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LilTex, This is really good...thanks for sharing. So, I see that you abstain from all substances. Are you am alcoholic as well? I know the AA mentality is to stay clean from everything. I drink sometimes, but I'm not an alcoholic. My counselor has scared me a little because she lives by the AA mentality, complete sobriety from everything, I just don't think alcohol is an issue for me, and I'm just curious if it is for you or complete sobriety is a lifestyle choice. I always love reading your insight on things!

Cat, I'm confused. Your post is entitled "He misses the old me," but it seems like your relationship is better than ever....I mean, you're a real person again Is he quizzing you about the changes in your behavior? Is it a topic that even has to be addressed?

I agree with everyone above, and I wanted to chime in because I take Lexapro and klonopin. I was taking klonopin with adderall also, and started the Lexapro a few months later. I definitely would not stop klonopin cold turkey. It's physically dangerous, and I can tell you klonopin and Lexapro have helped me immensely in my quit with adderall. I was extremely depressed when I quit, started the Lexapro, and it helped. Whether it was time or being on an antidepressant or a combination of both, I don't know, but if you're prone to anxiety and depression, quitting adderall cold turkey is the best choice you can make for yourself in the long run, because it only exacerbates it once your body is used to it, in my opinion. I wish you the best and keep us updated.

From what I've learned when I was thinking of going to rehab, adderall addiction is usually dealt with on an outpatient basis at treatment centers. My guess is their reasoning for this is because there aren't physical health risks when quitting, but there is definitely support for you out there. I know how hard this decision is, but my opinion is since you're considering stopping and wanting help, act now while it's present. It's hard, no doubt about it, but it's possible, and it sure is a better life without adderall. Keep us posted.....hugs!

Yes, I've been sick. Flu is crazy this year. I finally got better, then last night I started coughing and getting a runny nose again. I was so exhausted when I was sick too. I know InRecovery was really sick recently as well. I hope you get to feeling better...take care of yourself and rest.

Lady Luck, Give yourself a pat on the back and a self five (How I Met Your Mother style). If you don't watch it, nevermind Getting your using roommate out is a great step in the right direction....keep it up Lady Luck! You're taking care of you and your sobriety...yaay!

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This is exactly why I come here with these issues. You ladies have given me some of the best advice, positivity, while your life experiences to help me, and you're all freaking awesome. Thank you all! Lots of food for thought!

Thanks ladies. Your advice is much appreciated. I'll keep you posted....in case you care about my love life

Searching soul, That is absolutely ludicrous to me. What kind of psychiatrist does this? The people who dealt me pills didn't even pursue me. With that being said, major props to you! At one month and 5 days, I don't know if I could be that strong. Do you feel strong enough to tell her to leave you alone once and for all? You don't deserve those temptations.

We've discussed it so many times, and he's made it quite clear that there isn't marriage in our future. I've been that girl that sticks around for less than what I deserve. People kept telling me when I got some clean time, I'd start seeing things differently. And that's happening.

Amen sister!

I know this isn't a forum for this kind of stuff, but when it comes to life decisions, I know I base a lot of my decisions on fear. I'm finally starting to learn to cope with life again, without the influence of adderall to make my decisions, or lack thereof for me. As you know, I've been "with" a guy for 2.5 years, with no promise of commitment. I've recently started hanging out with another guy, only two or three times, but a new prospect is fun. My problem is whether I can cut the cord on my long-term faux relationship. I know I can't do both, and even if there's nothing with this new guy, it's really not good to juggle both. I'm so scared of letting go of Jeremy, my long-term guy for reasons I'm unsure of. Obviously I care about him, but I feel there's some unhealthy attachment there. He's a good person, and we've gone through a lot, but there comes a time when no future in this relationship is no longer good for me. It's kind of sick that I feel like I can't cut off one until I have a prospect for another. Wrong wrong wrong. Gentleman, I know you aren't a fan of these questions, but any advice from you or the ladies would be fabulous.

I wish I hated sitting still. The hula hoop and reading paints a funny picture to me....do what ya gotta do!

InRecovery, I missed my Saturday deadline for 12 miles, so I MADE myself go tonight after work. It's the last thing on earth that I wanted to do, but I finished my 12...a day late, but I'm not going to beat myself up since I did have a root canal. This week IT'S ON

MFA, I think now is a good time to stay close to this site. When things get tough is when you need support the most...and we need you! Thinking about you today, lady!

I put 9.5 miles in in 2 days It took me a little while, but I did it. 3.5 to go for the week.

Thank you MFA. This is the first really trying time I've had in months. I don't miss it, but it can serve as a reminder to not take any of this recovery for granted....ever.

MFA, I'm sorry you're dealing with this. The more I thought about it, I've realized this can just be recovery. I've had many of these spells, and I personally don't think there's anything wrong with just doing what you have to do, even it it's not shower and sleep a lot. You know how much stress you put on yourself to find a job? Well, you did that. Just look at this as giving yourself a break before you go back to work. I have a feeling you'll get back to feeling more like yourself soon. Hugs!

I love how you said, "I swear my brain was pumping out dopamine." I know exactly what you mean--it's that healthy high.

Great to hear! I've only got 4 miles in so far, due to the root canal and all that. Not making excuses, or maybe I am, but I'm working out tonight! I was putting in probably close to 8-10 a week before the 12 a week started. I can't let this week slide. I also need to add it all up. I think it's feel good to know. You're doing an awesome job!

Last night was such a bad night. I broke down and just sobbed for the first time in awhile. Geez, those Lortabs threw me for a loop. I kept thinking, "have I doomed my recovery?" Today is a new day and only I can make the choice to get over it and move on and that's what I'm going to do...I'm making this a bigger deal than it needs to be.

27 miles...dayummmm! I haven't even lost a single pound, but it helps to keep my mind right, and that's all I really care about for now. Bonus for you! We're going to stick with this

Your responses definitely calmed me down. I guess my fear wasn't being addicted to to Lortabs, but instead-- feeling good with a pill could be an adderall trigger. You guys have eased my mind a bit....thanks!

I'll third that. I was dreading being tired constantly, and there's no doubt you will...for awhile. I loved being up all hours of the night. Now, that sounds so unappealing to me. You'll learn to value your sleep. I can't stress enough how much exercise has helped my energy levels. My mom used to preach and preach about how much better and less tired I'd feel if I got some good exercise in. She was right.