Kyle_Chaos

Had to say it, sorry.

Every day is "meh.." Life just sucks, I'm ready for summer.

From whale to dike... quite the transformation.

I wait months and months, and there's been a little change but nothing TOO noticeable. It's IRRITATING.. There's also the psychological aspect of comparing a brain functioning at normal speed to one ON speed. It makes you think you're slow all the time even if you aren't.

is taking forever..and I'm impatient. I'm not half as creative as I used to be, I'm a bland robot now that lacks the ability to enjoy anything unless I run a few miles beforehand.

Dr. Oz is the best, I look forward to seeing this.

True, despite my complete apathy about life.. I will still be excited to be out of the military and happy not to be locked in a room with brain-dead meatheads for ten hours a day.

I believe you're correct.

I hated my job in fuels. I don't know what I will do, nothing interests me.

That sounds great! I messaged you.

I appreciate that, you're a good judge of character. I'm in fuels..nothing secretive about it.

I had to sell my Itouch, running with no music is absolutely terrible.

I asked google. I have no desire to hear other people talk about "Adderall abuse." It just makes me want to abuse it.

I lack the skill set for that.. I'll start practicing saying "Would you like to supersize that?"

Who's Katie Couric?

I know it, deviantart.com has the best photos. It's going to be quite the transition.. the military has been my source of FREE adderall..so it's probably a good thing.

May 30th, The career field I'm in is a complete joke.. I hate the Chair Force. I'm excited to get out..I think it's going to be an adventure.

Yes, I'm actually quite happy about it. I hate the military. It's an honorable discharge, the Military is cutting 10,000 people to save some money..I'm one of the 10,000.

I'm being "rolled back" come May 30th.. I have no idea what I'm going to do in the real world...

I would go through 90 30 MG XR's in about a month.. I would wait until I got my refill, and I would repeat the process. This went on for about two years. I've been clean since December 10th, that was when I relapsed..before that I hadn't taken it since September.

Oh, yeah, I've been clean since December 10th..that was when I relapsed. Before that I had not taken it since September.

Wellbutrin only sent me into rage when I would drink on it.. I haven't taken Wellbutrin in about a month.

I'm definitely scared of it now, and even though I'm tempted..there's a part of me that's growing to not want to take it. The part of me that appreciates the small things and knows how to relax

It's strange that we've all become addicted enough to a pill that we have to wait months upon months to return to our normal selves. It's insane to me that a pill exists that immerses you so deeply in a different reality that you forget who the real you is/was. I remember in the past when I first went on my first one night Adderall binge, it took me three weeks to start to feel "witty" and like "myself" again. I'm starting to feel again. noticing little things here and there..the mental fog is fading. I hope this isn't the last of the positive effects of quitting. I hope there is more to come and that once I'm a year clean that the mental clarity of being that long without will not even make the pill seem tempting. I may have rambled a bit above, but I'm in a good mood and I just felt like writing. I wish you all the best of luck. I was a HARDCORE Adderall abuser, and if I'm starting to return to normal then there is hope for all of us.

Thanks, yeah..don't take your PMS out of me.. jk.