Zerokewl

MFA you are so right. I went for a walk to the taco place and watched some mexican soap operas, read the paper and had lunch. This was my horoscope "You may feel that you are destined for bigger and better things and you maybe right . but it won't happen as if by magic. determine your #1 priority today then go for it to the exclusion of everything else" Based on that, I will focus on one thing today. Get her done.

happiness is a choice. I took adderall because i hated my job too. Adderall defined our mood we were instantly happy or angry. It made the choice for us it altered our moods and our minds. Into some simplified model of what a happy person should be. When we wanted to be happier we took more and when we wanted to sleep we took less. I'm making that choice to be happy no matter my circumstance. I am happy and grateful for what I have. Work to live not live to work.

I seriously I wish I knew. I struggle with this question.

From the place I am in your life sounds amazing. I really wish I had my shit together like you do.

I like, like to like.

Slayer!

I'm going to check out a Smart Recovery meeting this evening.

Congrats on 2 years quit-once you are an inspiration. Also sboo thank-you for posting it gives me hope that you eventually do pull outta this shit.

Because Dr's have no idea. Thats what so dangerous about this drug.

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rocky 2

quiet - maybe things will be noisy soon

there is definitely something powerful happening here. We are gaining strength with every post.

MFA- Try listening to some of the chants its weird but it works. I have a few Buddhist chants apps installed on my iphone. I think its good for the mind grapes. Try it and let me know what you think. Cassie- "none of us know what the fuck we're doing!" yup so true. BTW God Save the Queen!

MFA makes a good point. We've played with our brain chemistry it will take some time for our brains to recalibrate. Start reading up on dopamine.

Nice post. I think its important to grieve your past. I've spent a lot of time thinking about my life adderall. I remember vividly the first day I took it. Through my meditation I've come to realize adderall was just a symptom of my life spinning out of control. I lost my job due to adderall use but I used adderall due to my job. Life has clearly given us a time out. We just need to love the place we are in.

I'm really glad you posted your relapse story. You remind us how easy it is to slip back into it. Keep posting, keep trying.

snap - snapping out of my depression.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUqLGRMrFAg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUqLGRMrFAg

I don't miss cold hands, grinding my teeth bad breath, crashes, losing track of time, sleepless nights and horrible mornings. I just don't miss it. I think its easy to just remember the good things about adderall and forget the really shitty parts. PAWSy day here today I think I am going to go hide in a movie theater. PEACE

OCD I can relate. I really enjoyed excel when I was in Adderall. Changing fonts,diagrams etc. Jon lays out some pretty solid advice. Get ready to quit. Cushion the crash landing.

Lol just left a grocery bag at the store. Had to run back and get them. Went to the bank without my bank card. LOL

and saints row comes out soon too

Maybe preparing a checklist of steps for next time might help. You can store the list on your phone so it is handy. The Tire Store my uncle works at has a policy of not allowing employees to be distracted by (phones, customers) while changing a tire. I think maybe you need to be in the pool zone when you are doing this leave the phone inside etc.