AlwaysAwesome
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I can't believe that your doctor would prescribe you adderall when you have a history of methamphetamine abuse. Was he aware of your history? I have read here that in the NA meetings, the meth and adderall addicts have similar withdrawal. I don't have personal experience with meth for comparison. I would recommend never going back on it, because you have a week clean already, right? Good luck and welcome!
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That's what I was afraid of.
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I hate myself for becoming this person. And I don't know how I can undo the mess I've created for my life.
Every day I say, "tomorrow will be different" ... But it never is. I don't know what is wrong with me!?!
Adderall is wrong with you, and you can start by quitting. Good luck, and we all know you CAN do it. You just have to believe us.
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You give me hope, Cassie! I am sticking with it and struggling through because of all of you "old timers" on this forum. I read your stories and have faith that "this too shall pass". Thank you for all that you do and congratulations on your 3 years!
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Then, the other day, my husband made a comment about how I used to 'get shit done' on Adderall and how I didn't need as much sleep as I do now (I think I sleep a normal amount - I don't take naps or anything). When someone you love validates the drug somewhat, that's a huge setback.
OMG! My husband has been telling me that I need to get my adderall back, too! I am hurt by his lack of faith. I am also afraid that I am becoming a caffeine addict, but so is everyone else in this country, so...
I can't wait for the day when it's been so long since I've taken an Adderall, I forget what the hell it even feels like.
This is my favorite quote of the day!!
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Some people can take their meds for years without abusing or increasing their dosages, but we don't hear much from those kind of people around here because their lives haven't fallen apart from the addiction........yet.
Even at your prescribed dose...it will ruin you. I am evidence of that.
Don't beat yourself up, LILTEX...you are still an inspiration to us all!
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I worked fine without it before, but now I still struggle,
Exactly.
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I think you're fatigued because you're only 5 months clean, and you'd feel that way working in any job.
I totally agree with Cassie.
I have the lowest stress job on the planet, and I find myself unable to stay focused because I am bored. Also, if it is not really important, then I don't feel motivated to do it at all. I am really sloppy, lazy right now. I feel like a more challenging job might force me to be more productive...but I don't feel like trying to get another job. LOL!
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7 monhts clean and I am finding that I am really not motivated to do anything unless it is really important. Is this how everyone else lives when they are not on adderall? I honestly don't remember... I am noticing that I have a lot more free time when I am not stressing over minute, irrelevent details. Good Times!
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... I think because I've never had trouble in my life wanting to do work, even before adderall, i was always a straight-A student, etc.
Sigh...you have damaged that part of yourself. Get ready to be utterly shocked. I was on adderall for almost 7 years, and I am not who I was before. I am hopeful that I can rebuild and get some semblance of my pre adderall self back, but it is sad. I am feeling a loss like a death in the family. I am very lost right now, but still feeling better that I am not on adderall anymore. It only gets worse the longer that you are on it. Hang in there!
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Seven (as in 7 months clean!!!)
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AS bad as quitting can make you feel, it does not come close to the crap life you lead on the pills...great job and hang in there!
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It is adderall withdrawal...and it lingers a LONG time. Hang in there and buy some sweatpants! LOL.
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It's hard when your brain is used to going 100 mph then suddenly stopped to a 55 mph speed limit!
So true!!
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I have recently discovered Monster Energy Ultra Blue...I can only drink this one because I have developed a nasty allergy to most artificial sweeteners and this one does not give me a headache (yet). I tried a B vitamin plus caffeine thing from GNC and it was causing me to have headaches. Nothing really helps, but the monster does for a few hours. I need to exercise more (at all) and build up my metabolism, but I am still really lazy and just trying to get through the day is a challenge sometimes.Vicious, Vicious cycle...
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Such an inspiration!! I was so close to calling the doc several times this week...I am glad that I logged on.
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I am just 5 months clean and I am a mess. I have gained a TON of weight, I have no motivation, my house is a disaster, and I am an uber scatterbrain!! YET...I am happier, more loving, more attentive to others, more sociable, more pleasant, and I am ever so slowly becoming myself again. I have recently had multiple "I should just go back to adderall" moments, but...I just can't go back to that "me". I am glad that I stumbled onto this site five months ago, and I want to welcome you! If your story is mine, then get "done with" adderall and join me (us)! You will totally regret it some days, but hopefully not enough to ever go back...
Good luck!
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For starters - Patience, faith, humility, empathy and letting go of control.
I love this!! Letting go of control...yes, that just about covers it all.
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6 months at 30 mg/day = 6 x 900 = 5400 mg
72 months at 60 mg/day = 60 x 30 = 1800 x 72 = 129,600 mg
5400 + 129600 = 135,000 mg
135,000 mg over a 6 1/2 year time period...yikes!
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I have women in my life that struggle with weight and it just frustrates me what the media BS does to women and girls. I had a (female) doctor tell my daughter she was overweight when she wasn't at all (nobody thinks that she is, the women looks at this height/weight chart and just tells her she's fat. My daughter has more muscle mass, which weighs then fat, from her dancing, but she is NOT FAT). I was pissed! Who tells a 17 year old girl that? What is this, the 1950's?
At least the Doc didn't recommend she take up smoking to keep her weight down. LOL, that was the 1950's for you.
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I just really don't want to have to replace my entire wardrobe...seriously. My husband is saying the same things Krax, and I know that they are true. But, when you outgrow scrub pants...it is demoralizing.
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Buying new clothes...two sizes larger than three months ago. NOT REALLY!! LOL, but I am loving food right now. I want food all of the time and it tastes so good. I am not sure if that is really a good thing, but i am obviously enjoying the hell out of it!
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I have a diagnosis of ADD and did not fake symptoms. I also never took more than my prescribed dose of adderall. I miss being able to function, but i am glad to be me again. I can't wait to get back to the way I was before I started taking adderall 7 years or so ago.
I took my daughter off of concerta when I quit adderall. She is on Strattera now and it seems to be working really well for her. Her moods have evened out and there is no let down every night. I am tempted to talk with my doctor about trying it, but I am not willing to take anything right now. I have to get a handle on my life without meds, for my own sanity.
Adderall: My Love/Hate Story
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Isn't it bliss? Who knew how pleasant life can be when you aren't a crazy, cleaning whirlwind. Although, I could use a bit of motivation to put the clean laundry away. Still, it is clean.