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Yes, good work Occasional! My running will start tomorrow....guess maybe I should've done SOMETHING over the weekend. InRecovery, I haven't had any issues....weird.

Ok, well I finally moved on from my ex. We finally quit hooking up 5 months ago or so, and I even started seeing someone else. Nothing serious, but I had gotten to the point of really being over my ex. Then I found out two days ago he's been seeing someone else. I feel like I got punched in the stomach. While I wish I wouldn't have known this, I do, so now I have to deal with it. I feel like a part of seeing your ex move on and hurting is normal, but I don't know why I'm taking it so hard. This is my first true breakup off of adderall , and I really am grateful to experience feelings, even if they suck a lot. I don't know what I'm looking for from you all really, but am I crazy or is this kind of normal? I'm still learning how to do life

Heather, Very good to hear. Have you cut off your supplier(s)? You know we're here for you, woman. I doubt I washed my hair for the first 7 days of quitting, so that's an accomplishment. Hang in there and please keep us posted.

Hang in there. It is the drugs and withdrawal. You seem like you really understand what to expect, and you're right on. To be honest, it's really bad for awhile, but it gets better. Patience is key. Try your best to take it a day at a time, because the future is just overwhelming to think about. This stuff is powerful and potent, doctors are wrong when they say it's not. Good for you....just keep going!

Ok, that was the toughest run I've had in a loooong time. I think I died for a minute. I got 5.91 done in the first 60:00, then restarted the treadmill and did another 1.5, so I got 6 running in there, I'm pretty sure. Maybe spread my running out a little more I'm ready to take on the other stuff! I can promise you I would not have done 6 today, if I didn't know you both had done it. I'm 100% sure of that...ha.

InRecovery, 25?! Super impressive. And occasional, dang woman, you really are doing this. Running off the anxiety is great. I don't think 12 miles is going to be any issue for you, obviously. I'll have to work on the planks. Heading to the gym in a little while to aim at getting my other 6 in. Keep you both posted. Good work!!!

Just wanted to wish all of you a happy 4th! I hope you enjoy your night

Occasional said it all very well. Romantic relationships/ breakups are hard... and those of us who have any addiction issues try to avoid feelings at any cost, especially the bad ones. I was with my ex for four years, and when we broke up, that's when my addiction spun out of control. I'm saying this because as bad as it hurts, if you were using it would be much worse. I was an emotional roller coaster. I remember a specific event when I had just quit, and I was vacuuming and accidentally got my friends headphones caught up in the vacuum cleaner. He found me laying on the ground sobbing. I'm just using this story because while your emotions are real, you feel everything times 100. Now we look back at it and laugh. Congratulations on your 4 months, and I promise you, it will get easier if you stay away from those stupid pills. Also, if adderall had anything to do with why you broke up, use it in your favor to remind you that you don't want the pills to cause any other chaos in your life. You'll get through this. Hang in there, and like Cassie said, a fling couldn't hurt

Occasional, Ok sounds good. I'm kind of a fitness idiot. I don't really know specific exercises and what's best for what areas. I can do push ups, though I have friends who know a lot about what the best workouts are, so I will consult with them What kind of goals are you thinking? I'm kind of pumped to get in shape!

Occasional, Good idea on the push-ups. Or I'm thinkin abs stuff. My stomach is the only area I'm not happy with. We could get crazy and do it all!

6 miles. I usually count walking in my total but not anymore. 6 miles of running!

Thank you for all of your positive feedback. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous to go back to my old stomping grounds where a lot of it is an adderall blur, but I hope I'll be just fine. I've let fear run my life way too often. I need to remind myself that ironically letting adderall take over my life IS the reason I didn't graduate. Occasional, it will be for the fall term....wish they offered it for summer. Jon, thanks for sharing that. I like it. The class is child and adolescent development. Not difficult, just a necessity for my degree. Calculus....helllll no

Occasional and InRecovery, well done! I'm starting my running tomorrow. I'll keep you posted. Occasional, I'm so glad you're doing this with us! Now I have 2 people to hold me accountable.

I just wanted to share with you all that I'm 15 months adderall-free!!! I've had a weird streak of just not feeling that great mentally, and it's times like this when I am just so happy and rejoice in the fact that I don't have to answer to that pill. As many of you know, I'm one class away from getting my college degree, and I have a plan in place. The plan right now is to move to my college where I was for undergrad for a semester to get this DONE. I'm nervous about it because I spent many years there tweaking, but I have to get this degree..for me, for my family, and to prove that I'm a success without adderall. I'll keep you posted, just wanted to share a little of what's going on. My family is helping me take care of my bills, living expenses, and my car while I do this, and I'll also be working. It shows me how much they believe in me. Thank you all for your ongoing support!

Great advice. Definitely agree that running outside is a whole different ball game. I hate it. I listen to music when I run, and I've noticed particular songs really get me going, so I like to have a good playlist on hand.

Occasional, You've officially been inducted into our club of two...now 3 I need to figure out what the heck I'm doing at the gym, so I can do other stuff besides the treadmill. Good for you! Keep us posted.

I would think most treatment facilities would treat adderall addiction. My experience when I looked into rehab was it would be outpatient, but I don't know if that's how it is across the board. If you're considering rehab, I'd check into facilities around you. Good luck and congrats for thinking of making a positive step!

Jon, Congratulations on taking a big step. I would like to sugar coat it, but recovery is a long process. You just have to believe it's for the best, and it's good you're giving yourself relaxation, because it's pretty important. Did you ever abuse it? What made you decide you wanted to quit? Whatever your reason, let that be your constant reminder to stay quit. It's a journey, but a peaceful life is worth it.

Sorry to hear about your dream. That's what can be disturbing about them, because it might not always be a relief when you wake up. At least you're being honest about it, and those dreams will definitely shake you up. There's a reason we got hooked on adderall and loved it in a sick way....whether it be the euphoria, liking to clean, feeling amped up, etc, so the goal, in my opinion, is to constantly stay reminded of everything we lost while using it. I still have dreams a year and 2 months sober, but they usually affect me less now and are less frequent. Proud of you for 6 months!

Just did 6, so I hit 12 too. Whoop!

Well-done! I'll be hitting the gym tomorrow.

I also totally agree. I have spent a lot of time with the dog of my neighbor I used to live by, and it brought so much happiness to me. It's a King Charles cavalier (kind of irrelevant), but it's a great breed. I will be getting one as soon as I can have a pet at my place. Excellent point you brought up here. I know we have pet lovers on this site. I believe Cassie fosters dogs, and I know quit once has a dog he does everything with. Would be interested in their input too! Going through early recovery I would just sleep with the dog by my side, and it brought a sense of peace.

I'll do 12 by Sunday. There I said it, so I have to!

6 miles

30 miles?!?! WOW. I've been on vacation the past two weeks and only ran like 9 in two weeks. I can tell I don't feel as good. Heading to the gym now to get back on it. Very nice, dude.