Thanks for replying. It is helpful to know I’m not alone! Unfortunately, I have a busy work schedule today and tomorrow. I’m going out of town on Friday to visit my oldest friend. He likes to chill and go out to eat, so that will be helpful, lol.
I first started using Adderall in early 2013. A friend had given me some to try. At the time I was taking Seroquel for anxiety. My doc ended up adding Adderall to my prescriptions because the Seroquel left me feeling lethargic and unmotivated. My highest prescribed dose was 35mg/day, but I started taking an extra half here and there and occasionally supplementing with extras I bought from my friend to make it to the end of the month. A couple of years ago I quit the Seroquel and tried to taper down on the Adderall. My friend said she wasn’t going to give me any anymore. My doc lowered my scripts a couple of times and when I quit they were down to 20-30mg/day, but I always took extra several times a week. I used to sleep like a baby, but with Adderall in my life, I felt fried all the time and was vacillating between trying to compensate for poor sleep during the day and smoking pot and drinking wine and taking different sleep aids at night, so most of the time I felt like shit. I knew why, but didn’t want to admit it. Adderall made it easy to avoid feelings of inadequacy in the early days, but eventually it increased my feelings of inadequacy, and I found myself reaching for it when I felt inadequate or feared a situation my make me feel inadequate-it became a vicious cycle.