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I have been given the diagnosis for ADHD as well as my son. I HATE it. People think you are "dumb". Even though I had straight A's, never took a note, and didn't study. I have(or at least HAD before Adderall) a near photographic memory. To me, a person diagnosed with ADHD means "Genesis ". The kids that are usually not listening to their parents, behave poorly, and are mean to their peers are ODD, oppositional defiant disorder. There is a HUGE difference but society fails to see it.

Wow! You have a much better plan than I ever did. How is it going? I think days 2-4 were the worst for me.

Today was one of the worst days that I have had since quitting. I had an overwhelming desire to take Adderall, but I did NOT . I am very proud of myself for not giving into temptation, but I had a very bad case of PAWS. Very fatigued, extreme brain fog, and a hot temper. I saw my physician and Wellbutrin was added to take with my Lexapro. I think that combination was mentioned on a previous discussion. Has anyone had success on this combination?

Wow! About gave me a heart attack. Soooooo glad it was an April Fool's joke.

I heard a song the other day called "Remedy" by Little Boots. The chorus really hit home for me. It is " no more poison killing my emotion I will not be frozen dancing is my remedy" I could relate that to my Adderall addiction. Adderall is poison, it does kill my emotion, and I do dance ( or other forms of exercise) to boost my mood. It has been proven that exercise boosts the brains natural dopamine production. Isn't that why we became addicted in the first place? We wanted the dopamine increase. We then "loved" it, for a bit anyway. Then we grew to become dependent on it. We thought we couldn't even function without it. We grew to hate it, but still thought we needed it. We hit rock bottom and came here, to find answers and help. We realize that we are not alone. I personally would love it if I could even stop one person from going through this personal hell. That is my mission in the long run. For the moment, I just want to make it through the day.

So proud of you Ashley!!! I remember when I joined last summer, you were at 90 days. You have done wonderful! I still struggle but I am moving forward. You truly are an inspiration to me.

I think that quitting the Adderall is the most important one to start with. I take Xanax and Lexapro and I agree, they help with the anxiety and depression that comes with it. To quit Adderall, I had to do it cold turkey. I would try and taper and would be back up to 160+mg per day before I knew it. I would not quit the others at the same time, but for me quitting the Adderall was the most important one. The others will come in time, but I can act like "myself" on them. Adderall made me a whole different dark person.

What a wonderful tool to use!!! I think that this would be great for everyone. It can work for people who are trying to make the decision to quit and people who are in the quitting process.

Did you find out anything interesting from your friend?. My sun is in Virgo so I already am known to have OCD tendencies. I surely do have those.

I really never did either, I have just found it interesting reading on it. I wondered if anyone else has researched this topic.

Yes it is easier to tell a meth addict from an Adderall addict on the outside, but Adderall starts killing you from the inside.

I am not sure if this has been discussed before but has anyone noticed a pattern in addiction, especially Adderall, related to a person's Zodiac sign. I have not studied Astrology before but I have been reading a lot on it lately.

Good for you! I think that before I started Adderall, accomplishments like that made me feel a lot better than when I was on Adderall.

I tried it and it just gave me severe nausea and then....I fell asleep. I do agree however that the supposed "safe" drugs are become more dangerous but yet, easier to access.

Yes. I believe so. I was afraid that I had permanently changed the true me and would be the robotic adderall induced zombie for the rest of my life. I noticed my true personality starting to come back a little about 2 days Adderall free. It won't be easy and may even be painful because our minds have been poisoned for so long. You might be scared that you won't be able to function without Adderall. You can function without Adderall!! You just have to remember how to and also remember how horrible you felt on Adderall . Best of luck to you.

Congrats!! I am really looking forward to the day that I can say that. You are an amazing and strong person

Okay I finally remembered to read the Snapple Fact today. Hawaii moves 4 inches every year closer to Japan.

MFA I have been asking myself that same question lately. I have always been independent and care free and I use to not care what people thought. It baffles me that I became an addict at age 36. This was even as my life was better then it had been in years. I don't know why I thought at that point in my life I needed the approval of others. My husband and I were talking last night about my addiction. It never was about "getting high" or "feeling good" . I think I wanted to feel "normal" ( or at least what others described as normal). Towards the end, I just wanted to feel numb. I didn't want to feel anything. It sickens me now to know that I felt that way. What kind of mother doesn't want to feel any emotion? I feel all kinds of emotions now. Good and bad but at least I CAN feel. The thing I want to feel the most is ALIVE! I am slowly getting there, but at least I know I WILL get there.

I am happy that you found this site. I know I felt so alone and isolated during my Adderall fog. I found this site and realized that I was not the only one that has gone through this addiction. The rest of the world doesn't seem to understand or even believe that this drug can kill your soul. The people that have come to this site do understand. They are very helpful and caring. They may be brutally honest but I feel that helps you wake up to reality and it gives you the strength to overcome this addiction. Congrats on staying clean and wanting to get back to being yourself.

Now that I have been clean from Adderall for a couple of weeks, I am actually starting to see the bigger picture on what addiction does to not only you, but everyone around you. During the worst part of my addiction, I didn't see or didn't want to see what it was doing to my family. My 5 year old daughter was having vocal tic problems and behavior problems. We even thought she had Tourette's syndrome. Looking back I realize that she was striving for my attention. I had turned into this emotionless robot. My husband and I weren't communicating or even connecting like we always did. There was a lot of tension in the house. Now I realize that the tension was me. Everyone on edge not knowing how I was going to react to things. Would I laugh or would I explode in rage. I think on somedays they wondered, do I even care. I was there in body, but my mind was not. It was like an emotionless clone in the house. Now, things are better. I am not going to lie and say everything is just perfect, but things have improved dramatically in just a short period of time. The behavior and tic issues with my daughter have greatly improved, my husband and I are laughing again, and there is not as much tension in the house. Just thought I would share my observation.

We read the "Snapple Facts." off of Snapple lids everyday at work and for the life of me now, I can't think of any. . Maybe Monday I will have something.

I have had those negative remarks too. Not on my actual performance but I have been told I am "annoying." I started being a smart ass now and I asked "would you like me to be annoying and productive or quite and lazy?" They just stop talking then. People can be ignorant when it comes to Adderall addiction because they don't believe it is an addiction, especially for someone who has "textbook ADHD" like I have been told. It is hard and frustrating though, and it makes you second guess on your decision to quit. I just keep telling reminding myself that I am starting to be the person again that I was meant to be. If people truly love and respect YOU, then they will want the actual YOU to be here instead of the "Zombie" version.

Sorry I haven't been on a lot or posting. I am still dealing with this back issue. The funny thing is that I am not taking any narcotics. I have been stretching, taking ibuprofen, and even tried accupuncture. The Dr. (who I work for and have great respect for and was not the one who started me on Adderall) couldn't figure out why I was having these symptoms still. He looked at me and smiled and said "you are unique aren't you." It made me think. I have always been "different." not creepy different just out going, good sense of humor, laughs at everything, and can do the job of 10 people by myself and run circles around people half my age. So...why the hell would I want to change myself and start on Adderall. I really have had a problem being addicted to anything. I use to smoke, but I could always quit with no problems. I don't drink alcohol, I did smoke a lot of marijuanna when I was younger but hey, who hasn't. So why did I let this pill control me. This little orange sickly sweet pill. Then it hit me. I have always been a people pleaser and care too much about what others think of me. I always felt like there was something wrong with me because I was always on the go while others would just look at me and say" slow down." I break out and either start dancing or singing real loud just because I want to. I can find humor in almost everything, but being that way, has also caused me to be rejected at times. I also have a memory like no other and even when I knew I was right about something, I wouldn't agure it with someone who always thought they were right. So... for the past week, I had a pitty party for myself and then finally looked myself in the mirror and said. "WHAT THE HELL!! YOU ARE A 38 YEAR OLD WOMAN NOT A 17 YEAR OLD GIRL.!!!!. Then I realized, who really cares about me the most and how do they view me. My children think that I am a great mom, even when my temper gets the best of me. I am strict but I can be fun. There friends think I am the "cool mom." That's a little odd because like I said, I am strict but I can laugh and joke around too. My husband is like me as far as the humor goes. He loves the fact that out of no where, I will just make the silliest face or do a dumbe thing. Of course my mom and dad. My best friend since high school. Do I really need the approval of the world? I have patients who just think I am the best. I even have managed to get every grumpy and mean patient to smile when they see me. That is enough for me. Sorry for the long post, but I just thought I would get that all out. Also, still Adderall free!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

No not really. I have been on it for 10 years, off and on so it's kind of hard to remember if I had any side effects. I do know that it worked much better than some of the other medications. I was on Effexor and if I missed 1 dose I would feel crazy!! (ok crazier). I also was misdiagnosed at first with Bipolar and suprise surprise, non of those medications worked. I always wondered how they came up with that when I was always hyper and not depressed...Ok sorry, went off topic again. How many days have you been on it and did they start you at the 10mg or 20mg?

I have started B-12 injections. I am not sure if it's making a difference yet. I also take a b-1 and b-6 supplement. I am on Xanax and Lexapro for anxiety. Which is kind of odd that they would put me on Adderall because it can cause severe panic attacks. I used to get them real bad. I still do, but they are not as bad as they were while on Adderall. I am not sure how much advice I have on regaining energy. I am still looking for that solution too.