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D26 Oh yea!

Had a few beers last night and got a sudden urge to take adderall. It didn't last very long but it still made me feel anxious. Drinking definitely triggered something so I have to be mindful of this. I'm glad I got rid of them and I'm glad I have a good support system in place to help me overcome this. I'm feeling much better today. Got up early to run errands and have been relatively productive so far. All is well.

D24 Still going strong. Have a Good weekend!

P.S how are you FW? What day are u on now?

D22... Welcome llWilson...I'm glad you joined the challenge! this was such a good idea FW! I'm gonna start the 60day Challenge when I'm done

Yes we are now officially sober sisters! Just so everyone knows, llwilson and I sent each other vids of one another flushing the junk away. We're in it to win it! Thank you everyone for being so caring and supportive. P.s: today was better than yesterday. I think it was the maté tea!

Thanks Jon

Yes, I am just trying to breathe through one task at a time. I still feel like kicking and screaming though lol

I am really happy I got rid of the rest of my pills this morning (I flushed, sorry fishies!) because its days like this that I would relapse. I am incredibly distracted today!…I’ve started everything on my to-do list but haven’t completed a thing. THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!

Oh I am! lol

I couldn't agree more MFA...this girl (LILTEX) has been my saving grace during these last couple of weeks! ALL of you have been incredibly helpful. I am so grateful to have found this website!

thanks

Thanks guys! Happy 9th day FW... I think this is D20 for me Feeling good! Constantly hungry and a little sleepy but I guess this just means I'm human lol

and that she did! I even saw the video to prove it!!! <3

Wow that's will power. I'm not gonna get rid of them just yet, but I did tell my fiancé where they are and how many are left. He knows that I'm serious about quitting so I gave him permission to check the bottle whenever he wants...although I'm pretty sure he won't. Anyway, thanks for your responses. I needed a little validation on this

Is this the "correct" way to dispose of control substances? If so, its a good idea. My best friend is on vaca until next week; she knows about my little issue so I'm sure she would be happy to do this with me. But i still feel like something is holding me back. Although i honestly feel no desire to take them, it's somewhat comforting to know that they are there.

that is a little bit of a non answer but I'll take it lol. How long did you keep them for?

So it's Day 19 for me and I have been all over the place in terms of my mood, energy level, eating habits, sleep patterns etc. But something in my heart tells me that this is it for me...this will be the last and final time I quit. I'm walking down the aisle in 4mths and I refuse to be high on the most important day of my life or the rest of my life for that matter. Anyway, I still have a few pills left and I know this could be dangerous but something about knowing I have them and not taking them makes me feel empowered. I could just be setting myself up for failure by holding on to them but I can't bring myself to throw them away, not because I want them, but because It's my way of proving to myself that I have control over adderall versus it having control over me. Has anyone else held on to their pills for this or any other reason?

That was a very kind and honest response MFA

lol

Hey, I'm really sorry your not feeling well. I always have a hard time sleeping and I often wake up in the middle of the night with a lot of anxiety, so I can relate to what you're saying. But I'm wondering if this has a lot to do with the withdrawal effects as well. Try getting out of the house. Go for a walk, have lunch, go to Barnes and nobles like you had planned to. But please don't use because you know you'll hate yourself for it afterwards. I'm not having a great day myself. Just had the most ridiculous and out of control argument with my fiancé over something incredibly stupid. I played a major part in the whole thing so I feel like shit now. I can't deny that the thought of taking a pill hasn't crossed my mind. But I know all of this is temporary and not worth me using again so I'm being strong. Take a deep breathe and remember you're not alone. We're challenge buddies now and we are gonna get through this! Happy 7 day

Hey Freedom, I’m doing alright. It’s weird because I’m starting to feel like the old me again which is kinda nice. Planning to stay busy this weekend, do a little laundry, maybe take a yoga class, and definitely get some rest. What about you?

Thanks for your comments Ladies. I think I'm feeling a little better today actually. Although I went to bed with a pounding headache which is still kinda lingering today. Anyway, I’m gonna stay on this dose for a little bit and see how it goes.

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Thanks 1Bad!