FALCON

HI there you are lucky you found this great web site it took me some time googaling to find this great web site .This is day # 21 that I have bin clean its not easy butt my new friends on this great website help me get thru the days. I’m not sure if you are a brother or a sister your not telling it duos not mater .I will jest call you confused. Well here I go I have bin on xanex for 20 years at a very high dos for anxiety I have also cut down to only 1 mlg a day from 8 milg a day What I want to express to you is you are taken two deferent meds one is to make you focus and the anther is to bring you back down I know what its like I have bin there it make no sense or it has no logic to it des two deferent drugs do the apposite of one another one brings you UP and the anther brings you down Fuck these shrinks they are nothing butt pill pushers think about it the shrinks got rid of the coach in there office and replaced it with a chair 10 minutes and your out the door . Lay off the alcohol for the time being it’s a depressant and makes you feel like shit the next day. I am happy to heir that you what to get off the junk good work you have come to the cross roads in your life like all of us readers eventually do. Tapering off the junk is a choice you will need to make on your Owen two choices taper or cold turkey. I guess its all about the will and how long you want to suffer each method are painful no way around it . I personally went cold turkey it was best for me just. I wanted to get it over with. Anyhow confused I tell everyone on my post if you go with cold turkey it takes about a week to get over the hump take a week off of what you are doing and do nothing let your body do its heeling sleep or do what ever makes you comfortable. Is far as your resting heart rate and your elevated Bp has me a little concerned I would advise you to see a dr. and let your dr, know about these issues regarding heart rate and Bp elevations I am concerned there may be a underlying problem going on I am not a dr. to give any health advice. I jest look at thinks in a logical manner What do I know I am jest a hopeful X junky . Maybe we can get some more advice for you with some advanced members and don’t wary about the gray hair its genetic I now some 18 year old people with a full head of gray hair that’s why god maid hair diy its not a problem don’t stress out about it…. YOUR FRIEND THE FALCON

KatieK1986 Hi K, K welcome to are little club getting off of adderall 101. It is day 19 for me when I got clean read my store on why I guit aderall you will read some hard shit on this forum. Well lets start giving you the support you are asking for. Everyone has secrets I do not char whom it is Even your boy friend has his own little secrets trust me. Even our beloved president has a skeletons in the closet. Katie first of all your head is in the Wright place. I can tell by reading your post and my intuition tells me so. As far as you getting off the junk you are making the right decision by Quitting. The question is how to get clean it sounds like you do not useing a very high dos of adderall compared to the post I have been reading so getting off the drug will not be as hard as you think. You already made your first step by deciding you what to get clean you should be congratulated for this. If you want to do the cold turkey method I think you will have a pretty genital crash landing I do suggest that you tell your employer You need two days off of work to take care of some family maters two days off of work and the weekend this will give you 4 full days to crash land. Or you can do your 5 mlg two times a day Intel you run out of the shit I sincerely think you will be O K Katie . Is far is your boy friend is concerned I would let the cat out of the bag talk to him let him know what you are all about I believe honesty is truly the best . I think it’s the best way to deal with your situation. If he dos not understand then baby he is not the man for you because it will be a climes into the future with him and how your relationship would be like with him move on find someone with more compaction in there heart you deserve it. You worked hard to get where you are now in your carrier. Last comment DO not be jugded you did noting wrong. THE FALCON

damnpill33 Hi brother 10-4 day # 18 for me welcome to our little club you also keep up your speared up. I know its not easy getting off of pain meds its not easy I know butt you did it bro congratulations on that please do not relapse if you fell that erg coming on do what I do think about the pain it took for you to get were you are now. It seems like I am noteicing a pattern in my battle . I would have a semi good day and manage to get out of the houseboat the next day I’m good for nothing like today I’m physically drained I need to jest lay down and do nothing at all the funky thing is I cannot fall to sleep. I tried to go out to night got in my car started driving to my destination I soon realized I was physically drained so I turned the car around and returned to my houseboat that’s my apartment. Well another day of battle tomorrow We will get thru this shit together lets be stronger then the JUNK I am saving almost a full bottle of junk I have. I wanted to flues the drugs into the toilet butt I think I would rater tie a rock around the bottle and throw it into the shrinks office window like luwses on the andy grifit show. On my last appointment with my personal drug pusher my shrink I told him that the adderall was not working on me any more do you know what he did the shrink gave me a extra RX for a higher dos 10-4 my friend . THE FALCON

HulkieD canes2315 highonlife Hay my little brothers it looks like your the only BROS whom read My Shit tanks you I give you guys my gradatud and respect. Day # 18 clean No adderall no xanex no alcahol. Got up today felt like shit again butt better than yesterday you can tell how shity I was felling . Any how I went out tonight for the first time in 17 days went to the local blues bar her in Chicago all my people at the bar wanted to buy me a drink. I told them no thank you. I am on the wagon I Surprised my self I haven’t Ben sober for along time its hard to remember when .It was a nice felling to be strat with out adderall xanex and boos butt I managed to stay clean hay bros a small victory. I enjoyed the music immensely that’s what it is all about at the club jest good old chi town 100%blues that’s what makes me happy hay bros I even managed to tern down an invitation by a chick I new she wanted me to take her back to her apartment see was so wasted drunk as a skunk and she could not stand strait. I do not want to make love with a drunk skunk chick any more they only pass out on you what fun is that believe me bros its not worth it when you cant remember what you did last night. I bin there don that I managed to have a conversation with a with a chick a tourist from London. Any how I got her number so if I travel to England she said I can crash at her flat. O. k now how are you guys doing I hop my post helps you out in your journey in staying clean. My lessen to you guys today is You can have fun without getting fucket up it is amazing what you experience when your clean .Hay do not get me wrong its not bad if you have 1 or 2 beers to take the edge off or some wine butt do not get your self fucket up were you cant even have a good conversation with a chick don’t worry bros there is someone for every one out there you will find your soul mate when your not expecting it happen have patients’ trust me . If you bros ever get in to the Chicago area I will show you around town bring you to the fames off the beet blues’ clubs. O ya my brothers the band invited me up to the stage for two sets I played my harp and played it sober can you believe that it amazed me to. I hop you can understand the point I am trying to make. Keep in touch I need your support I am not out of the woods yet Tomorrow I will try to get onto the trail and hike. Your friend and brother THE FALCON

Hay brothers and sisters Day #17 clean now I am about to enter another black night . Today was really a fucket up day for me extreme chronic fatigue fell over me supper liturgy like a vacuum sucked all my energy out of my soul . At this point I don’t know if it’s the absents of adderall in my body or something else is going on with me my doctors have no answers for me there solution is lets try another fuckin drug jest maybe this one will help . My answer to that is fuck you. You stupid drug pushing doctors .Yes my friends I am angry today very angry at everyone its best if I jest stay isolated in my cocoon and not talk to anyone intill this dark cloud blows over if it ever does. I fell very hopeless at this time no my friends I am not so strong butt I am a worrier I will fight this devil drug till it ends me or I end it. I am also in chronic pain my stomach and my legs and thighs are in constant pain I can not take any more adval if I do my lever will fry. Its funny I can help other people true there problems butt I cant help my self. Well maybe I will get some sleep tonight and wake up to ether a good day or a fucket up day don’t know which one yet its like a crap shut or yen and yang or hot and cold or hard and soft you know what I mean. Well I will fight and I will fight till the end win or loose yes my friends I sound like I need help I do agree with you all . Butt my realization is I need to help my self because there is no meds or any shrink out there that can help me I have bin down that long road a number of times.I WILL HELP MY SELF YES I WILL. Don’t worry I WILL win this fight ones and for all see my friends my time on this earthly dimension is coming closer to its end I am a little older then moist of you readers my point is let my life experience be a lessen to your path of the elimination of mind controlling in your life drugs Like ADDERALLThank you for listing to me ramble on. Your friend. FALCON

Hay there sister I am glad you have found a antidepressant that works for you it’s a blessing. I have tried numbers of antidepressants for 20 years now sometimes 4 different drugs at one time thats 4 chemicals working on your brain at ones thus this make sense to you it is not logical to me. Butt what do I know I’m not a fuckin shrink I’m jest a depressed person looking for some relief all the deferent medications I have tried worked for a little then stop working on me. This is called drug resistant depression. I hope wellbutrin will do its job for you in the long run. I know about 4 people that are on wellbutrin they are all satisfied with the results congratulations on your 5 weeks clean this is a millstone in my opinion you have graet sperit Keep it up. Your friend FALCON

------- canes2315 and John256 ---- Hay my brother I am a old school guy what I am offering you is some wisdom it sounds like you are calling out for some advice well her it is I am 14 days clean after 5 6 years of 60 to 90 ml xr a day in my case I needed to get of the junk cold turkey because I was abusing the drug and mixing it with xanex and alcohol a very bad combination my death wash knocking at my door . For you my brother her is my advice to you it dos not sound like you are abusing this drug it sounds like it has got you thru school all these years I believe you needed adderall for focus. You have bin on this junk most of your life your tolerant level is playing with you right now its just a mater of time it happens to everyone that takes adderall long term . I think you need this drug to get you true your schooling right now so what I am suggesting is you cut back your dose in half only take adderal when you need to study and that’s it do not do not take adderall to enhance your Social Life it dos not work it will jest zombie you out . Again use the drug for what it is intended for to increase your focus so you can study better NOTE there will come a time in your life when you will need to make a dissension to get off the junk completely I think now is not the time for you butt remember what I said do not abuse this drug because you will not win the fight this drug will win every time. Aim doing better I do not have the erg to use the junk any more it was a very hard fight for me I won round one my problem now is I am in a black hole of depression Wright now which is my battle now hopefully I will win the next round also Fell free to e mail me if you like some support your Friend FALCON

Brother highonlife thank you for your prayers it truly, it’s Appreciated. Comforting to know someone cares. I have been reading your post also; I can say you are a good-hearted person. Good like in your journey in becoming a MD I am sour you will be a good DR. The sun came up it was a nice sunrise now I will try to find some power to get thru another day. Keep in touch my friend. FALCON

Sitting in darkness looking out the window watching for the sun to rise. 14 days clean now I have a bottle of 30ml xr on the dresser butt do not wiry my friends I will not go back to the hell I have endured for the past 10 yers and espesaly the past two week it was to painful of a experience to go thru again. What I am experiencing now is very deep depression darkness as black as a magic marker; chronic weakness witch is to the point of a disability all my mussels are in pain for resins I do not understand a head ace all day long taking a lot of addval for the pain also Im experieancing anger at myself for geting into this site I have no friends that I can talk to because they will jug me as being of weak character I have kept my addiction a secret from Everyone. I now know I never really had any friends only acuteness’s .I am waiting for this dark place to easy up on me and just give me a lettle brake. Did any of you experience any of these symptoms how long will it last if so I would like to her from you I need help right now getting thru each day. It is a very lonely road when you got know one Tomorrow I will attempt to get out of the apartment and start doing some hiking which I enjoy doing. Thank you for listing FALCON

Hay baby cakes don’t judge use everyone has a deferent response to adderall I am glad that you are symptom free some people have a tolerance issue and need to up there dose to get some benefit from the drug Its not abuse adderall becomes non effective for us after a long term use. So be gentle little girl and come back to the web sit when you need us we will be her for you. One qustion for you wy are you up at 4:38am jest qureas FALCON

HulkieD Hay brother you came to the right web site I am in my 10th day off the shit after 10yers of abuse we all start out at a low does and increase are mlg on our own that seems like the typical pattern from all the stores I have read on this website. Matt the first week will be your hardest think to do it’s a hard crash after your first week it is a little easier to cop with trust me I am a old school addict this website our brother mike created will get you thru if you are ready to come off the junk your mind needs to say no more no more its bin 25 years for me on stimulants and that is it no more .See if you can take 1 week off of work stay home do nothing jest crash that’s if you what to do the cold turkey meted don’t wary you will not die you may fell like you are dieing butt its all part of the withdrall presses . You can do step down method if you are more comfortable with the step down it whose not a option for me I needed cold turkey meted because I hit my final bottom and had no way out for me I am not a strong writher butt my point is I feel if you refill your rx you will return to your old routine with the stimulants now it’s the time for you to stop I have 400 Dallors of adderall in front of me I will not take them thay will go into the toilet soon brother you can do it its your time now give me a e mail if you need good luck FALCAN…..

BD jest take a week off and do nothing but crash that’s what i did make your mind stronger then the Drug. Day #7 for me i have past the crash stage now iam in withdrawal and I have a flood of memories going into my head puls depression. MY STORY WY I QUIT THE JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;:::. Hi my brothers and sisters first I would like to say take you to the creator of this web site thanks you and god give you speed for helping all of us addicted souls out her. I have spent countless of hours going thru deferent web sits for support our some answers on how to overcome this evil drug we call adderall. I am 7days clean from adderall 5 days in Hell Curled up In a little ball like a new born baby. A little history about me I have been on adderall xr for 10 years now 60 to 90 ml a day plus some 20ml regular release xanex 8 ml per day 24-7 its bin a roller coaster ride up and down all day long drank alcohol on weekends in excess on top of all the drugs. Yes it is a miracles I am still living I am 55 years old a path of self-destruction for years. Back in nov 2011 I thought I have hit bottom I was having Psychotic Episodes and also physical symptoms like vertigo I could not walk or stand up for a month almost needed to go for detoxify butt I did it on my own my doc told me to cut down or get off xanex so I did so. 3 months of stepping down. I could not get off the bensos cold turkey because of the risk of having seizures from being on the xanex long term . I am now on only 1 ml of xanex per days I need to get off xanex completely. One-step at a time now I am at the bottom. Lost my business lost my marriage lost the respect from my two good kids lost my friends lost my savings I am now alone and I have finally hit bottom I am actually happy I am at the bottom because there is no where to go from her butt to die it took me 10 years to get her it will thank me some time to get out of here. When I read your post it gives me the will to get clean and get off this so called fuckin meds. I thank all you brothers and sisters for listing to me blabber on about my pitiful existents I am hoping to get clean now and try to help anther people to get thru there own addictions I know my road to success will be a long recovery but I at least hit my final bottom right now and cant go much farther down. Thanks again for your support I will try to post ones a week to keep you in the loop of my progress GOD BLESS YOU ALL WHOM ARE SAFFERING WITH ME WE WILL ALL MAKE IT TOGETER. BD jest take a week off and do nothing but crash that’s what i did make your mind stronger then the ADDERALL DO IT MY brother.

Hang in there this is my 6th day off the junk I am not a Advanced Member yet but I could only tell you the first week is hell a lonely and soul Searching one. look foreword to your first week without the junk you will fell some relief trust me it gets easier . Drink some camameal tea it helps drink it as often is you can look to the future not the past. We can do it together remember your not alone you have this grate web site to go to .