JustinW Posted February 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 17, 2014 Thanks Justin. My new life is pretty cool its a lot more Springsteen and Beatles and a lot less Kayne and Dubstep. I'm making ends meet as a freelancer running my own business and I'm doing some really great work. Check out this site I've been working on http://goo.gl/0EUEAf . I am doing some of the best work I've done in years, I'm launching new sites working my ass off and loving the struggle. I just get stuck on what once was when I should focus on what could be. I have to remind myself that I am talented even when my stupid form code isn't working. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
quit-once Posted February 17, 2014 Report Share Posted February 17, 2014 ZK, Working through some of those emotions ia a big part of the recovery process, a necessary part of letting go of the past and embracing your future without addiction. Might help to make a list of those emotions when they come up, who you were with, what your doing and how you dealt with them. You tackled a bunch of them in that short post, all the way back to why and how you started using in the first place. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
quit-once Posted February 17, 2014 Report Share Posted February 17, 2014 "pimp your garage" lol, ZK, lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted February 17, 2014 Report Share Posted February 17, 2014 Zerokewl, It's tough running into old using "buddies"/ drug dealers. It represents a whole different life we once lived....a person we no longer know. That's how it was for me. When it happened to me a year ago or so, I HATED that I was jealous she was tweaking (I grew to truly dislike this girl anyway), but at the time it was my natural response of a recovering adderall addict. When I took more time to reflect on the situation, I realized how glad I was I was no longer in that life. I agree that working through these emotions is a huge part of the recovery process. You'll learn a lot about your recovery and yourself. This is a good place to vent for sure!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 17, 2014 Report Share Posted February 17, 2014 Thanks Ashley, Justin, QuitOnce. Something Ocassional said about adapting to a new normal really rings true. Sorry for overloading 'One Word Status' i feel I don't want any of the noobs to read late recovery struggles. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 18, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 Gibbs Quadski...Clarkson as Bond, what fun! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted February 18, 2014 Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 Yeah ZK, that's tough. Working through those old relationships is pretty complicated and triggery. I got an accidental text from a former adderall buddy that said, "Hope the alcohol wears off before the adderall kicks in! Happy Friday!" I was furious. And made that much clear and asked that the person never text me about adderall again, because I quit and it's a struggle every day. But to be honest, it was mostly jealousy. I was extremely jealous of this person's "new" adderall buddy. And I was SO JEALOUS that I was/am no longer the person who could be partying by night, taking adderall by day. In the end, I was jealous over NOTHING. It helps to remember that we are better off now no matter what. I DO NOT WANT to be filling my body with toxic poisons constantly, alcohol by night adderall by day. And anyways, this same friend also said she wished she knew me better now that I'm clean. Because I AM better now. And so are you ZK, and so are we all. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted February 18, 2014 Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 One word status update: BRAIN FOG. Trigger trigger trigger. :/ Edit: full on paws Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 19, 2014 Blessed Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 19, 2014 Shortest PAWS episode ever this morning - about 30 minutes. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted February 19, 2014 Report Share Posted February 19, 2014 NEW DAY!!!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 20, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 Calm before the storm Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 20, 2014 Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 Shortest PAWS episode ever this morning - about 30 minutes. Thats interesting did you manage to pull out if it by recognizing it and changing state? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Thats interesting did you manage to pull out if it by recognizing it and changing state?I'd like to think so, but I'm not sure that I can take that much credit for it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Achmed Saves America comes out on DVD on March 18!!! Wait for it... ...Silence I keeel you! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Totally underestimated the snow fall, I expected 4" - 6" but when I opened the garage it was 14" - 16". They are predicting 2' - 3' drifts to develop on the roads overnight. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 I am so over winter. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 binge watching House of Cards... damn you netflix Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
quit-once Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 I am so over winter. HOW on earth can a Canadian (or even a Minnesotan) ever get over the winter? In Wyoming, we have only two seasons: winter and August. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Because its been a long brutal stupid winter. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 pretty spectacular spin out in my car this morning so glad I'm ok and my car is ok. adrenaline! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 24, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 24, 2014 I get to go to the airport today so I can...shovel snow, maybe some flying after that Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 all night long 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 New Friend, I get to meet new and interesting people through my blog, some are from various ends of the earth. Stan from the UK is my most recent contact and it is fun to hear about his new project and hopefully I can provide some helpful insight. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted February 26, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 Windy, but warm weather is just around the corner! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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