AlwaysAwesome

I just think I need something to motivate me. I don't think this job is necessarily the thing that I need, but you never know until you try. I had the interview and it went really well, but I was my usual outgoing, ADHD self (rambling, overly excited, etc). I am not sure if I will get a call back, but it was nice to get dressed up and waste a day of sick leave...

It really is a shame there isn't a drink we could take and get all of these benefits. I am having a really hard time getting all of my supplement pills down without them getting stuck and making me gag. I am terrified of getting a probiotic pill stuck and burping up bacterial cultures all day...

It is easier to accept the house being messy if you aren't motivated to clean anyway. I am learning how to be cool about things that used to bug the crap out of me.

But, seriously...most of us have tried to quit a ton of times before it took. It does get better, right guys?

I wonder if it is like quitting cigarettes. I have read that after you quit smoking the first time your lungs heal themselves. But, you do more damage to your lungs if you start smoking again. Also, that damage is harder to recover from.

I tell everyone about my past addiction. It keeps me accountable and it gives me an excuse for gaining 40 pounds in the last 9 months. I think people are expecting me to give birth any day now...

Indecisive...I have a job interview tomorrow, but I am thinking of cancelling. My current job is perfect and the only benefit to the new job would be money, and more responsibility. Oh, and an additional 30 minutes to my commute. When I type it out, it makes me really want to cancel. Is this just my lack of motivation? Thoughts?

So real...

I am still tired sometimes, but mostly I don't have a lot of motivation. It is a mental thing. I can't get terribly excited about anything. Especially not exercising or cleaning my bathroom. LOL.

We were all like hobbits in the beginning...just go with it.

I just counted on my fingers and I am at 9 months and 1 week clean! Wow...I didn't even notice the time ticking away. Probably because I was too lazy to glance at a calendar...LOL! I feel pretty much the same way that you described, but I have found that if it is something really important I can force myself to do it. I almost ran out of gas because I just wanted to go home and didn't stop. Stupid, but still better than Adderall addiction.

So, I was overly sensitive on Adderall. But, I was usually so busy doing some BS task that I didn't notice. Unless someone interrupted my crazy cleaning spree, or organizing a drawer, then I didn't really care what went on around me. Now, I am finding myself annoyed by people and the stupid shit that they do. REALLY, people?!? There...I feel a little better. I just wish people would do their jobs and quit being so F*cking annoying! Have a nice day!

Congratulations!! You can do it!

You are going through exactly the same thing we have all experienced. It SEEMS like a great idea...to go back to it...just for a day or two...maybe a few weeks to lose the weight...then I can't stop because of insert whatever crazy justification to stay addicted here. Just don't give in to it. It is a lie, and you know that it is. Remember the bad times, the crazy feelings, and just hang in there. It takes a lot longer than 2 months...sadly. But, it does get better. You can do it!!

I think that is why this forum is so helpful. To go from feeling like you are all alone in the world, to realizing that there are so many who have exactly the same experience with this drug. "Hmm, maybe it isn't me...maybe the drug is making me crazy." It is nice to be able to change "shoes", even if they are the ones we have worn for so long. It can be done!

I noticed that when I quit Adderall, I had a really hard time with colds. Turns out, speed makes it easy to do anything...including get through the day with a cold. Those were hard times. Hope you feel better soon!

I never saw spiders, but flying bugs were always popping up in my peripheral vision. Like gnats or something. Soooooo glad that is over!

Here is your push...JUST STOP!! LOL, and tell everyone. Including your doctor, your family, friends...everyone. You can't be the only one who knows that you had a problem and quit. Otherwise, you will be the only one who knows if you go back to the Adderall. You can't deal with a problem if you don't admit (openly to everyone) that you have a problem. You need to have some external accountability. If we could stick to our guns and be accountable to ourselves to make good decisions, then none of us would have had trouble quitting Adderall. Also, we would all be super fit! Good luck and just do it!!

WOW! You must still be on Adderall to be able to focus that long on a post. LOL, I hope that we can help you find what you are looking for. It sounds like you are heading in the right direction. Do you need a push? Welcome.

Losing (weight! )

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Hang in there! It does get better...every day.

Just reading and commenting on a newbie's post may be the difference between him/her staying on the forum, and clean, or leaving and relapsing. Everyone can help!!

Welcome to the group!