Searchingsoul9

Yes. I am more angry than sad. I get really grumpy and frustrated, like a little kid throwing a tantrum. It's either i feel good or i feel pissed off at the world. Especially since having this cold the past week. I am constantly pissy

Hm. Well just proves how far my head was up my ass. I knew fully well all the dangers of adderall, and the similarities to meth.

Sure. And oxycontin is a healthy alternative to heroin. Doesn't make it a 'good' choice

When is school over? I quit the beginning of my second semester. I have been doing the bare minimum, but i still get good grades. Adderall doesn't give you intelligence or smarts, so you can still preform well without it. Yes, you will be in an emotional funk and will be sleepy for the first week, but it's not like you will be brain dead. You are probably more brain dead now, with the adderall, you just don't realize it. Have faith. It's a rough road, but it is worth it.

Gr. Pisses me off that the person says, "take adderall instead of meth."

Sorry you are feeling so low! I watched this documentary on netflix about how sugar is basically the food version of cocaine. Refined, unhealthy, lowers mood. We all know this, but the past 3 days i have been on a health kick. And i swear i get so much more energy from healthy foods. And i am not starving all the time. I think improving your diet will prove to be very beneficial. Just load up on whole grains, fruits, veggies, hummus is wonderful, soup, whatever you enjoy eating...so long as it is not over processed and full of sugar and chemicals. Diet coke being one of them. I know, HORRIBLE. We all know aspartame is a carcinogen, and i have LIVED off of diet coke for my entire life. I gave it up (maybe will indulge once a month) 3 days ago. Sticking to water, tea, and a cup of coffee...feels good. Supposedly aspartame kills brain cells. You get a quick little buzz,then poof...bye bye brain cells. Not trying to rain on your parade, just sharing the knowledge. Also, like others have said...when you feel like doing nothing, it is best to push yourself to do SOMETHING. It's too easy to get stuck in a rut. Good luck girly<333

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU NEVER CEASE TO AMAZE ME. GREAT JOB GORGEOUS.

It's odd. I try my hardest not to think about it period. I rarely allow my mind to go back to reminiscing, because then i crave it. But the warm air and changing of seasons really brings me back, lol. I appreciate the response I hope i can get to the point you are at <3

My mom made kale chips before, but i didn't try them. I will give it a shot

Yummie, i love smoothies. It is just very overwhelming to think about this summer without adderall. Last summer wa s' the summer of my life' i was on adderall 24/7, working all day and night, going out drinking and doing it all over.I felt superhuman, now i am back to being human. I know that going back on the pills wouldn't be like last summer though. Our time has eneded

Yum, i wanna try that one! My only issue is the stupid kale doesn't juice well, like most of it stays whole. So, i need some green veggies to throw in there, but idk what juices well.Yeah, i couldn't do just juice. I think i would've caved and eaten junk food if i just had juice for 3 days.

Thank you!! I guess the title does sound like a relapse one. I think it has been like 3 weeks and 5 days sober so far.Seems like so much longer. I couldn't do solely juice. I started getting real hungry and was dieing to chew food, so i had eggs and salad. But i am trying to steer clear from junk food and just eat healthy. Since it is getting warmer i'm going to wake up early and walk like 4 days a week. It's just been super tough lately because this time last year was when i first got on adderall. So the weather, the month, everything is just a huge reminder of my pill popping days. Does it get even better after like 3 or 4 months clean? I feel okay, but the ups and downs are still very prevalent.

Hm, sounds like a sugar high induced adderall dream. I get those a lot. Did last night after eating enough sugar to kill a large horse.Yeah, snorting adderall never did me well. So did this dream bother you?

Yesterday was a tough one. Visited a lot of places that i haven't been to since i was on adderall. One being my old pharmacy. It was tough and i went back and forth thinking about using all day. Today i am a little bit better. Doing a raw food juice cleanse for 3 days to detox all this crappy junk food i have had this weekend. Hopefully that'll help me see things a little clearer. Probably way too early to swear by juicing, but i juiced carrots, kale, and 2 apples for breakfast. First off, tasted amazing. Second, i have more energy than i have any other morning and i skipped my coffee. Granted, i haven't been eating vegetables or getting the nutrients i need my whole life.

I know what you mean. It is hard to find an interest. Even harder finding the motivation to try new things. I miss that feeling too, but on adderall it wasn't genuine. <3

Nope. I am on nothing.But lucky for me i just bawled my eyes out for 10 minutes. Then took nyquil. Now i am ready to go into a sleep coma and feel decent. xox

Lastnight i was slightly ...very drunk. Sometimes when i drink i get super depressed and sad. Well, i felt sad and wanted to cry, but it was like this fake, forced cry. No tears. Then i just got mad and stopped trying. Again tonight. This time i am sober though. I haven't been able to cry since quitting. Maybe a couple tears, but that's it. Crying makes me feel better and now i have no way to release my sadness, WTF.

Oh, hell yes. It is. Since food is a normal everyday occurrence. It's a huge daily battle, but it is possible.

Yeah, exactly. Before the adderall i was in a rut with no purpose and it was hard enough getting by without fighting the adderall addiction, so i am blessed to have some path to walk down now, or i don't know i could keep going.So yes, it's a really good idea to set goals of any kind to look forward to

You will be okay, promise. Do you have a job or school? Do you have something you are excited about as a career?I think that is the key to the happiness. Doing what you love. So focus on that and focus on doing hobbies you love

Super inspirational. So far i have come to realize that when i eat strictly healthy foods, i don't crave the sugar and junk for the most part. No brainer, right? Took me long enough!!

stupid pos.t

I agree. I did enjoy it on adderall, but i would get distracted on organizing one little spot on my desk for an hour or some stupid shithaha xox

AW<3 No, YOU ARE xoox

Thanks! I feel MUCH better. So much less overwhelmed and clear headed