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MFA, I started Lexapro within the last 6 months, and I did have those side effects in the beginning, but they subsided pretty quickly. Overall, I think it's a good medication. Ldmcdaniel, I couldn't ever believe I was prescribed adderall with my anxiety either. It makes for a terrible combo. Absolutely terrible panic. I guess in a way it's a blessing in disguise, because it was a huge part of why I decided to quit adderall. Oh gosh, Effexor is a beast. Getting off of that was rough....did you get that feeling like your brain was being electrocuted? I'm so glad I'm off of that medication! Lexapro has treated me much better

Occasional, I can't really remember what I was like before adderall honestly. I've really come to the conclusion from the help of you guys that sleep is my coping mechanism when I'm bored, upset, angry, etc. I'm sorry you're not sleeping much. I have to say that would probably be worse I also think I've been aware for awhile that I should start thinking about getting off klonopin. I do have panic attacks, so at times I do need it. It's weird that I don't really think I've developed much of a tolerance for it, because I can take one and sleep like a baby. I had the flu feeling pretty shitty the last four or five days, so the ridiculous amounts I've been sleeping probably have a lot to do with that too. I kind of forgot that's what happens when you're sick We adderallics tend to be hard on ourselves. I hope you start sleeping better, because I know how badly a lack of sleep can make you feel. Thanks for your input!

I remember the nurse or doctor on here suggesting B-12 injections too awhile back. That's something I might look into. Cassie, I'm so jealous. Those dogs are adorable! I've been wanting a dog so badly. I agree with you that I need more stimulation. I'm just kind of bored. So I need to look into getting a hobby that I really enjoy or being apart of something bigger than myself. Thanks for all of the advice, everyone.

Searching soul, Yes, I felt a ton of anxiety when quitting. It's this nervous energy that's really hard to shake. I really find it to be a normal part of quitting...this too shall pass. On the Wellbutrin....personally wouldn't suggest it because it's an antidepressant and doesn't work on anxiety. I tried it myself for awhile and found myself to be anxious, but you can always get your doctor's opinion on that. Just breatheeee. It will get better.

Thanks for the feedback all. InRecovery, coffee and red bull help some, but honestly not a whole lot. Kyle, I agree with you....I guess I've gotten way too into my pattern of long naps. MFA, YES. I'm starting to think there is a huge correlation. I just assumed after being on klonopin for so many years that it really wouldn't still cause this, but it is a sedative, and I'm not mixing it with an upper anymore (thank God). I've been thinking more about this, and I almost thing sleeping is like a coping mechanism for me.

I'm tired a lot. I sleep...a lot. One thing I liked (I hate to even say liked) about adderall was not being tired. I get plenty of sleep at night, and I'm still tired during the day a lot. Working out helps, but does anyone have any other suggestions? Sometimes I think it's a mental thing, because I've had bloodwork done checking my thyroid and all of that. Any advice would be much appreciated.

Yes, I'm all good....my car not so much Thanks for asking.

And I come home and wreck my car into the garage....I guess that will change my thoughts...craaaap.

I just faced a trigger. My friend's significant other was my biggest source for adderall. I was just leaving a restaurant and ran into them. I did countless drug deals out of that car with her...ewww trigger. I'm taking my mind elsewhere NOW.

Isn't it ironic how in recovery we want to control how we feel? We tie using pills as being in control of our emotions, when in fact that was the least control we've probably ever had of ourselves?! I 100% agree with you Cassie....letting recovery take its course is valuable and pretty much necessary.

I'm going to see Silver Linings Playbook tonight I'll let you guys know what I think.

If you tell your doctor you're abusing, most will stop prescribing. It's extreme negligence if they don't, but it's happened to people on here. I think it should do the trick. Go for it while you're ready to quit and before cravings start pulling you back. It will be well worth it.

Happy Valentine's Day to you. I've seen way too many flowers delivered at work today....maybe I'm just jealous

Sick as in what? Feeling physically sick isn't usually a part of withdrawal. Maybe you're legitimately sick?

Thanks for sharing! I'm going to look into it.

MFA, Yes, I have to give Self a lot of credit. They did their homework, fact-checking, and then some for this article. I think it was very accurate from my standpoint. And overall, I think they did a great job with not making us not sound like victims, just that we didn't recognize or care what the outcomes of the bad decisions we made while on adderall, that's why it can be dangerous. I was nervous to post it, because I know some of you guys aren't for the media on the topic, and we all can tear a story a part since we know it like the back of our hands.

A small part of my story in here. You guys know it already, but thought I'd post it. http://m.self.com/health/2013/03/adderall-the-get-ahead-drug?currentPage=6

Yaaaaay!!! I would insert a cool emoticon that InReovery always uses, but I don't know how. Hell to the freaking yeah....must feel good to get that confidence of knowing YOU can do it WITHOUT adderall.

I think telling your doctor anything that will make them stop prescribing you is the best idea for your quit. Maybe not suicidal, because they have an obligation to commit you, if you tell them that, as far as I know. I told my doctor the anxiety was just too much, and the side effects were outweighing the benefits, as I broke down in tears. Go for it today while you're remembering the adderall for what it is, poison.

Nononono. You aren't the only one who fucks up on here. Most people just don't have the balls to come back and own it. This shows that you really want better for yourself. Maybe you just haven't gotten the tools to do so. Have you thought of rehab? I was one phone call away (to my dad) to admitting myself into rehab, before I gave quitting a last ditch effort on my own. I still say to this day, if I fuck up, rehab is where I'm going. If you can't afford it, they have facilities with sliding scale fees that are based on your income. I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug

By the way, good for you for being accountable here. I can imagine that was hard to do. Stay strong, my friend!

While you're remembering everything bad adderall brings you, why don't you tell your therapist to never prescribe you again? Chances are you'll forget the adderall hell again, we all are guilty of that at times, and having that open invitation for a script is asking for another relapse. I think a lot of us came to the consensus on this site that cutting off our doctor supply is one of, if not the most important step, in quitting.....assuming you're ready.

I second that! I woke up thinking about your interview today. I just realized how creepy that sounded....you've got this!

It's unreal to me how doctors don't tell people not to cold turkey this stuff, when it could cause seizures amongst many other things. Benzos can at least. My friend quit cold turkey when she got pregnant on a decently high dosage of Xanax, which obviously is dangerous to the health of the baby,so it's good she stopped, of course, but she had no clue of the risks of stopping it until I told her. Unreal.

Who could stay awake during a boring 3-hour class besides a tweaker? No one probably. Keep up the hard work, and it sounds like you've calmed down a little bit about it, no?