Greg

It's totally disgusting in what kind of person it turns you into,

Ashley congratulations and thank u guys for the congrats. Ashley I'm so glad u are also up for the 3-5 a day. I was surprised that I got it because it was my first interview. The internship was for marketing internship at a healthcare company and I am flexible between a career in marketing and finance or honestly anything interesting that comes my way. I have decided to turn it down for various reasons. So now I am at square zero and I hate it. But this is a marathon not a race and I told MFA so many times the average job search takes 8 months, I am so thankful for the other thread we started because there is no way I would have touched the job search if it weren't for that thread. But today I forced myself to spend sometime doing it. I submitted some resumes, and read up on how to use linked in, how to find job openings and networking letters and informational interviews. All stuff I had totally forgotten about. For me job search equals anxiety and a feeling of ugh.. But the other thread will force me to do this and makes it feel more like a slow and steady course . Lol. Ashley, what do you think about a career in addiction counseling?

Hey, checking in with about 5 today

3-5 Resumes a Day Club Submit 3-5 resumes per day M- Fri Pick 1 day of the week to send networking letters. networking letters = 1 resume feel free to post job tips, and of course updates on your progress!

I am excited to check in this week! 16.5!!!! Also i started playing basketball with some guys in my building which has been fun.

Awesome Ashley!!!! I got two interviews for internships, and one of them i got and the other one i still have to go through another round. They are solid internships, but I really want to shoot for THE BEST i can possibly get (too ambitious?) And if we are going to do the three a day thing. at least for me, that would mean applying to a lot of places and more opportunities and possibly turning down stuff in order get better. Think of your first interview as practice - relax, be yourself, dont feel desperate or anything because you will have plenty opportunties if you do this 3-5 a day thing...and remember in your interview try to be a good fit. Be someone they will want to work with everyday. That's more important then impressing with credentials etc. of course express enthusiasm. I didnt read any interview books or anything before my interviews because I didnt want to sound rehearsed, I googled interview tips and just read through quickly, studied the company the most. and then i just talked regular. Also I took xanax before my interview, lol. which helped a lot. Anyway, good luck! Are we still doing the three to five a day thing?

you sound like my sister when she was dealing with me going through this. It was frustrating for her. And, yes, i did believe the voices were real. The way you are dealing with this is right. All you can do is listen to her but kind of ignore it. If you remember in my last thread you and her family can take care of things behind the scenes without really letting her know you are taking care of things. I think that is your best course. later when she is a recovered and a normal person again she will appreciate it but not now. Later she will look back at this time in her life in horror, But there is no convincing her now. She is still delusional and her brain is craving the fix.

Rehab is definitely good for her. She is probably meeting other addicts, and going to lots of addiction counseling classes, and Narcotics Anonymous meetings. Good for you for being such a good friend and looking out for her.

Hey I remember you from your earlier post. The voices will slowly subside as long as she is clean. My psychosis subsided quickly but I've heard about others where it took more time. While I wasn't hearing voices after two weeks I was feeling 'crazy' still, lol. 2 weeks is way too soon to be worried that the voices are anything other than lingering adderall induced psychosis. I'm not sure the situation or what u mean by her possibly using the voices to leave rehab. Is she trying to leave rehab?

Welcome to the forums. Once you reach the point you are at, all the terrible feelings you mentioned only gets worse, as you continue on it. The only way to stop is to get off it. But its possible. Definitely read more of the advice and tips on this board and know you have plenty of support here. At first I thought I would never be able to think or concentrate again without concerta or adderall but little by little my confidence came back. It took time but now I study all the time without adderall. And the thought of taking adderall ever against feels like a travesty to me. I never thought it was possible to feel free of it But it was. You can also do this.

I did not know you were in school JustinW. Congratulations on getting all As!

This is my worst week so far in terms of work. Horrific exams headed my way. Sunday will be impossible for me to make...i will check in early with Zero for this coming Sunday. But after that..you are absolutely right. 'Normal' work levels should never take away from running. And I have been letting it take away from running. Next week I will be back on track. I will make the time for it.

Congratulations on two months clean. Thats huge. Make sure you stay with us on this site. A lot of us have been able to recover. Welcome to the forum.

Ashley, My fear is also holding me back. But it just has to get done right?Submitting a resume is just a matter of filling out your information on a company website and uploading your resume and cover letter (well tailoring your cover letter to the job by basically changing the name of the position u r applying for and who you are addressing your cover letter to). If we do three a day, that is 21 for the week. 5 a day is 35 for the week. We can do them all in one day or pace with 3-5 a day. just like running.The more resumes we send out the higher the chances we have of hearing back from somewhere right? (I am looking for an internship over the summer, but if a good job comes my way I would totally look into working and dropping down to part time MBA) Let's for sure start a thread on this....want to start it around February 28th?? edit - also Ashley, does your school have any upcoming internship/job fairs. That is a great way to get rid of some resumes to meet our weekly quota.

Ashley I am totally with you on this. I have to start doing that for internships and the whole process is a little daunting for me. Especially with work and exams. I think we should start an submit resume to 3-5 places a day thread!! That would be 21-35 resumes submitted per week. For the most part our 12 mile running club has worked.

I am not looking forward to this check in. Zero for me -- again.

It is really beautiful here. Definitely going to the beach / sunbathing weather! The coldest it will get is high 60s. Well I guess it depends where in Florida, because I heard a few weeks ago in the very northern part of Florida they actually saw some snow...but here it is beach weather..One of my coworkers went snorkeling with manatees last week.. And I wear tees and shorts everyday.. (I hope occasional doesn't throw snowballs at me) anyway I'm sure u will have a great trip !

Midnight oil

yeah, these equation were giving me SERIOUS panic attacks but I spent some time - a full 2 days-- sitting with the material and trying to absorb them and understand them so I feel slightly better but still panicky about my coming exam next week. But I have an exam tomorrow on supply chain management I have to prepare for first.

Kind of! We are doing present value of annuities but also loan payments. This is an equation for present value of growing annuity that we have been using a lot, but our professor makes us calculate in foreign currency ( Swiss franc, British pounds, yen) and then convert it to US dollars etc etc...http://www.financeformulas.net/Formula%20Images/PV%20of%20Growing%20Annuity%201.gif I can handle memorizing the equation and plugging into the equation but not when he starts tripping us up and throwing things like arbitrage and currency conversion and excel worksheets with irrelevant data and all this stuff to make our lives difficult.

that is just one equation of many, many similar to that. :( last semester I was taking marketing classes, managment classes...this semester its all hard quant math stuff.

Yeah I went to at least 100 meetings. I read the book of NA at least 20 times. Then I relapsed. Theres a hard rule that you cannot use and attend meetings at the same time. Before long, I had fell out of it. But the happy ending is that I got sober and found you guys! What an awful comment about heroin. I heard an interview with Robin Williams and he said his biggest fear in life was relapsing after all this time clean. He's afraid that one day the drink will call to him and he wont be able to stop himself. That just reminded me of this interview I saw with Matthew Perry on his addiction which was really intense and made me cringe because it was on live tv http://www.upworthy.com/watch-what-matthew-perry-says-when-a-dude-says-his-drug-addiction-is-his-choice-2

I meant the ones you use in second grade. But they also work in graduate school. Only instead of 2+2 the flashcards have equations that look like this http://www.celtnet.org.uk/ns/img/apr.gif

Where r my flash cards?

Totally agreed. For me I especially in recent weeks I became worried about myself especially with all the fantasizing about feeling high on adderall again..what really was a wake up call was hearing about Phillip Seymour Hoffman being sober for 22 years then suddenly he goes to rehab because he feels himself about to relapse and then a couple months later he dies from an overdose. After 22 years clean!!! Not to be such a downer but It's a scary thing I guess addicts with clean time have to face is that scary possibility of falling back in.