quit-once

Good Job!! You got this. You now own your quit. it is yours...for as long as you choose to keep it!

Good ol' Darwin at work!

Sky, if "seeked" is not a word it should be the way you used it above. "Sought" just does not have the same meaning. Edit: I just saw MFA's post above and want to comment on the fact we do care about each other even though we have never met in person. When InRecovery went MIA for three months last summer, I became really concerned for his well-being. I was pretty sure he didn't relapse, but I started worying about illnesses and accidents and other bad things. And I am generally an Alfred E Newman type - "what, me worry?"

It is pretty rare to find a site like this without advertising of any kind. I find the ads to be distracting, and I agree with Sky 100%. I could have just cliked the like button and spared you all this useless tidbit. But the lack of advertising is what really mades this site special. I assume that Mike pays for the operation of this site out of his own pocket and from the unlikely event he receives an occasional donation.

Poor Children. They are the innocent victims in this scam. I believe an adult can and should make their own informed decision when it comes to taking a powerful and addictive drug. But the kids really don't have a choice and they are the only ones who I hold blameless and harmless from all the damage caused by this awful drug and its ensuing addiction. That said, it is appropriate for some people, if they have narcolepsy or severe ADD.

I was gonna edit but I had one more thought. I had to take a certification exam around five months into the quit. I studied my ass off for it and I was concerned about whether I would pass it. As it turns out, I did just fine and gained some much needed confidence that my ability to learn and retain information had returned. But my short and medium term memory still isn't what it was ten years ago - and maybe that is simply a function of getting old(er). I have to compensate for my poor memory by keeping a pen and paper with me almost all the time to write myself notes.

It is OK, I forgive you LilTex. I know your intentions were harmless and you were just sharing information. It was good for me to realize that I am still vulnerable even after 20 months.

There was a topic thread started by Steven the Kyle about a year ago entitled "when does mental sharpness return?" Have you seen that one? For me, it was so gradual that I really couldn't pick a moment in time. It was somewhere between three and nine months that my brain came back to me.

The article was dated in 2009 so you didn't miss anything. that was just an awful experience. I took a shower and went to yoga practice and it is all good now, but that was an awful way to start my day. That was worse than the most disgusting porn I have ever seen! Funny, cuz I still enjoy looking at High Times magazine .

I just clicked that link and started to read the article. I was overcome with the most disturbing, uncomfortable feeling looking at the enlarged picture of that fucking peach colored football shaped pill! That was the ONLY brand of generic adderall I would take and I went to great lengths to get it. But that picture just gave me the creeps. Whoa, I thought I was over this shit! I gotta go do something NOW to get my mind off it.

Just heard from Mike last night and he said it will take up to 20 chatters now. thanks for letting Mike know about it! I just thought he didn't wanna run a chat room for whatever reasons.

I like your attitude and wisdom, Burnie. Welcome to the forum!

sounds like a real life episode of the apprentice.......where's The Donald?

For some reason my message notification feature...didn't notify me of your message. I just read it now for the first time and you sent it to me on Sunday? Anyway I am glad you are helping out around here.....thanks for volunteering. Let's try to make the chat room a place people want to visit more often! I like your idea of a regular "meeting" time to begin with.

The only reason I have administrator status is because i volunteered to be the spam cop. How did you get your staff stars, MFA?

I think it is a great idea. However, does the chatroom accomodate more that 4-5 people at a time? I really haven't tried it out yet. MFA, are you now an official chatroom moderator?

Hey thanks for that link. I just watched it - one of BBC's best documentaries. Highly recommend it if you like dogs.

Dogs and their owners both release the bonding, feel good hormone oxitocin (Australian dogs release OxyContin) while they are being petted.

Please go ahead and start that thread....that is what this forum is here for!

poor cats

Interesting observations about this looking forward and looking past thing. I took adderall for emotional numbness and so I could tend to the moment and not think about the future - and it worked very well for that at that time of my life. MFA, Thank you for the laugh of the day. I think the hormone you are refering to is actually oxytocin. Oxycontin is also known as hillbilly heroin! But your point about dogs and happiness is both interesting and appreciated!

OK. I'll Bite! 1 Independence 2 Home 3 Enjoy 4 Assurance 5 Serve 15 Prestige 14 Power 13 Loyality 12 Leadership 11 Family I chose not to rank #6-10 - they were about equal. I found it to be a challenging and interesting exercise.

I have never heard that but it makes sense that looking forward makes you happier. I think that there is something about adderall recovery that makes you look back to the time you were using it. I kept thinking "last year at this time....." during my first year or so of recovery. Maybe that is partially why depression is so common during adderall recovery. I agree that love=happiness BUT love is not that easy for some of us to come by in our lives. It took me a lot of counseling to realize that I was OK even it I was not in love or even in a relationship. There can be a lot of family and social pressure that actually causes or worsens one's depression if they can't seem to find love or relationships, for whatever reasons. That is why I like dogs.

I am confused as hell. Is the web kit fake thing supposed to be a link?

And now for my two cents: Since the talk is about beliefs and principles, you could discuss your core values and principles that led you to quit adderall. Should the abuse issue be addressed? not necessarily if that would be sharing too much with total strangers. Simply quitting an addictive drug or an addiction really isn't simple at all. they don't have to know to what extent you abused it, only that you were addicted. that is pretty common with many drugs, legal and illegal, stimulants or pain killers. There will be lots of folks talking about their religion so you can downplay the glory days of your adderall abuse and focus on the addiction and recovery leading to where you are now, not so much of what a fuck up you were.