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Good job, 8 days down is amazing becuse theyre likely the 8 hardest days. Congrats and keep it up, im rooting for you

Any other new timers/old timers thankul for having another adderall free day???! Im approaching two months and every day Without popping pills feels like an accomplishment. So.. id just like to pat myself and you all on the back and say good job! im having some issues with grinding my teeth that almost seem worse now than while i was using.. Im hoping this will pass as i get further along in recovery and just drinking plenty of liquids. Also some of the skin picking problems havent completely subsided.. im also trying to identify addictive behavior in other realms of my life like working out, relationships, and binge watching tv/reading. Really trying to do everyday mundane things (basic stuff like brushing my teeth walking the dog making food, etc etc) with more purpose. It sounds realllly pathetic and basic but i find it theraputic.. i've set a goal to make every week that passes better than the last:) any other forum trolls willing to share an update on how long they've been clean and how youre doing?? Much love

You read my mind^ Ive got the exact same situation going on! The struggle is real! Thanks so much for sharing!!!

Best of luck to you kimber❤ Even if you do decide to quit i would imagine it would take a few months before you notice significant physical differences. Thats how its been for me at least. The first few weeks after i quit mostly sucked.. i slept quite a bit and was drained of energy and motivation but its completely worth it in my opinion. I hope you get some good advice from a sensible dr tho

I reallly like this post and its exactly what ive been thinking about lately. This is the golden question right? The problem i have to resolve to move on with my life and leave this chapter in the dust. Adderall isnt/wasnt necessarily my problem its the person i was and my view of the world/myself which was the underlying problem and led to adderall dependancy. I was supressing my true self, interests and talents because i convinced myself that art isnt valuable to society. i thought that my artistic abilities were childish and unproductive and of much less significance to those who were gifted in math and science. This belief may mainly stem from the fact that my dad has a phd in engineering and was preoccupied with his career during my childhood and i was longing for his attention. This childish notion led me to strive to get into med school and i put a load of expectations on myself, and i didnt feel that my natural self was good enough, i needed adderall to supress my irrelevant emotions. its time that i accept who i am, what im naturally inclined to, and listen to that inner voice. Thats what growing up really is about right?

watching/ listening to this is trauma repition for me but this is the song i had on repeat when i was at my worst and chosing to throw away my pills. **viewer descreation advised

Im in a recovery program based on the 12 steps of AA. Would people be interested in sharing their thoughts around the 1-12 steps on here?

Ive had pulsing veins too. I had mono in December so i though it was bc of that or a combo of mono and adderall use but i still feel pulsation from time to time especially when ive had caffeine and or feel anxious.

I tried to rationalize with myself and take small doses and i wish i would have just quit at that point because the rest of my adderall journey is a pretty dark story.

In the midst of her disease, if shes not willing to help herself, it may be best for you to take the children and remove them from such a toxic environment while their mother is ill. My father was an alcoholic while i was growing up and i believe that i inherited some unhealthy psychological problems because of his influence.

Thanks for sharing. I know addiction is a horrible disease not only for the addict but the whole family. You may find some support from al-anon and learn techniques which will help you handle this situation better. You obviously care very much for her and your family and just the fact that you have made a profile here to consult with others is a tremendous act of love. I wish you the very best and i hope your wife realizes what an awful downward spiral shes in.

Hi kimber, if youre able to control the intake more power to you. However, if you have any addictive tendencies or if you have the gut feeling what so ever that this highly toxic substance will do more harm. Please listen to that inner voice. Its difficult for anyone else to know whats best for you. But, since youre asking for advice from a forum about quitting adderall, i think you know what to do.

So far ive read and can recommend : The road less traveled The power of now Finding your moral compass please comment below with more recommended reads:)

You are exactly where youre supposed to be. Think of how greatly blessed you are to have the opportunity of LIFE. You dont owe the world anything other than realizing your true potential, whatever that may be. Our society makes us believe that if we arent highly productive citizens then we are of lesser value. YOUR VALUE doesnt depend on what you do, it isnt variable.

Ive also experienced a lot of fatigue and depression. at first i was just allowing myself to succumb to it but ive recently been pushing myself a little just to plan more activities and fill my days with things i love/ surround myself with positive people and that has helped tremendously. I strongly recommend that you take some steps to rewire youre brain and to get some natural flow of dopamine goin again. ❤❤❤

Amen to all of this. You are not alone❤

Compassion. On adderall i became a sad and isolated human being. I've been sober now a month and a half and i think the most amazing gift of sobriety is being able to connect with people again. That connectionh has been a gateway to a whole new level of conciousness that i was denying myself of as an addict. Feeling contentment is also nice, i was never content when i was using, always buzzing or crashing. Getting in touch with my emotions has been a rollercoaster but totally worth it when you can finally feel at ease and experience joy from simple pleasures, although fleeting and sometimes far inbetween. An adderall high cannot compare to healthy feelings of happiness. I've started dressing completely differently, prioritizing my time differently, my life looks much different now, in a positive way. I'm much more hopeful that my future will be a more accurate representation of my authentic self.

Is anyone else experiencing social anxiety after quitting? I developed crippeling social anxiety when I Was using and isloated myself daily.. Ive been off adderall a little over a month now and im still extremely anxious in social situations to the point that its painful and I just want to escape as soon as possible. I've been going to NA meetings and stuff and i guess the practice of meeting new people helps some but Im wondering if anyone has experienced this and had improvements? How long does it take?

Is anyone else experiencing social anxiety after quitting? I developed crippeling social anxiety when I Was using and isloated myself daily.. Ive been off adderall a little over a month now and im still extremely anxious in social situations to the point that its painful and I just want to escape as soon as possible. I've been going to NA meetings and stuff and i guess the practice of meeting new people helps some but Im wondering if anyone has experienced this and had improvements? How long does it take?

Hey Frank, I think its really difficult to say. I myself got a pretty thurough diagnosis including an EEG and multiple tests. However, at the time I was diagnosed I also had an eating disorder and my family life was chaos since my older brother was struggeling with heroin addiction. I am really beginning to question the validity of the diagnosis in general. The more i learn about psychology and working the 12-step program im beginning to see the correlation between environmental factors, parenting etc as the most plausible explaination for concentration problems..

I recently had to take off from med school and ive been clean since feb 14 (coincidentally). Im in recovery now & going to NA meetings 4x week. What ive come to realize is that I've deprived myself of the growth, spiritual and mental, that comes from self discipline of facing problems and solving them by relying on adderall. I suggest that you try to face the problems head on and just accept the pain as a part of the process of healing and growth. I promise its worth it and it will get easier. Most of the time, for me at least the hardest part is just getting started. I wish you the best of luck, keep making the right choices!!

Hello What helps you stay sober? what makes you come alive and lose track of time? i think thats the key to getting out of the rut quicker, findings what gets your juices flowing naturally... please share what works for you

Jayhawk! Since ive had mono and time passes painfully slowly without adderall ive had time to think about where my motivation is going to come from now that I dont get a daily dose of motivation from a pill, and i believe this will be the source. This medication has to become more regulated. With the current situation of prescription pill addiction and mortality rate, its pretty much unethical (and baffeling) that this stuff is still being prescribed. It grinds my gears for sure. Thanks for your advice and response, I'm glad I found this forum. It really helps to know that other people are out there with the same struggle, fighting for their life back and succeeding.

I've been on adderall about a year and 4 months. Im in med school in Poland so i first went to the doctors there, they thought I had tonsilitis and started me on some antibiotics I ended up getting worse, so they sent me for blood tests, and they still couldnt figure out i had mono and started me on a stronger antibiotic and then i got a rash all over my body and had horrible fever so I decided to take a sick leave from school a week before christmas break and traveled back home to Norway. I saw a dr as soon as i got back and they confirmed mono. I definitely think that adderall contributed to how sick i got from mono, I was malnourished, sleep deprived, and exhausted. I completely agree about the big pharma stuff too. Its horribly cruel. Quitting adderall in the middle of med school almost feels like Im trying to sabotage myself, but I just can't continue the way I was. And i know I wont just be able to take less, I have no self control when it comes to that stuff. Ive considered asking my psychiatrist for provigil or a non-stimulant ADHD medication though. By the way, I attended my first year of collage at KU! It was without adderall too, I have a lot of great memories from that place

Hey, im new here thought id share my story see if anyone had any similar experiences or advice. I started taking adderall after a bad break up, to mask my emotions and lack of confidence. I went on an ego power trip and decided I was going to get into med school. Ive been working my ass off ever since to took my first pill and now im done with my first semester. But I realized it all came at a higher cost, which isnt sustainable. I isolated myself, my health has deteriorated i had insomnia every over night and still made it to classes, stressed 24/7, depressed, and finally at the end of the semester i got mono. Over christmas break, while i had mono i realized i had a problem and i cant continue living like this. I used to be likeable, physically fit, and attractive. Now i look like a pasty zombie and my class mates think im a loner. The problem is that im worried that quitting adderall on top of recovering from mono will leave me so drained of energy that i wont pass the first year of medical school. And worse, without adderall idk if ill have the drive/interest to study. I just feel like a fuck up. Advice/ encouragement greatly appreciated.