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Hey Ashley I am new to this forum but I was looking at your pictures and I had to say something. Of course you are a beautiful girl but in the second one (the one on the right) there seems to be a light shining from within you. I know that light was there in the one on the left as well. But just not able to see it SHINE THOUGH YOU like the one on the right. Thank you for sharing and I look forward to getting to know you.

Just wanted to say I wasn't trying to leave anyone out... I am VERY NEW to this forum and I still getting to know everyone. So sorry to those I left out it wasn't intentally. and WOW justin so you taking 12 hours? THAT IS AWESOME!!!!!

Justin - I am just joining the board, as you know, but I will have to tell you I am so impressed and inspired by the way you (along with Jon and zerokewl) reach out to EVERYONE that post on here. I know for me it meant the world to just have someone hear me and reply. And the way in which you guys are able to put your thoughts to paper/computer screen like I said I am just amazed. So even though I am not sure what classes you are taking and I am not nearly as gifted as you guys are at putting what I am thinking into words but I wanted to at least TRY and tell you that I believe you can do it!!! And I am rooting for you and can't wait to hear about how you are doing so please keep posting about how it is going. again sorry - I only WISH I could express myself the way you guys do. But GO JUSTIN!!!!

Hey lucky I am new to this site as well and not nearly as gifted at providing you with information as other people here. But I read your story this morning. And I too am a stay at home mother and I found myself thinking about you though out my day hoping and wishing you the courage and strength to stay strong. I just thought I would let you know you know that you are not alone. I don't know if that helps, but just you should know.

Thank you zerokewl- I am still figuring out how to use site not sure exactly how or where to post. so bare with me until I get the hang if it.

THANK YOU SO MUCH, Justin, IT REALLY DOES!!!! (wiping tears) I don't even know how to explain. You guys seem to do such a wonderful job explaining how I am thinking and feeling or what to do... Etc. when I can't seem to be able to even put a sentence together. But I am not going to worry about that right now. Again I am just happy I found you guys!!! I really appreciate ANY words of encouragement!

I am a stay at home mom to now two grown teenage boys. I am a long time user of adderall. I started using adderall around 15 years ago. I quit using adderall in May of 2013. When I had to face the devastation decisions I made while taking adderall, and hope that my husband and my two sons would be willing to give me another chance if I QUIT adderall. It has not been an easy task to do to say the least as you all know. I happen to stumble across this website a couple of weeks ago and I could not believe it!!!! I thought I had search every site on the internet that talked about adderall abuse. But I NEVER came across this site. Anyway I am SOOOO THANKFUL I did!!!!! Actually I couldn't believe it at first because it seemed like for the longest time (7 months) that I was the only one that had this problem. But for the last two weeks I have been obsessed with reading every article and all the forum discussions. And finally I don't feel all alone. Everyday is still a struggle and I wonder if I have caused permanent damage taking such a high dose of adderall for such a long time. There doesn't seem to be a lot of information out there. But all I can do is take one day at a time. I realize I am very lucky that I am able to take time to recover without having the responsibility of a 'job' outside my home. And thank goodness my husband has been very supportive. Because even my few responsibilities at home seem to mount into unreachable goals. And I am just talking about doing laundry, going to the grocery store, etc. I was also diagnosed with depression and social anxiety at the same time I was diagnosed with ADHD and started taking adderall. However I never really did take my antidepressant, Wellbutrin, as prescribed because adderall seemed to 'fix' everything. Now that I am no longer on adderall symptoms of my depression are more prevalent than ever. So I have started, for the first time really and taking it correctly, wellburtin, about 3 weeks ago. Anyway that's my story... part of it anyway I will spare you guys the details lol. Thanks for listening and again I am so very thankful I found this site and even though I might not have made any comments YET on topics or individual stories believe me I am reading EVERYTHING I can get my hands on and taking it all in.