Bubbagump99

I'm terrified because I feel like I've been on these pills for so long, idk who I even am anymore? Does that make sense? Also, I'm going through the beginning stages of a divorce right now, and am making life altering decisions.. (Ones that I'm happy about, that will make myself happy for once).. But I'm starting to wonder if getting off this drug will change my thoughts about the decisions I'm making. But then I think.. The lack of adderall may change my mind, but it won't change my heart? does this make sense? Will quitting adderall change what I feel or what I want in life for myself??

Any pros or cons? How did you quit?

Thank you for your reply. Don't go back now, after you've come so freaking far. After coming to this message board and reading all these posts, I feel almost more hopeless bc people are saying how long it's gonna take to feel 'normal' again. I really thought a month or two max. People are talking a year or years. like, have I done this much fn damage to my body? Smh

Been on ad for 9 years. Been taking one 30mg once a day. I'm now prescribed two 30mg a day, but I haven't taken that dosage since in the back of my mind i feel like I need to quit and get my life back so to speak. I've become so damn immune to it now- I just feel like crap after 2 hours of taking it. It's like right now I'm at the point where I have to either up my dosage or quit. So tired of feeling this way, and feeling tired and worn out. However, I am scared sh!t to quit. I work 8 hour days and can't imagine how I'll even survive (aka stay awake) to work if I do quit ad. Can someone tell me what quitting was like, and how bad it was? I mean, am I gonna be falling asleep at my desk? Ugh, do I need to get caffeine ready to help me? Will that even help me? How long will the 'crash' last after I quit? what should I expect the first week? Two weeks? When will I feel 'normal' again?