiene, and zero motivation to do anything at all aside from playing video games. My days consisted of waking up late, popping Adderall, working for 8 hours, playing video games until late at night, and then repeating everything the next day. I lived with my parents, who I also had a terrible relationship with. I avoided people I knew as much as possible because I was always in an anxious funk from taking Adderall. I never slept, I never wanted to eat, and I had zero energy until I took Adderall that day. Prior to this successful attempt to quit this drug, I had tried MANY times within the past 5 years to get off of it. The longest I ever made it was 5 days and the cycle was always the same: hopeful/optimistic the first day, anxiety by day two, eating everything in the fridge by day three, and day four I could do NOTHING but sleep (the WHOLE DAY). However, after one particularly bad week (out of a year that I hated every day of my life) I decided my life couldn't possibly be worse off of Adderall than it was on it and I tossed the pills. But what was different about this time as opposed to the failed attempts before? This time I hated my life so much on Adderall, that I didn't care what happened when I stopped taking it. It wasn't until I hit rock bottom that I sobered up enough to regain my self-control. After reading this amazing post: I tried to the best of my abilities to follow the advice and looking back at my experience, everything in this post is SPOT ON. The first month actually did seem easy and then suddenly three months in I realized "This is really who I am now" and I feared that I would never be back to normal. After this, the cravings really set in for me. I began to think things like "I could do this task way faster with Adderall than I could now" or "I feel so tired, If I was on Adderall I would be wide awake right now" and so I did something that really pulled me through these moments: I set a goal for myself that no matter what, I wasn't going to take Adderall for a year. If at the end of the year I still wanted to go back, then I would allow myself to. And that is exactly what I did, I stopped taking it for a full year. However, in that one year, I got back into shape physically, got promoted at work, and started making friends again. I had made so much progress off of Adderall, that I was worried that taking it again would destroy the things I worked so hard to obtain off of it. It was almost as though being sober was my new addiction in an ironic way. Skip forward to now, and I can personally say that quitting Adderall has saved my life. I was NEVER this happy in all of the 8 years I took Adderall. I am currently 2 years into my college degree with a 4.0-grade average, I am dating a wonderful girl, I am able to make friends again, I moved out of my parents' house, I got promoted at work, I can SLEEP at night, I'm no longer deathly skinny, and I have the motivation to get to where I want to be. All of these things were what I desperately wanted to do during my years on Adderall, but I was so consumed by my addiction that I just couldn't. My life after this two-year mark is so much better than I had imagined. Of course, it didn't happen overnight, but two years isn't really that long. I am fully convinced that if I was able to quit this drug, anybody could. If anybody out there is struggling to quit Adderall, PLEASE DON'T listen to your doubts and insecurities. You CAN do it and life can be happy for you again. It is a long journey, but the most rewarding journey you will go through. I challenge you to make a goal to QUIT for at least a year. If you aren't convinced you are on the right path then go back to taking it.
  8. It was hard for me to do a few semesters of biology even with adderall, i have no clue how i would do it without. Chemical engineering is even tougher than bio so i cant even imagine. I wonder if the hardest part is just gonna be getting myself to actually do the assignments and stay motivated throughout all of it. I tend to think adderall made me smarter at times, but I've also seen a study that showed that students only believed they preformed better on adderall and that they just felt more confident but got similar scores without it. I'm hoping this is the case, it would be devastating to go back to school and not get good enough grades without adderall knowing that i was able to get good grades with it.
  9. Hello! I haven't posted for a while because to be quite honest i haven't really thought about adderall a whole lot since quitting it. I have had some genuinely happy times since quitting and do not regret the decision to be clean at all. As of recently though I've had an extremely hard time focusing on life's responsibilities and actually getting them done seems to require what feels like a super human amount of willpower. I am getting dangerously close to the exact same mentality that led me toward getting on adderall in the first place although i don't want to ever go back to it. I told myself after a year of going off adderall I would reassess my life and decide whether or not it was worth it to stay off or get back on and although im not satisfied with my life right now, I REFUSE to start taking it again. I know it will help me get a crazy amount of shit done in the short term but after that I'll be hooked and EVERY good thing that came from quitting will once again be lost. That being said I'm also at the point where i can no longer take things slow and just focus on not being addicted. For the past year I've avoided anything college and career related, and my only real form of productivity has been work. I'm 23 and i live at home with my parents while i work fulltime/part time at a hospital as a cook (dead end job for me). I'm at the stage in my life and recovery where i really need to fight to get myself back on track for a healthy and at least financially stable life, and i'm getting VERY anxious and having doubts on whether or not I'll be able to accomplish these goals. the thing that really scares me though is the possibility of me still feeling depressed and anxious after i complete these goals. When will this anxiety and depression stop? I know i can force my way through college and finding a career but is that gonna make me happy? Once i accomplish the goals i set there's always gonna be new problems to take the place of old ones..
  10. I certainly hope you get back what you lost. To be honest some days aren't so bad and are honestly quiet happy. However the bouts of depression seem to be more often and last longer for me than the happy times. I just hope I'm not fucked either way, but it feels like it a lot of the time. I don't think i'm gonna relapse after all, but man it gets tempting sometimes
  11. Hello everyone I started my adderall free journey about 8 months ago and it has been somewhat of a roller coaster of emotions. I wish I could say everything about it has been positive, and many things have, but it isn't without its down sides. I don't want to go into too much detail, but lately I've been considering relapsing because of a lack of motivation. There are so many things that I want to accomplish and I don't feel as though I have the energy to do any of it. This leads to me feeling depressed and anxious most of the day. My mind is filled today with thoughts of "You can take it temporarily to get yourself to a better place" or "Everything doesn't have to be so hard" and to me these thoughts are very believable, but the logical side of me knows that this wont be the case. If I take adderall once and have a positive experience, i'll be hooked and I bet I'd stay on it again, which will consequently burn down a lot of the progress I have made while being off of it after enough time. I wish I could use adderall as a crutch at times, but I know myself well enough to know that wont ever happen realistically. Anyone else have this sort of problem 8 months clean?
  12. My first post here, I need to be free.

    To answer your question about quitting cold turkey, I quit cold turkey at a dose slightly higher than that after being on it for 5 years. I don't think i would've been able to taper off because in my mind i'd rather just get the worst of it out of the way asap rather than drag it out even longer. I'm somewhere around 4 1/2 months since I quit and nothing bad happened to me because I quit cold turkey. Previously I had tried to quit many times and only made it like 4 days. The difference between this time and that time is that I hated my life SO BAD while on it, that even suffering withdrawals and a long term recovery sounded better to me. The first couple weeks were HARD and I really questioned my ability to do it, but it gets much much easier a little bit down the road and I really have felt better gradually every month. I think the biggest thing that has aided me in recovery has been diet and exercise (I know that sounds very cliche but its true) I have fallen for the "take one now to feel better, regret it later" trap way too many times and am NOT going back to it for anything, literally nothing good came from it. If you feel the same then kick this shit for good and don't look back. Or at the very least, you could try to make yourself go 1 whole year without it before you decide to get back on it.
  13. Using Wellbutrin to help quit

    I also just started using wellbutrin once a day to see if it would help make things a little easier. I'm kind of worried it will work in a few similar ways to adderall and im not super into the idea of getting on another medication. I noticed an improvement shortly after taking it though. Frank did you notice any changes in your weight while taking wellbutrin? I really don't want to lose weight taking a medication if its possible
  14. Difficult Day

    I'm going through a lot of the same things, I'm barely over 2 1/2 months off of it. I think the hardest part for me is having to see all my insecurities and weaknesses, and then just having to be ok with them for now. if anything else, at least you might find comfort in knowing you aren't alone.
  15. 10 Months Adderall Free

    I used to think there was no way I could go longer than a day or two without adderall. I wasn't truly ready to quit taking it until I was so unhappy with my life that I just couldn't take it anymore. I tried so many times and only got like 3 days into it before taking another and then staying on it. This time just felt different. It was almost like my body was telling me that I need to stop. I've been off it for a little less than three months and although recovering REALLY sucks, for the first time in a long time I feel like my life is heading toward a much more positive direction