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I think there will always be that fear in us because of what we went through. There are a couple people I know who take adderall to study and sometimes I'll hear one of them say that they are on adderall and so they need a cigarette. I start paying attention to their behavior and then I worry about how easy it is for me to get access to it...then I shake it off. I don't think its unnatural to have that fear given what it did to us.

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Hey Ashley I start June 10. Maybe my grades will go up now that I don't have to spend time studying for interviews. It is for mktg for veriz wireless! If the internship works out it can transition to a full time job. I go back to school, finish my mba and I will have a job lined up the following summer. This is really what I was hoping to do with my degree here because I have enjoyed my marketing classes far more than my finance classes and I am excited to be getting a chance to get experience doing it now. Justin, don't forget to send out three resumes a day! Ashley bagged two jobs in less than two weeks and I got two in about 5 weeks using this method. So submit. Submit. Submit. Be prepared to never hear back from most places. I think 99 % of the places I applied for rejected me or didn't respond. But some will bite if u keep submitting. You mentioned having a professional service do your resume and that could be a great idea. Ashley, I'm glad you are easing into the job. You are learning new skills and hope u are enjoying yourself! Ashley, Can u believe we started this thread 5 weeks ago and here we are?

I was officially extended an offer today and I accepted! More details to come.. Ashley - how is day 2 of training going?? I had the login problem as well! One day it just suddenly got fixed.

so true. I have headed into B-/C+ territory. I will be lucky to make Bs this semester. well get through it. I really do feel like high expectations of oneself and quitting adderall are two opposing forces like the plus and negative signs on a battery.

I am allergic to dustmites and ragweed (hayfever) My allergy symptoms were better when i was using. And now I find my allergies worse. In the book On Speed, I think one of the early treatments for prescribed amphetamines was for allergy relief. I use flonase spray every day, and breathe right strips because I find it difficult to breathe. Those help me to keep it under control.

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No, my application really wasnt in the system. I checked from my end as well. it was bizarre. Anyway, she said she is going to need about 15 minutes to talk to me over the phone tomorrow at 10am. So the phone conversation has been scheduled.

Yeah I saw it. I liked it. I thought it was going to be more connection to addiction but I found it just to be a really good movie with a good plot. I would say flight, the lost weekend and smashed (with jessie from breaking bad) are good recovery type movies to watch,

That sounds like it would be normal to me. It sounds like you are having anxiety from not being on adderall. I would feel a lot of anxiety not being on adderall when I went to stores and stuff as well.

It has occurred to me that having high expectations of oneself and quitting adderall work strongly against each other. In order to quit adderall, high expectations of oneself must be put to rest. Agreed?

Tinybuddha. You HAVE to get off adderall permanently. You have been part of this community even before I was here. you have seen us go through the same psychological agony you are going through and we are all fine now, You know that your life will be so much better without it. You should not be having to deal with this still. Do not let yourself go back to adderall ever again. You know u have hit the law of diminishing returns with it years ago. u know, the costs far outweigh any kind of benefit u may feel u get from it. You know u have to start putting loads of clean time under your belt in order to overcome. You have to overcome this completely now. Please promise us u will not go back to it again. Promise us you will be strong. I know you are strong enough to do this. I KNOW you can say goodbye to it forever and not look back.

One of my absolute favorite things about being adderall free is not having the god awful depression that came when the adderall wore off. Another favorite thing is not having to be in a coma like sleep for days on end when I ran out of my prescription early. Emotional instability is a byproduct of addiction. I love feeling stable.

Good job CMLT. this is great you are keeping us posted. Continue staying strong. You will get through this.

Jon said something earlier that I think is really important to emphasize. Don't be too critical of your lack of motivation to do much when you are quitting. I'd like to elaborate more on that. If I got upset about my lack of motivation to do anything I would never have quit successfully. The tiredness WILL go away but it may take awhile because you used it for 12 years. I was also using for 12 years, I was at 250 mgs +++ a day by the end. I gave myself PLENTY of time to recover without putting ANY pressure on myself. In fact I just studied for a business school entrance exam at my own pace (so at least I was doing something) but not much else. I distinctly remember watching every episode of lost, 24, alias and reading tons of leisurely books like every John Grisham novel. I also read tons of books on speed and adderall addiction. I was really depressed and I read a lot of self help books to improve my spirits. There is an old post I started in the lounge about books dealing with adderall/Ritalin abuse. That was so critical for me to recover. I think adderall addiction turns us into people with high expectations of ourselves, we probably were like that before in some capacity and adderall fed that mentality and only made it worse. In order to successfully quit I had to completely let go of that mentality if that make sense. And that meant putting no pressure on myself which meant no work and no school for a long time. Finally, I was ready to slowly begin putting pressure back into my life and I did it in small doses. A very non pressured internship. Slowly I stepped up the pressure I put on myself but all while learning to do it without adderall. Now I can study and work and do all the things I needed adderall to do without adderall anymore. Everyone has their stories of how they overcame the addiction and I recommend u look into older posts to see how people on this site did it.

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Hi guys, I had my interviews today. nearly missed my flight after forgetting to set my alarm! I got tour of the facilities and then two sit down interviews, one with HR and the other with a Manager. I got a email when I got back home from HR saying that she wants to talk to me early next week about next the steps in the interview process. The interview I had today was supposed to be my FINAL interview. So Im not sure what is happening...it sounds like they want to put me through another round of interviews?? She also said she needed me to resubmit my information on the careers website because for some reason my application was missing from their database. I dont like this guessing game, but at least I heard back something and it wasnt a rejection letter.

Quit Once - Yes, it will be a fight against my nerves. I think I know what i need to say. But my nerves will be the biggest challenge.

Justin W - i really like that advice about selling me as a product!! I went to my career center today and all the counselors said the 8 minute answer thing is absurd advice and not to do that. So Im sticking with my strategy for now - try NOT to sound rehearsed, be spontaneous, be a fit and have a couple examples in mind. Then be enthusiastic, appreciative and confidant.

Thats what I thought. She was saying she would like answers to go on for 8 to 10 minutes! She also said something that worried me, that if the interviewer stops asking you questions quickly into the interview that is a bad sign and means that they have already basically ruled you out (which really frightens me that my interview will fizzle out like halfway through). But while she has expertise, im not going to take everything she says as the fact. Because I really disagree with the whole 8 minute answer thing. I mean, if i were interviewing someone, Id would not want them to ramble on and on and on.

Thank you Cassie and JustinW. I really, really like that idea. Im starting to feel better. I've already come up with a few examples, a project I initated at my former job that impressed my supervisor, and seperately marketing project I initated at my current job that my supervisor really liked and was impressed by. As for conflicts I have a situation where my team was working on a project and we were a little disorganized and came close to missing the deadline BUT i learned from that experience and since then when i work on teams I have come up with a organized system so group porjects are always finished way before deadlines. I also jotted down a few things that I liked about the company and why i want to work there and what interests me about it. My weakness I think will be that sometimes i get very into a task i am working on and dont stop to take a break when a break may give me a chance to clear my mind. Its a weakness i am aware of and am working towards. But when it comes to prioritizing, i do not let that weakness get in the way, as I always make sure to prioritize the most important task first. I REALLY think you are right about being positive and enthusiastic being really, really, really important. Im going to use a judgement call and disregard what that lady said about being SPECIFIC blah blah. I think its more important to be concise and to not ramble.=.BUT if i sense the interviewer wants specifics I will try to be as specific as possible. I will try to go with the flow. Anymore advice guys?

She also said be prepared and be confidant . She said to tell stories, with a beginning a middle and an end. And she wants lots of details and to see our thought process as we tell the story. She said to not be general but be specific in examples. She also said that common no-nos "lack of professionalism - dont mention a time you got drunk Dont give very short answers (sometimes I do this!! to make the interview more conversational) dont protray a negative attitude toward former coworkers, etc and she kept emphasizing to be specific and to give lots of detail. I am drawing a blank on SPECIFIC EXAMPLES But Justin I like your advice better than hers. anyone else have advice?

I went to this on campus interview thing today, where a recruiter went over behavioral interview tactics. She kept emphasizing how important it was to prepare for interviews and prepared detailed stories using the STAR method with lots and lots of details about what you did and how you resolved it blah blah blah. STAR stands for Situation, tasks, action and resolve. And i got so stressed I spent my whole class trying to think of STAR stories to tell and I cant think of any. I mean overcoming adderall addiction is probably my best "STAR" story but I dont plan to bring that up! Does anyone have ideas? There are common interview questions. "Tell me about yourself " i feel is guaranteed. But the rest of the questions, in my experience have been different from interview to interview. I cannot really predict what they are going to ask.

I am so nervous. How am i going to walk in confidant on Friday? I was so confidant in the beginning, when i got my first internship the guy said i was the most polished interview he has ever encountered. That confidence carried over into the next interview which i passed with flying colors. then my confidence has devolved from there. Does anyone have advice????? I dont know whether to study for my exam tomorrow or try to prepare for interviews. Someone said if I go in as myself and I dont get it, then it probably wasnt a good fit for me anyway and I probably wouldn't have been happy there.

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