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Not bad parenting at all. It's nice to treat your kids out as long as it's in moderation. I'm sure you're not pulling into a drive thru restaurant everyday...right? lol

Thank you all for your responses. I occasionally have these episodes of binge eating which can last anywhere Btwn a few hours to an entire week. I hit my breaking point when I posted this a few days ago but I'm feeling better now. I went shopping for healthy foods this weekend and hit up the gym which I have been paying for for the last two years and not using. Adderall was great in the sense that I could starve for a couple of weeks then stop taking it and eat like a pig without gaining a significant amount of weight. Now that I'm off, I need to learn how to eat better on a consistent basis. I swear It's like a par time job! Anyway, thank you all for your support. It's crazy how alike some of us are to one another. You guys are my rock!

Hey Everyone, Checking in at D57 today, just 3 days away from completing the 60 day challenge! Holy shit where does time go? Last few days have been quite busy for me hence my lack of participation on here. However I'm happy to report that after a week of binging and eating like shit, I've managed to pull it together and go to the gym three days in a row. It has felt great to start working out again but I am really sore today! Anyway, even when I'm not posting much (my adhd makes it so hard for me to write stuff) I am still on here frequently. I love my little challenge family...all you guys keep me going. Keep up the good work everyone! LX

I truly admire your courage and can relate to everything you just said. Stay strong I'll be right behind you

Great tips. I needed to hear that. Im gonna go to a farmers market tomorrow and stock up on good stuff. It's not like I don't know how to eat healthy, it's just that when I feel like pigging out all I can think about are salty cheesy/carby bad foods.

I can't stop! Fucking addictions and eating disorders just go hand in hand.

So glad to hear you are doing well! don't mean to discourage you but in my own experience I've had a few great days followed by a few shitty ones. I honestly start believing that I was never addicted or that I'm completely better and then...BAM! it hits me out of nowhere. Just keep this in mind so that if it happens you you'll know it's just part of the process of healing

Welcome Kev, I love that you've already prepared yourself for what's to come. I'm sure your body really needs the rest. We are all here for you so be sure to check in at least once a day (or as often as you need to) to let us know how you're doing. Good luck...you can do this! -LX

This made me laugh...uptight snobhole sums it up lol

Ugh don't even get me started on the weight gain. I have been eating so much and it's starting to show. I ate like shit while I was away and now I just feel this disgusting bloated feeling in my stomach. Gonna try and get some exercise in this weekend. I have a wedding dress to fit into!

SS let us know you're ok...we are like worried parents on here!

Hey guys, D51, I survived a 5day conference with no adderall. In past years I would take so much of it to get through these conferences. But I have to say I really enjoyed socializing as myself and not the unpredictable character that I was not too long ago. Glad to see everyone is doing good!

Holy shit...Day 50! Sorry I haven't posted much...I've been away a few days and haven't had any time to sign on. Keep it up FW! And a big shout out to my friend LLWilson on her 30 days!!!!!! I knew you could do this!

Such a great post

I think this is D46 for me. Had a pretty productive trip day today. I packed for a trip (hate packing) and it only took 8hrs lol Thanks for starting this up FW...let's do this!

How'd they find out?

How'd the rest of your day go?

Thanks

I wouldnt refer to it as relief in any way. I actually think I was subconsciously trying to poison myself. Getting drunk and binging on adderall ALWAYS ended nasty. It nearly destroyed my relationship.

I really commend you for that.

Thank you Cat. Things have been crazy but I'm actually enjoying the planning and all of the chaos that comes with it because for the first time in a long time, I AM PRESENT! This quitting shit is so hard but I am so happy I didn't wait until after my wedding to do this.

Wow that's big, how old is your kid if you don't mind me asking?

Last night I took a big step in my recovery and decided to tell my mother about my adderall addiction. We have always been very close but our relationship has been really rocky during the last few years, mainly due to my erratic and out of control behavior on adderall. Just thinking about this makes me feel really sad and guilty. Much to my surprise my mom was well aware of the fact that I was "on something" (there's no fooling a good mother). I appreciate the fact that she nor anyone else confronted me about it but part of me wishes someone had. Especial during the times where my addiction was most obvious, i.e losing 30lbs, drinking every night, never sleeping, etc. In any case I feel relieved because I have now told the three most important people in my life that I have been struggling with this drug and each of them has been incredibly gentle and supportive about the whole thing. Trying to quit alone is not impossible but I know that having them, as well as all of you to keep me going will be incredibly helpful to me in this process. Anyway, I just wanted to share this and encourage anyone who hasn't told someone about their addiction to do so soon because keeping this a secret is incredibly painful and makes it so much much more likely to relapse. LX

You have a lot of support on here! As everyone says “STAY CLOSEâ€â€¦..you can beat this monster!

Welcome SearchingSoul...can we call you SS? Today will be over before you know, don't forget to breathe!