JustinW

Lunch date with my wife - should split up the day quite nicely!

Youversion keeps me on track

I love your positive attitude as always FW!

Great work everyone, this is helping motivate me with my schoolwork so I can do this one day in the not so distant future.

Where are you ZK? I hope that you are doing well. Update for the day: Holding my nose to get the unpleasant things done so I can hold my head high at the end of the day!

Welcome to the forums positivefuture! It seems that a lot of law students visit this place with a similar story to yours. As you have found out, the recovery process sucks. You keep putting yourself through the worst of it by quitting and starting again. The first 3 months or so are really bad and experiencing that more than once is a real demotivator. Having said all that, there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and the journey through the dark valley is worth is for the prize of not being on that poison. Mike has written / collected some great articles that would be a good place to start to plan a successful quit this go around. Stay close to the forum and post as much as possible. Please consider taking the 30 day challenge so we can cheer you through the process.

Your husband may surprise you in his reaction or maybe not. Just remember that you are missing out on true intamacy when the two of you are not completely honest and vulnerable with each other. This is an ideal and goal that takes effort on both sides to not only tell the truth, but to guard against reacting in a negative way when our spouse is being vulnerable with us. You can take that with a grain of salt as it is just meant to be food for thought. My marriage isn't perfect and we are in couples counseling to work on things in a neutral environment. Anyone who has a negative view on a couple that is willing to devout time to work on their relationship can suck it (I'm a little sensative about this topic because of some judgemental people in my life). The reality is that we are two very imperfect individuals trying to live as one and that will cause problems that need mediation to work through without causing further damage to the relationship. Real marriages take effort and sacrifice from both parties. In the meantime, consider taking the 30 day challenge.

I thought that I was being witty, unfortunately only half so.

Great first post! Welcome to the site as a member. You know what you are up against since you had the experience last summer. Kicking your p-doc to the curb is a good step, but consider seeing a therapist during this time so you have help processing your experiences in appropriate ways and so you can learn new coping mechanisms for stressors and triggers. I hope this means that you have also come clean with your husband so he can support you during this time too. Good luck on your quit and keep us up to date on your progress.

One of the best outcomes from quitting has been that I finally buckled down and started reading my Bible every day; it has been a real blessing through the rough patches. I studied Nehemiah to gain encouragement for rebuilding my life as he rebuilt the walls of Jerusalem. He was a good example for dealing with distractions and being a good manager.

That's called Stockholm syndrome isn't it? Keep up the good work guys! I am impressed...that and $5 will get you a cup of coffee.

I had a moment of paralysis yesterday at Wal-Mart while staring at the many flavors of coffee creamer and trying to find a bottle of carmel macchiato. It took me at least 5 minutes to visually process all of the information, it felt like it wasn't even in English. These moments crush my self esteem and I have a hard time dealing with them. Some days are better than others though. I'm glad to hear that you are making good progress on your quit Lucky and Michael!

Lots of things to do about to break down and cry post here feel better My haiku for the day

Congested, kids are a germ factory let me tell you...

Today's pop music is sooo much worse though, "Everything is Awesome"...Really?

It was Hanson, wasn't it.

Will she be your wingman?

Congratulations on 9 months. I would think it would be a good idea to stick with the anti-d meds until you break a year if not 2. Why make things harder than they need to be?

It takes time to heal but you'll get there.

Welcome to the 30 day challenge, I noticed your day 7 post disappeared; hopefully your day 8 post is here to stay!

Is today going better for you ZK? It's still butt cold here and we're supposed to get another inch of snow this afternoon.

Way to go finishing up 60 days SweetCarolinee! Good luck with the yoga and keep us updated on your progress.

Yesterday was a crappy PAWS day for me too.

If she really wants you to quit, sit down and show her some of the descriptions that people on this site have written about their first weeks / months of recovery. Hopefully she'll understand that there are some concessions that she will have to make to help get you through the rough patches of recovery. It will be tough on both of you but it will be worth it in the end. Good luck!

Windy, but warm weather is just around the corner!