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Hey friends, I have passed the 2-week mark in my Adderall cessation journey and the novelty of being clean has worn off. I have now entered a phase where life is just dragging, day by day. I have worked too hard and gone too far to turn back, but I just can't find the motivation to move forward. This dull, low-grade exhaustion where I'm dragging a$$ is killing me. I feel like such a simp. Also, I have entirely lost my sense of humor and this is scaring me. My wit use to be on point and now there is not a funny bone in my body. Has anyone else experienced this?? Really and truly, I know it won't be like this forever and I just have to push through...What has kept you psychologically intact during the initial weeks and months of being sober?

Really I thought I was the only one dealing with this problem! When I was on Adderall I was a complete b*tch to everyone!! But now it's a different kind of rage. Not so much of a cocky attitude as much as severe impatience for absolutely ANYthing. I get irritated waiting for my laundry to be done. I'm even impatient while cooking dinner because I just want to eat. Things are moving soooo damn slow. Also, I find that I'm being super annoying to my family lol. I just find joy in getting on people's nerves lately. It makes me laugh out loud in a hysterical, crazy type of way. I don't know...maybe it's quarantine

I think when we reach milestones in recovery, our brain tells us it's good to rewards ourselves. Which is true...but then we think of the best thing to reward ourselves with and Adderall seems like a nice "treat" Lol I have actually fallen for this before. And "one more day" always turns in to another spiral! Keep Going you got this!!!!

Hey guys, I had a slip up in my recovery a week ago. It's been really hard for me to cope on a daily basis without Adderall. However, I am 7 days clean and I'm back at it! Kudos to anyone who has quit longterm. You are all so strong!! I'm just stopping by to add emphasis to the fact that exercising has been a Godsend during this time. There is no part of me that wants to get up and exercise. But I realize that my brain absolutely needs it to survive. It truly is the remedy for depression and anxiety. I'm starting to incorporate it into my daily routine as it seems that my life depends on it. I use to run a lot to get my heart rate up. However, it's been really hard to hype myself up to run any distance at all. So, I recently bought a jump rope and it's been a gamechanger!! I'm a month and a half clean from smoking cigarettes so I haven't been able to work out for too long as of yet, but I see the improvement in my mood immediately. After doing cardio (HIIT specifically) for even 10 minutes a day, I notice that my concentration has improved immensely. The chatter in my brain is virtually non-existent (I struggle with intrusive negative thoughts) and my energy is through the roof. My mind is so much less chaotic which is something I need so badly right now. Jumprope is a great way to combat weight gain too from Adderall cessation. I look up jump rope routines on youtube and there are thousands of people who swear by this exercise to lose weight fast, tone up, increase endurance, and become fit and healthy. (You can buy a super cheap and durable rope from Walmart for $10, or better yet find one on Amazon) When you don't want to work out or can't get yourself to lace up for a jog, jumping rope is a great and easy way to instantly boost your mood and regain a sense of well-being!! Good luck and KEEP GOING everyone xx

Congratulations on taking this huge step. You have a long road ahead but you can do this. Let your desire to live med-free counteract your desire to be productive for a while. I quit Adderall XR cold turkey about 2 weeks ago and it has been rough. I was on an extremely high dose, however. Though I feel less than up to par, each day is so exciting. I see my skin clearing up, my anxiety has subsided, my racing thoughts are not nearly as chaotic as they were, everything has slowed down to a speed that I feel I can live at. I am starting to appreciate the beauty of life. When we're on stimulants we tend to miss all the little beauty life has to offer. I too am in my 20's and it's devastating to see what Adderall has done to my skin. Cellulite and acne are a huge downer when it comes to Adderall. My skin is literally glowing after not being on my meds for 2 weeks. I think it's really important to establish a routine now. You don't have to be super productive or even productive at all. Just make sure to have some structure to your day. It will make your life alooot easier during this time. Day's will go by faster and you will feel like you are in control of some part of your life. Idle time will be your downfall. Try to go for a walk every day and get outside. There is no part of me that wants to get up and move. The only reason why I do it is because I know that it's good for me. I also know that it will really help my recovery over the long term. What you eat now is truly is essential- try your best to eat a nutrient-rich diet and drink lots of water. The first week that I quit, I indulged in so many sweets because my appetite was ravenous. I see a massive difference now that I have cut out the sugar. Not only is my skin thanking me but my brain and my whole body is too. You can truly think a lot more clear without artificial sugar. I can't believe I took so long for me to realize tt. I am trying to stay away from all inflammatory food. The Paleo diet is great for getting clean and clear looking skin again- you should research it! Most importantly remember to go easy on yourself. This is a huge step and it's the best one you can make for your health and well-being. Not only will you benefit from going med-free but your family and friends will too. You will start to understand the person you were on meds is a far cry from who your real self is and you will feel like a million bucks knowing that Every day you are one step closer to discovering the true meaning of living. I wish you all the luck and I know that you can do this. God bless xx

I quit Adderall cold turkey 8 days ago. I was taking anywhere from 100mg XR to 240mg XR daily for 4.5 years. I'm kicking myself for allowing my tolerance to get so absurdly high because now I'm experiencing the expected withdrawal from hell. I don't want to scare anyone who is trying to quit so I will try not to go into detail. However, I am really struggling with heavy fatigue, no ability to concentrate, depression, severe anxiety, and an insatiable hunger (I can't afford my current eating habits). I use to work out every day, and although lack of motivation is to be expected, I still feel guilty that I can't push myself to workout, or even get out of bed. I was doing okay for the first week but I have recently crashed- hard. If anyone has any source of motivation, inspiration, advice or their own personal success story to share, I would really appreciate it. Thanks so much

OP, I totally understand your desire to quit everything at once. I too felt like this. I wanted to be completely clean from everything and to start a new life. I still desire to do this, but the more you condemn yourself, the worse you will feel. I'm slowly learning to be understanding of myself, to take responsibility for my actions but to also understand that I am only human, not superhuman. Personally, I found it absolutely necessary to quit smoking cigarettes and adderall simultaneously as I knew these substances were having a huge negative impact on me. I am currently 24 days without smoking cigarettes today and 4 days without Adderall and I feel like hell. It took me over 15 attempts to quit smoking, but by the grace of God I am doing it somehow. The fact that you want to quit is an accomplishment in itself. You WILL conquer all of this, but you need to be patient with yourself. Your body and brain are going to completely crash if you kick everything at once. You need to give your body months to heal and allow yourself to go through it. I was addicted to Adderall for 4 years. I have tried to quit plenty of times, but after noticing some severe psychological distress and physical manifestations of illness I have decided to drop the habit for good. My doctor would prescribe me up to 100mg XR daily. At my worst, I was abusing up to 240mg XR a day, then I would buy concerta or vyvanse from my friends to make up for the missed days. During this time I was so paranoid and hostile, I was experiencing delusions and hallucinations and my body was severely malnourished and dehydrated. I would not sleep for up to a week at a time. I was so disassociated from reality. My doctor would give me my script, along with 4 repeats and send me on my way for a few months. He would never ask any questions regarding the impact it may have been having on my mental health. I was obviously extremely disheveled in appearance and notably very different in my personality. Thank God that my doctor finally retired and said that I would not see him again. Without that happening, I believe I would very well be dead today. If it wasn't the Adderall that killed me it would have been the insane amount of cognac I drank along with the cocaine, benzos and other drugs I was using simultaneously. I currently feel absolutely disconnected. I can't help but beat myself up over the guilt over the years I wasted, the people I hurt and the things I missed out on. Adderall made me very cruel to even my loved ones, and I did not care about anyone's feelings but my own. For all I knew, no one else had any feelings but myself. And the only feelings I experienced were hostility, aggression and jealously. Other than that I was completely flat. I was numb. My appetite is now ravenous and no amount of food can keep me satisfied! I am always hungry! There is some strange comfort in being able to feel tired again and crawling into my bed after a long day of doing nothing. In this time of quarantine, I believe this Is the best time to quit Adderall if I am ever going to do it. I have always been a writer and very articulate with my dialogue, now I feel like I can't spit out two words and put them together in a sentence. I feel like I have gone back to pre-K. I suppose my body is just trying to re-adjust after abusing it for so long. I am at the point where I cannot turn back. I refuse to ever be a slave to Adderall again. For anyone who wants to or is trying to quit, I believe one day you will hit a point yourself where you just cannot go on like this anymore. You will realize for better or for worse that you must quit this drug, there is no other choice. I felt like I was growing out of that Adderall mold and the only way to make room for all of me was to get out of my own way. I feel like I am so close to meeting my true self, but the only way to attain that is to become totally sober. It's one of the toughest things I have ever done. I have managed to kick an opiate addiction in the past and that pain cannot compare to the pain of kicking Adderall. You are all absolute beasts for taking this challenge on. Cut yourself some slack for attempting this Demon. You are all so strong. These symptoms will pass. Each new day brings a clearer picture of what your future could hold. If the best I could do today was get out of bed to lay on the couch, I'm going to call it a success, because I refused to take a little orange or blue capsule to set me right. I know every day won't be like this. You're body and brain are crying out and begging you to slow down and give yourself time to heal. You will get your personality back. Give yourself time and take in the scenery. I believe there is something to learn in this period of rehabilitation. God bless x