fkadderall

yea adderall creates anxieties.The anxiety should go away the more you abstain from amphetamines. stimulants in general (cocaine, amphetamine, caffeine) increase anxiety. I now have anxieties which didn't exist prior to using adderalls.. The brain keeps healing.

I feel like the drug induces bipolar depression Idk what to say. I guess I'm recovering.

I'm 18 years old too , ur not alone. I Started experimenting with light doses at the age of 16. By the time I turned 17, I started taking 60-80 a day. All of us on this site have experienced that adderall zombie state. I went through awful withdrawals too.

on the first week of my senior year (september 2014) we were assigned to write an essay about our favorite word. i chose the word" hope". For me to actually chose the word "hope", i should have experienced hope in many ways. i don't even know if i truly understood what hope meant then. fast forward to the end of school year (may 2015), i'm hopeless, addicted and depressed as shit. the drug changes the brain's pleasure system. i think i became anhedonic. i'm friends with a recovering meth addict who has been sober for more than 20 years. she was also doing heroin for 20+ years and did methamphetamine for 2 years. her experience with meth turned her anhedonic for a while but she told me that she has completely recovered. she doesn't have any long term damage. adderall changed me but i'm sure it's not permanent. i feel like my thoughts are void.. i tend to stare at something for like minutes not realizing that i'm spacing out. the beginning of my senior year, i didn't have any problems with my emotions. now i feel like i hate what i've done to my mind. ps im almost 6 months sober in 2 days.

Addiction is a bitch. Adderall is meth's kid. It's incredibly difficult to quit adderall. I feel you. I couldn't stop during adderal on a school day so the best time to quit was during summer break. No addicts can use a drug without abusing it. I still have thoughts about popping adderall but taking another pill won't help. Join NA or AA. Adderall will hold you back. It makes you feel alive for a couple of hours / a day then you will feel dead.i believe in you bro. You were sober for how long, 8-10 months? I know you desperately want to stop. You can quit. Read the motivation post that Cassie made. Binge on caffeine instead of adderall. Take a couple of downers during a comedown.

Does anyone have vision problems from adderall?

congrats on 18 months clean. When ur an addict, pill popping becomes a familiar daily routine and you don't see the problem. Ur boss is a douche. He doesn't even know how difficult it is for someone to stop a medication then restart life from the bottom. Ur strong alot of addicts will find excuses to pick up the drug again. Congrats on staying off adderall for life.

FUck that douchebag.

Were you depressed before using adderall? I think adderall binges changed my brains neurotransmitters and I feel unable to focus,I feel anhedonic. I hope that I really feel normal. If the drug makes u unable to feel emotions, then definitely stop. I quit 175 days ago but I still feel disconnected 50% of the time. Is there anyone on this forum who became depressed from adderall but not biologically then recovered and feel really happy after stopping? I didn't use adderall BC I was depressed nor because I didn't have energy but I used it BC I was a huge idiot who only wanted to feel rewarded. Good job on being 3 years sober!

Awesome! Good job. This gives me hope. That first high was the best high and everyone chased after it. Then adderall consumed me, I didn't consume it anymore. It was such an evil drug. Everyone knows this. I'm a little bit over 170 days soober and I don't want to ever use it again. 3/4 of 2014 was cool. The remaining ¼ sucked. Then half of 2015 was spent on sleep deprivation and lifeless activities. U become too focused on not living life. All the crap that I did while wired on adderall were very insignificant. I can finally sleep. I can finally eat. The weight gain is normal. 2016 is gonna be good. The most important thing is to tell someone about the addiction. Most people can't stay sober alone.

weekly withdrawals suck balls. they really do. it took me a while to figure out that adderall was killing me. drugs are stupid and mean. they fuck with your reality. and then you blame yourself over dumb decisions. Now, you might take a pill each time you're stressed out. the reason why you're stressed out in the first place is due to pills. that jittery feeling is annoying as fuck. not being able to sleep like a normal human is awful for your mind and body. relying on a pill for energy is so unhealthy, id rather be overweight. when you're skinny as shit and lifeless you don't have anything to gain from using pills. and fuck, most of us in this site weren't drug addict before we started using adderall. what will your life be like 3 years from now if you're stuck in that same cycle. don't get stuck. it's 100% possible to quit. yes, it turned me into a retarded zombie. constantly spaced out.

i'm just 18. good thing i quit early. ur 20, we're both young so lets fuckin do this together.i didn't tell anyone either. it was almost impossible to quit adderall. after shitloads of change in personalities, i realized it wasn't worth it. do you have a winter break? i think the best way to quit adderall is during long breaks. relapsing is very easy while abstaining is difficult. i have relapsed more than i can count. And with low self control, the best way to avoid taking another pill is by flushing your remaining 30 pills down the toilet. I still think of the rush even months after stopping. also, downers work during comedowns but they're very addictive.

Ur an inspiration to anyone who is dealing with addiction. See, most people don't want to face their problems so they take one pill for a quick fix. But ur strong and you want to continue to fight temptation. That's how you beat addiction. When everything is falling down but you keep fighting. We all have a very difficult life ahead of us. Fighting the urge to take a pill is a big battle. Each time you reject adderall, you make a small victory. So although in almost 150 days clean, I can't say that I don't live without addiction. I still binge on caffeine which is probably 100x safer than adderall. My first semester of college is almost over. I'll try to kick the caffeine ha but before my second semester begins.

If you haven't overdosed then died, you still have a chance to live life

but you can't use it occasionally either. it numbs the shit out of your emotions. If i were an huge heroin addict, i wouldn't use it once every 6 month and call myself "cleaned up". just get rid of the feeling of uppers. if i were forced to whether use coke or adderall, id chose coke. not that i would ever use coke. i didn't stop until i felt extremly shity. i'm a couple of months clean and it might take a while to feel rewarded without amphetamine dependency. I wanted to quit a year ago but i only managed to kick my addiction during july. save your time and don't use it again

what do you gain when you end up feeling shitty from it?

you should kindly ask adderall to fuck off. it's addictive as hell. you aren't alone. everyone can be addicted to it. you didn't purposely want this life style. it's the drug. it's not you who has problems. it's the drug that creates problems. so when it helps for a day, it will make you go through a 5 day withdrawal. and i honestly hate adderall as much as you do. you have to learn to hate it. you haveto treat it worse than ebola and aids. because someone right now is dying from ebola. someone is dying from a car crash. there isn't a reason why you should live life feeling disabled by a drug. don't waste a lifetime doing that junk shit. im trying to persuade you to quit for good. please, don't take one tomorrow. don't let yourself down. you are important in this world. you probably know by now that adderall is fake happiness.

hey! first step to quitting pills is realizing that you have a problem. GOOD JOB!!! i truly understand what you're going through. they are really innocent looking pills aren't they? you have to treat adderall like meth. the more you take, the more you won't solve anything. the crash sucks balls. if those pills didn't cause any bad side effects, you know id probably use it everyday. those pharmaceutical companies make us believe that pharma stuff are safer than street drugs. I know you want to stop. you can live life without drugs. it's not easy to live life without it but it's definitely possible. And you know that your boyfriend hates it when you use his pills. I'm going to make it clear. when i was wired 24/7 on adderall, i thought that the productivity that i got from it made me successful. WRONG!!! they just turned me into a very DEPRESSED DRUG ADDICT. 5 years will feel like a second. don't wait another year to stop while you can stop at this very second.

Were in this together. If it wasn't for this site, I'd probably still be abusing adderall. We know what adderall feels like so it will be harder for us to defeat temptation.

there are AA and NA meetings.i haven't gone to any of the two. I'm actually not tired anymore. I don't feel sleepy 24/7. I have a good sleep cycle now and I can stay up til 2 am without feeling tired when waking up at 7:30. My mood has improved. My focus is still not sharp. I think if I stop coffee from now on, I will recover at a faster rate. Sober from anything works best. So if anyone is coming down off stimulants, benzodiazepines work but using it 24/7 to treat anxiety might make recovery a slower process. Yeah caffeine becomes kinda gross. My palms sweat and my body gets cold from it

2015 was a horrible year. My adderall binges caught up with me and it left me depressed and lifeless for many months. The summer of 2014 was the beginning of a dark chapter. It was that month when my senior year of high school began and I was jonesing for adderall. That summer was not too exciting. I went to the pool one time and I was just using 30mg of adderall and red bull together. It produced a nice buzz and that was a pretty addictive combination. I was playing my guitar while I was so wired on adderall and caffeine. School began and my head was hazy during September 2k14. I thought it was the energy drinks that made me head cloudy. I didn't have intense amphetamine withdrawal so I popped more pills. November 24 2k14 was when I first wanted to stop. I just felt tired in class but I didn't see a reason to stop adderall. Xmas was boring. My new years resolution failed after the 5th day of the new year. I finally stopped around July 14th and IV been sober ever since tat date. I'm still using caffeine to lift me up a little. I wasted a year on that garbage drug and I missed out on life. Caffeine is not close to any adderall buzz but It does something. My new goal is to completely stop caffeine. I drink alot of energy drinks and I know that I can't be good for my kidney. To all adderall addicts, you will defeat addiction. I'm very aware about dependence on amphetamine and its a very evil drug. Heroin might actually kill you but adderall might turn you psychotic. You have one life. Don't live life to pop adderall. It might be the only thing that gets you feel good. I didn't go to rehab but I think its a good option.

Whatever happens, don't take xanax. Don't switch from pills to pills.

I'm 4 months without adderall. Things have changed abit. I'm no longer dependant. However, I have weird though patterns. I hate that I didn't quit earlier. My energy level has increased abit. Also, I can't focus at all or get much done. I'm not planning to be back on adderall. ADDERALL, FUCK YOU!

Thanks. This is probably going to be 95% more tolerable than the adderall withdrawal. IV already won more than half the battle.