Bubbagump99

How long were you on addy for? You're gonna quit cold turkey? I've been on it for 9 years or so. Been taking 30mg last few years. I attempted cold turkey last summer but that was beyond horrible. If I had been a student out for the summer, and living at home it would of been more manageable. However, I work a crazy, demanding job and I just can't have fog brain and feel like that bc my job entails too much thinking and programming. really need to be alert at work. So yeah, I started tapering from 30 to 20 for two weeks. Now I'm on 15 for two weeks, then 10mg and 5mg. I do have a few 30mg pills left but I gave them to my husband to hold. Told him to only give them to me if at the 15mg point, if I feel the need to stay on 15mg a little longer than 2 weeks to break them in half for me so I have 15mg pills longer than just 2 weeks. I read online how ppl taper every month or hold the step for every month but I didn't really wanna go that long but now that I'm doing it I understand why ppl say that Right now I have so much going on in my life and I feel like I just don't care about anything. idk. This is all so depressing. I told my doc I wanted to quit and taper and have another apt w her next month to see how I'm doing. Feel like I need to do this now or I never will. Seems so hopeless right now. maybe just bc i feel exhausted today:(

Saturday I took my first 15mg of my taper. Started at 30, and dropped to 20 for 2 weeks, now I'm on 15 for 2 weeks. Saturday I felt great, slept well. Played tennis for the first time in years. I wasn't full of energy but I wasn't exhausted either. Felt like I needed to push myself a little and 'move' even if just for awhile. I enjoyed it, played for a hour or so. Rest of day I was fine. However that night I fell asleep at 8pm. Woke up Sunday morning at 7 which is extremely long for me to sleep. Stayed on the couch all day yesterday, literally. Body was SO sore from playing tennis AND I was exhausted. Had brain fog but I think it was bc I slept too long. Felt depressed, hopeless, exhausted. This morning I feel better. Yet deep down I know I feel 'better' bc I can feel the adderall 'kicking in'. Feel like it's the only thing that's ever made me feel happy in my life. Or maybe I feel like I can't imagine not taking it anymore at all. I have no desire to increase my dosage right now though. This is so hard. And by that I mean, not really the tapering, but the thought of never taking another pill again.

???? I'm confused. Happy, but confused.. anyone experience this? When I tried to quit cold turkey I ate everything I could practically. Anyone have any experience with a loss of appetite while tapering?

Wow. What you wrote sounded exactly like me. Holy crap. :/

Maisy I'm kinda in the same boat as you right now.. Anon55- so much to say about this. My first instinct is to tell you to tell her. Do you love this girl? Can you see something really developing with this relationship? I'm not sure how old you are.. If she really loves you, she wouldn't judge you. She may want you to quit though, so if you tell her you need to be prepared to hear that. But she could be your motivation to quit too..? You could tell her and she could leave you.. (Although that would be surprising..) but if she did, would that be an enough of a wake up call for you to stop taking it? Is that what you need? I personally don't think you're gonna be able to stop while you keep this all a 'secret'. And I agree w the working late/nights being a bait for adderall. sometimes you need to change the things in your life that make you want to turn to ad to be your 'crutch'. But I just started tapering a week ago after being on ad for 8-9 years so what do I know..🤔😳

The doc made it seem like she was surprised like I felt like I had to taper.. If I never 'abused' it and always only took my prescribed dosage, (which I did) will my withdrawals be easier? I mean, as opposed to someone who abused it and took more then prescribed??

Hey guys, I feel good today. when I stop and think about how I feel, I can feel the brain fog more.. But just working at work now as usual.. I'm ok. feeling jumping down to 15 this sat instead of next, but I don't wanna shock my stupid brain more then what's in store for it. I've been pretty happy these past few times. I'm worried though that once I hit 10 and 5 mg, I'm not gonna be so happy tho lol :/ I mean, 20mg is still a good amount to have in you....u know?

Cut my dosage by 10mg, so I'm currently at 20mg for 14 days- and then 15 etc. so far I do have some brain fog, and tired, but emotionally I feel pretty good. Taking vitamins and eating really heathy I think has helped a lot. cut out carbs and sugar. I feel optimistic, yet it's scary to know I'll eventually lose this 'high' I feel when I take these pills. Didn't think going from 30 to 20mg would be a huge difference, but I could definitely feel the difference. But so far I think I'm doing pretty good..starting to understand why they tell addicts in recovery it's day by day.. 😔

-xefitnop How many years were you on 30mg for? And how long did you taper for? How long did you hold each step?

Just do it and quit. I'm in the early stages of tapering off. You need to tell your dr you want to quit, or just flush your pills. You can't have access to them. Stop thinking so much and just do it. I really think you (and I) would be so much happier in the longrun without this crap. I've used for almost 9years. somedays I feel like I'll never be normal again.. but u know what? The time is gonna pass anyways, so why not do it and help yourself?

Congrats to you. I'm currently tapering from almost 9 years of being on this crap. I thank god I never went above 30mg, even when I knew 30 wasn't working 'as much or anymore'. I tried quitting cold turkey and failed, wasn't ready to quit yet. I think this time I'm really ready and want it more. I dropped from 30mg to 20mg. This is my 3rd day on 20, and I already feel the brain fog :/ My dr has me on 20mg for 2 wks, 15mg for 2wks, 10 mg for 2wks, and 5 for 2 wks.. kinda worried I'm still gonna feel brain foggy when this 2 weeks on the 20 is up.. And dropping down to 15 worries me. I know you're suppose to take one day at a time, but it's worrisome I guess...

Vits, workout? I'm all ears:) Started tapering yesterday, been on addy for 9 years, was On 30mg. Tapering started at 20... Sigh..

Always- I know I've probably asked you this a bazillion times but please refresh my memory- how much addy were you taking? And did you ever 'abuse' it? Like take more than prescribed?

Just wondering...

So now I have 2 prescriptions she gave me. 20mg for 14 days, 15mg for 14 days, 10mg for 14 days, and then 5 mg for 14 days. Kinda crappin my pants over here😱

How long did you feel crappy for?

Yeah, idk. I just feel so tired.. Like tired of it all. the pills, the drinking.. Been doing this for so long. I think I'm just at the point where as much as it is scary, I just want them out of my life. it sounds so lame but I feel like I want my life back, like I want to live. I want to feel. I can't do that with those pills. Feel like I've wasted so much of my life away.. 😕

Thanks. The dr actually had to cancel today's apt bc of an emergency, and I rescheduled for tomorrow. Feel like the devil is trying to tell me this is a sign and to not quit! lol Smh

How long did you stay at each lowered dose for?

Kinda freaking out a little bit.. I'm currently taking 30mg once a day. Been for 8 years or so. I tried cold turkey a couple months ago and just couldn't do it with my demanding crazy job. I need to be able to function. I want this over with.. but I know I need to do this the 'right' way and do it slowly so I don't f*ck up my brain anymore than it is... Feeling overwhelmed.. Scared.. blah

Hey always.. when you quit cold turkey were you working full time or going to school? What was your day-to-day life like? And how much were you taking?

When you were tapering and then quit, how much were you taking when you decided to quit cold turkey?

Wow, that's a long time. How much were you taking? How long have you been clean for?

Feel like I've been taking them for so long that I don't even know who the 'real' me is anymore.. Does that make sense to anyone? 😕

I do but I don't. I do because I want my life back, so to speak. And also recently I thought I could of been pregnant and thought to myself.. Wow, I'd have to quit this stuff cold turkey for 9 months and never go back. The thought of 'HAVING TO' stop freaked me out. idk, not getting any younger, would like to have one child I guess.. Feel like my body would go into shock not having any addy at all after taking it everyday for almost 9 years😕