AlwaysAwesome

Monster energy drinks have saved my life! Work up to it, though...if you aren't used to that much caffeine, it can make you really jittery.

I am grateful for friends, family, safety, sobriety, warm weather, good shoes, Monster energy drinks, and a job which allows me to be a slug most times. YAY!

Excel...NOOOOO!!!

Have you been on Adderall the whole time you were married? It may be worth a shot to quit before making any crazy changes. If that is possible. My "heart" was not functioning properly while I was on Adderall. Some of the cruel, heartless things that I did/said make me cringe, now that I am clear headed.

I am a cold turkey quitter. Quit smoking and Adderall that way. It is the only way for me. You can't have access to the pills, though. Very important not to have a road back to the addiction.

I wouldn't doubt It. My headaches were so bad, but I justified it and wrote them off. I knew it was caused by the Adderall...terrible times.

Why are you feeling hopeless? You will never feel normal again unless you quit the pills. At least if you quit, you will eventually feel like yourself again! I was like you, it was the "Matrix" red pill or blue pill moment. Get a higher dose prescription, or quit. I chose to quit over 10 months ago. I feel great! I am still tired sometimes and I drink WAY too much caffeine (I love MONSTER!!!), but I am myself again. Emotionally, I felt back to normal within the first month or so. It is the physical part that is so hard. I spent almost 6 years jacked up on speed and my metabolism is shot. It is getting better, and I have lost 10 pounds and kept it off for the last month or so. I still have 30 pounds hanging on, but I am having a hard time being consistent with my exercising. I am getting more active every week. I planted some flowers on Saturday with the kids...and you know what...it doesn't have to be perfect. Join us and find yourself again. You don't need that crap to get through the day.

You really aren't a slave, btw. You can leave it. You are making yourself an indentured servant. Let it go...it is possible. It is hard and you will be junk for a while. But you will find yourself again, I promise. Tell everyone you know that you have a problem and you are going to quit. Get rid of the pills and the source...It is so liberating to not wonder what you are going to do when the prescription runs out! Because the prescription is not there anymore. It is not an option. Get plenty of snacks and fluff your pillow. Rest and let your body recover. Take walks, if you feel like it, or take naps (more likely). You can do this. Come back to this site as many times a day you feel like you need encouragement.

You have come to the right place. We have all been where you are right now. Read the articles and posts and know you are among friends! You have to stop letting it control you...just quit. You can do it!

I have tried to get several higher level positions lately. I can't imagine why I haven't gotten any call backs. Unless...I ruined quite a few working relationships and references may be a problem. Not because of my work history, but because of how vindictive and cruel people can be when pissed off. I am just going to assume that God is at work and I need to be in this boring ass job right now. It is not for me to question, it is only for me to do...

SUNSHINE!!!

Caffeinated

Well said! You are an inspiration!

You should post annoying text message ring tone rants on my previous thread "People are really pissing me off". I think it qualifies. LOL

Occasional01, am I reading this correctly? You started running at around 12 months clean? I am just starting to mostly want to exercise, sort of... Sometimes... Is there hope that within the next couple of months I will actually start really getting motivated?

Satisfied

Hungry

Welcome! Great job and keep it up.

So many PROS!!!

When I was running on Adderall, my heart rate would get up to 180 bpm. I am really surprised that my heart didn't explode... Quit. You are strong enough to handle anything that follows.

Frustrated (with the resigned) In the USA, we are a bunch of frogs in a pot...they are slowly boiling us alive and most people don't want to jump out of the pot. Those of us who are pointing out that the water is getting hot are called extremists and domestic terrorists...Maybe Canada isn't so bad. At least they have had many years to get their system's bugs worked out.

Poor Mango. I love orange tabbies! I wanted to get my Mr. Beans a lion cut last summer. My husband said no, because all of the neighborhood cats would make fun of him. Extra love and treats for the patient.

We all have similar stories. Read some of the posts and articles. You are in good company! So, to answer your question...No, I didn't feel like I could exercise without my Adderall. I have recently (after almost 10 months clean) started exercising again. I really believe your body has to heal and rest from the hell you have put it through with the Adderall. It is sooooo unhealthy! If you care at all about your body and mind, then you have to quit the pills and find yourself again. It becomes such a fantastic crutch, but it doesn't work forever. Eventually, you have to face the things that made you turn to it in the first place. Why not now? Let it go... Welcome to the forum! I hope that you find what you are looking for.

It is on the home page under recent articles. Do you see them? Over and over and over...

I went for a walk yesterday, and I will do it again. Also, I will do day 4 of my "21 day fix" tonight. The sore is starting to feel better.