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jennablu HI there am celebrating day 30 for me its a good felling to be free from this drug. I am now challenged by some chronic fatigue and desperation I’m tolled by other members these symptoms will pass in about 12 weeks I will wait and fight the symptoms. Good luck FALCON

theonewhoallmostlostitall WOW what a night mar you went thru I my self lost everything because of this drug my health my marriage my businesses my ambition my respect from my kids my savings. I hit the bottom hard. I am glad to her your husbands is not a schizophrenic it was the drugs causing this evil .Jest a word to you keep a close watch on your hushed Its very easy to relapse how long has it Ben since he’s Ben off the shit and how bad was his withdraw .It is my hunch he was self medicating him self because of some deeper issues in his life you may consider a therapist for him you don’t what to go back to that night mar again our members are her for you if you need our support Good luck THE FALCON DAY 30 clean

Sky good job brother I’m proud off you keep it clean good luck in your recovery you will make it thru hell week your friend FALCON

Sky my brother you sound like your tweeking Wright now am I Wright my intuition tells me you are I’m yousally Wright you are like rambling on about what I really don’t know I understand 50% of what you where tiring to express to chelle .Sorry brother slow it down a little hope you are being trutfull with us when you said your Quitting adderall it dos not sound like it Wright at the monument your friend FALCON

Chelle hi sister your story is very emotional for me lets try to put some prospective into your predicament you are a great mom I am sure of that you would give your life away for thus kids I Know baby you would .I cant imagine home schooling 5 kids man what a sacrifice this is for you a full time job +5 wow. And on top of it doing house work laundry cooking shopping wow your plate is full baby its overflowing . Please don’t kill your self your kids need you even in the conditions your in. Kids need there mommas you must have a fantastic bound with them that is a gift in itself. Well lets see what your options are do you have support from your husband I don’t Know if you are married you did not mention that in your story. If you are married dos your huby help you out in any way. Do you have any support from family members dos your shrink talk to you or is it wam bam thank you mam Chelle her are your scripts see you in 3 mouths don’t forget to pay on your way out . These are the questions I have for you Wright now. Man you got no time for chelle do you your day is filled up with taking car of every one else butt your self don’t worry about your extra pounds your putting on Wright now we need to get you healthy. Before you crash and burn . I’m reading your story and your not to far away from braking down. You probably do not have depression a side affect of to much adderall is depression so we need to get you clean you are on a high dos and long term it will be a painful crash and withdrawal for you theirs no way around it that’s the way it is .You are out of pills now so this is the time to make your mind up about quitting adderall. I’m sure your shrink will be more then happy to give you a script if you call them butt you will only be chasing your tall and nothing will be accomplished. I truly think you will need help you will go crazy without your adderall you have a very heavy days your tasks are challenging . I think you should do the step down method and stay with the step down schedule do not alter your step down at all ore you will be defeating all your progress ether way it will be hard. Really hard. Step down will take about 4 to 6 mounts and Cold turkey if you can do it will take about 1 to 2 weeks of what I call crashing and then another 10 to 12 weeks of no energy and depression their are your options . What ever method you chose I am her for you and our members ar also here for you. I am her for you when you need With some support quitting adderall we are a lot cheaper then the doctors . Love you baby you will be on my mind Intel you are healthy again THE FALCON hay its 12:05 am I AM 30 DAYS clean now. Cant believe it yahoo ow yaa. Please keep intuch

Yoo hello Mr. sky you see your a mr. now. You have earned my respect brother because of your honesty it is a good character to have . Well let me start by saying you will learn to walk again strait without shit in your system you mad the first step that’s a good thing my brother. Please don’t go back to your old was fallow the 12 step system you learned at AA DA. There program will help you stay clean trust me I’m a old school guy you know that Iv bin there don that believe me bro I know what the fuck I’m talking about .I have cheated death a number of times stick to your game plan it wont be easy at first you will feel some normalcy soon. It was 2 weeks before I felt some relief don’t worry what your go workers think about you they have hang-ups’ also no one is immune to life’s ups and downs it hits everyone some people get hit harder then anthers some people are born With problems they are bourn with terrifying diseases some people are born mentally retarded some people are born with no limes. Howe would you like them cards in your hand these inflected people have no chausses butt to live there life as best as they can .You see bro you and me and all are other members have a choices they are to live ther life fucket up or live it sober and drug free. I have chosen the strait way no its never to late its only to late when your 6 feet under. I’m listing to led zeppelin do you like them they are a classic band their songs never get old. Anyhow I am going into some very touchy soft ground. Subject Mr SKY watching porn well her I go some people will not agree with what I am about to discus and it will be mildly graphic so turn off your computers now 10 seconds ----------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Starting ……warrnig warning.. Porn has Ben around for centuries the Egypt the creeks the rumens our ant sisters you name it porn is nothing new the only thing new is the access to it via computer 8mm moves vcr and dvd . We live in a sexual society sex is all offer the place more so now then any time in history TV programs move theaters underwear endorsements by mikel Jordan of the bulls house party’s clubs. Think about the last party or club you went to the baby’s dress up to kill brother you no what I mean they dress so fuckin sexy they could get a 99 year old man Horney. Porn has its place in our society what I mean is you are young and you have lots of hormones flattering in your brain so how to release that Belt up energy lets face the facts your sexual drive must be relieved in a Peaceful non treating way usually by pleasuring your self that’s if you do not have a significant other this goes for men and women. Do you no I know several women whom admittedly watch porn and take char of their needs it’s a natural human instinct. When porn becomes a problem is when you are obsessed by porn 24/7 or if you are into some freaky ass shit or the worst is if your into children then you should get your fuckin balls cut off and castrated by someone’s father or maybe me or A skin head in the joint. You get my drift . This is when you need to seek a professional and get help from a therapist’s. SKY don’t feel bad my brother you are a normal man. I am sure you are not a pervert don’t fell guilty and by all means don’t hate your self . I am sorry if this subject was sensitive to some people it’s the only way I know how to express my self don’t forget I went to school of hard knocks University . THE FALCON

finding freedom Hi there Hightonlife gave you some good words from his experience on quitting adderall get thru the next 2 weeks. I know it will be hell week + 2 theirs no athter way sister after your crash you will see the light thru tour fogy window. Please believe me you will get over that hill two weeks baby hang in there for us and hang in there more importantly for your self. Take it slow do as little as you can for your crash and don’t beet your self up if you feel unproductive or lazy its all part of the prasses please don’t stress your self out if you do need to go to detax don’t bee ashamed of going. The Reason Im bringing it up is you where expressing some totes of suicide this is a red flag for calling out help me. We are her for you baby don’t want to loose you so please if you cant handle it get the proper proeisional help for yourself. Baby you made your first steps into quitting adderall don’t go back . When I crashed I sat in my car curald up in a little ball complotting checking into rehab. I calmed my self down by doing some breathing exercises . Please keep us posted I’m jest a little concerned for you we are all in your corner so beet this fight. LOVE YOU FALCAN

Sky my brother great supper good job sounds like you made your first big step don’t throw your pills away keep them on the counter the bottle of five pills will give you the will yes brother the will to succeeded in your journey to get clean. Throw it away when you are recovered and ready. I still have a full battle of adderall on my dresser when I’m reedy I will throw my bottle away butt not down the drain. I will tie a rock around it with a rubber band and throw the battle into my shrinks office window maybe he will get the message not to prescribe the junk willy dilly. Your journey is Wright at the beginning you will have to crash my brother it will be an uncomfortable week to ten days for you. I call it hell week I’m assuming that your crash will be somewhat mild I hope so butt what the fuck do I know I’m still a newbie in recovery. Any how I am proud of you my brother. Do not step back into your old ways’ please don’t look at me I feel like a cheerleader for you. Anyhow back to the issue at hand after your crash you will become tierd and maybe some chronic fatigue you will have some anxiety and mood swings butt don’t worry these symptoms will lesson in intensity as your body cleans it self out from the chemicals . Keep us in the loop on your progress we are your support group we are her for you like the members on this website where and are her for me what helps me on the first 10 days was cammamel tea it has a mild culming affect drink a lot I went thru 1 box every two days. Take it to school or work in a thermos bottle. Yours truly. HAY look at this my photo im no longer a newbee I am now an advanced member how do you like that.surprise surprise. THE FALCON

Sky My brother your honesty is greatly appreciated you are honorable and honest about your use that is a good character to have in my book. Congratulations on being up front about scamming your dr. You have my respect brother and I don’t give it out lightly. As far as people doing alcohol pot cigarettes or what ever turns there addictive triggers on you are seeing a false front do you really think these people are content with there life. The answer is no way they are self medicating them self’s with junk these people need the high jest to num there true feelings. I know my brother I am one of these people I am in recovery now. And I’m jest starting to see some clear light true the window 28 days ago I was looking thru a blurry window I know my road to recovery will be hard butt I have made my first steps. Take my advice stay clean you will enjoy your life looking thru a clean window not a dirty window. Don’t let these fucked up self medicating people make it look easy when there high and enjoying life and in control because it’s a front they feel like shit the next day after they sober up trust me bro I am and I was this type of person its not wert it life is short as it is. Live it the clean way. I wasted a lot of years . Brother sounds like you understand and you have your head scrod on strate do the Wright thing. FALCON

Mr stanford thank you for coming back to the forum I am still a little skeptical regarding your story ther are some holes in it that Iv notest. I will give you the benefit of dot for thetime beeing. If you need adderall to get thru you’re semester Ok do what you need to so you can finish your semester with good grads I highly agree with highonlife he had suggested you take a brake take one or to semesters off of law school and regroup reaeset your brain a restar with clear thinking. First of all you need to get clean of adderall it sounds like you will not handle working in law without adderall do you want to take adderall the rest of your life because adderall will raub your soul and make you a zombie then what will you do when you become a zombie how will you practice law believe me it will happen sooner or latter if it already hasn’t turned you into a zombie yet. Take some time off and clear your body from the adderall. As far as your mom is concerned moms are very good in reading there children its part of a women’s DNA.Thay are programmed to take care off there off springs no mater how old you are so the expression mom is always Wright its true. My mom is 80 see still treats me like her little boy I assume her senses ar correct about your health mom knowes you better then anyone else does . As far as getting a minimal paying job that is nonsense you are to smart guy. can I Make a suggestion I suggest if law is a pation for you then find a temporary job at a law form doing what ever it takes data eatery or research or even bringing coffee to the lawyers do what ever it takes to find that typ of job in a law firm and you will learn the everyday opparaetion of the law business. Then you can go back to school and continue your education if the pation is still there. The answer to the gustion about the old Indian shamon is if you want to hear the stone hit the water you must first clear your mind of all out side extractions. Stanford please be truthful on your story I have a feeling you are not you haven’t yet convientst’ me you are truthful ganing my trust and respect will be your first step in Quitting adderall Welcome back THE FALCON

sky-- Hi welcome to quitting adderall you are jest a beginner in your addeall use or abuse we all start the way you have with a low dos and occasional use. The occasional use terns out to be a daily user the next stage will bee a higher dos because your body has built up a tolerance level . Your brain will need more adderall in order to produce the euphoric feeling we experience when takeing this drug believe me my brother read some hoarer stores on this web sit its incredible how much of this junk is used some X users tell stores of 300 milligrams a day this a very high amount of adderall the brain still is not satisfied these users get to the point we call zombie land there is not a dos that will satisfy the brains need For this drug. Hallucinations paranoia anxiety mood disorder depression and the big D 6feet under get my drift brother. The moral of this story is you have some chose’s to make at your stage of using adderall. One if you need it for a thru mental disorder like ADD then use it wisely as your dr proscribed for you. Second chose is stop using ASAP before you get to the point of no return which would be a addiction to adderall or anther stimulant drugs. It is jest a mater of time when you will reach this point of zombie land good luck I hope you will make the Wright dissection my brother keep in touch with our members let us know how you are doing you came to this web site for a reason maybe you are scared that’s OK we are here for you if you need help. THE FALCON 27days clean after 10years of use and 6years of abuse with addiction.

finding freedom sister hypochondriac is a form of paranoia you are thinking about the worst Let me start by saying paranoia is a side effect of to much adderall in your system. I felt the same way you do know for me I was laying on the coach and feeling my heart beat pounding like my haert is jest going to stop and said to my self this is the end for me I will die today. Is far as wanting to run away for me it was Montana I jest wanted to run and get away work on a hors farm or something like that. Any now lets talk about the problem in hand Wright now you are OUT off adderall from what I am understanding so lets see your options you could call your drug pusher that’s what I call the shrink and let him know the predicament you are in. I think your shrink most likely will give you what you need at the monument more pills and he will insist and give you a ultimatum and ream you out about thanking more then prescribed for you .Next option go to detax hospital if things are so bad were you are thinking suicidal . Or cold turkey now sins this is the best time for it now because you are out of pills right now it will take you about one week of a hard crash but I do suggest that you take off work using sick days or what ever you can tell your employer you are sick Wright now your mind is playing with your soul at this moment and you must concur the feeling that you can not function without adderall because you can do it sister there is your options. Suicide is not a option for anyone . I understand your pain you are hearting reel bad now you got people whom love you family and friends if you do diced cold turkey .I think you should have someone with you to help get thru your crash I did my crash took one week of hell so I know you can do it you can girl. I still have a bottle of adderall on my dresser when I feel like shit I look at the fuckin battle and the battle talks to me I don’t want to go thru hell week again. I do not want to us anymore I presently hit the bottom. If you need to talk in private email me go to my profile page you will find a private email we are all her for you your not alone I know it seemes like you are at thes moment butt your not we are all her for you baby . THE FALCON

HI to mr Stanford I am hopping you are reading these post I jest what to say I herd your call for help. I have a special gift into reading people. learned it at the school of hard knocks. Our members are willing and able to help you jest bee truthful in your posts please do not be embarrassed or even ashamed adderall has the power to make you feel like your superman and also makes a person exaggerate a little please come back to the forum let use try to work out your addiction problem. Our members do not judge so don’t bee scared of that jest be truthful on your post this web site is better then any shrink you can go to out there where real people and the best thing about it you don’t have to pay any money how thus that sound to you Come back to the forum we herd your cry. Yours truly members of quitting adderall FALCON

Good morning my brothers and sisters another sunny day her in the windy city .Got in early last night I was very tierd I’m seeing the world with a new pair of classes today its amazing what you see and when your head is clear no alcohol no adderall no bensos butt I hade 4 ice teas and half a pack of American spirit yellow. It’s a great feeling waking up without a hangover. I told you my friends I could do it did not let the temptation take over my mind I became stronger then the erg to party the music gave me the high the Buzz there’s noting better then live music it gets your dopameans Going without the drugs If this old time guy can do it all you young bloods can do it also I know my friends its easier said then don thank you all LOVE you all THE FALCON

My brothers and sisters thank you all for your encouraging words it dos make a deferens when you have support and I know I’m not alone in my journey for recovery. Well My friends Don’t worry about me going back to my old life style you see I don’t have much time left in this dimension. I am over the hill for thus whom do not no this meaning it means I’m over 50. I Don’t have to many more chances to make it Wright and my clock is running down this is jest reality my friends Look at it this way I have bin there and don that I have a valume of war storey’s I can share with you all. I have no regrets my friends. So what I am trying to say is I am tierd of my old ways of living life burnt out and I do not what to go back to dos old ways I am blest I hit bottom and I’m still on this earth. What I need to do now is learn how to live without substances the abuse of legal and illegal ones .It will bee very hard to relearn how to live a strait life butt it is something I must do for myself. Need to learn how to go back into the Chicago blues seen and do it strait this is my challenge how to soulsolise being strait how to have fun strait . I will not relapse I no longer desire that old life style Its history now I will be like a new baby learning how to walk without the baby walker. So all you can do for me is give me your support and your blessings. When I am ready and I have accomplished my goal in staying clean and sober I would like to help others with there addiction problem this will give me my purpose in life. I guess every one has there own shit to deal with the only deference between peoples shit is only how firm it is sorry about my crud explanation about deferens’s in everyone’s unique shit .Well its Saturday night and I’m going out because if I don’t go out I will turn into a tarantula and climb the fuckein walls of my house boat I will be tested tonight and I will Ac my test see moist of you have your school exames I have my life copping test See my point shit is all the same jest deferent degrees of firmness. Thank you my new siyber and sober friends I truly do appreciate you all. LOVE FALCON 26days clean

.I think you found the right website we can help you what do you say HIGHTONLIFE Finding Freedom tell us wy you ar screwed.tolk to us.

Hay brothers and sisters it looks like another lonely dark night its Friday night jest got paid and ready to party very hardy butt that’s my old life. I know I am not going back it was to painful to get to the places where I’m in now got to think positive and get thru anther dark night yes my friends depression is back to Pay me a little visit. Anyhow, its time to call the china man and have them delver some Mongolian beef then I will witch a move close my phone so the old party friends stop calling. Hay falcon what up tonight I tell them yoo bros your on your own tonight I’m on the wagon train to cleansvill . Man I cant wait for this wagon train to stop rolling I need to get off this ride and move on with my new life. It’s a hard trail as most of you know. I’m depending on you all for the support I am needing at thes time I’m surprising my self cant believe I’m doing it well had no options HIT the bottom hard and there was no were to go butt up. Well that all for my rambling on time to call the china man. 25 DAYS CLEAN AND STILL COUNTING // LOVE YOU ALL ONE DAY AT A TIME YA MAN ……… THE FALCON

Thank you for the heads up my brother I am doing all that you suggested I guess I need to go thru the presses time will heal .FALCON

Ashley supper grate article and video you are doing a great jab girlfriend. Keep up the great work in passing the word out on this drug. FALCON

HIGHONLIFE YOO !! how are you doing HIGHONLIFE I have Ben reading your post sounds like you are far into your recovery well my brother I have a question for you. Your 5 mounts clean now when do you get some fuckin energy back I am so dame tierd the worst part of my day is getting up in the morning I am a fuckin ZAMBEE. I have 3 cups of coffee in about 1 hours time then I need to take a nap for about 30 or 45 minutes before getting out off the hous at about 1030 am what’s wrong whit this picture bro. I’m jest asking for your expereance about the deferent stages of recovery that I can expect. If any other Advenced members would like to share there experience I would be grateful. THE FALCON 24 dayes CLEAN

Mr stanford my brother slow your ass down you will get thou law school. I will explain how you will accomplish this goal . Right now I need to go out and help a friend so I will give you my game plan later tonight when I get back home Intel then have a cup of herbal tei and chill out the adderall is giving you this anxiety. Mr stanford before I spend my time on the computer corresponding with you regarding your goals getting thru your law school I need to know one honest thing from you see a native Indian tolled me if you throw a stone into a lake you can see the ripples of the water but can you heir the sound of the stone droping into the water. I will give you the anser latter. My question is are you playing US For attention or are you for REEL please respond trustfully and you will receive the help you are seeking. THE FALCON If you need tolk to me in privete fell free to email me, you will find email on my profile page.

Hi Angie I have jest read your post dated July 16 2012 sorry for not reading your post earlier all I can say is WOW this story you are telling sounds so familiar. It is totally Me to some extent .Your cry for help is very justified your man has a large problem from what I am reading in to . . Angie Let us know how he is now its bin a few mounts since you wrote your post. I assume things are the same or even worse. Well let me give you my 20 cents worth of some wisdom and experience .At some point you will need to give your boyfriend the big ultimatum its ME or the Drugs I am understanding he has depression and probably needs to take antidepressants the rest of his life butt the stimulants problem is defiantly a addiction issue and needs to be addresst ASAP at a professional level he is doing uppers and downers I know what its like I have Ben down that road my self to many chemicals’ in his body that is whey he is a zombie .I fell for you girl love can be blind so I am hoping that you will come to some realization in your life when you give him the a ultimatum because as you are probably felling your self getting fucked up and its bringing you down also you may need to move on with your life you are still young don’t waste your life on something you can not change he is an addict at this point am I Wright probably I am Wright I can read people very well. Angie I’m afraid for him he is calling out for help he is calling out very loud and you are the only one whom hers his cry he will need to hit rock bottom to realize that he needs help unfortunately that’s what happens to addicts they realize that there health and ther loved ones are degenerating ore the next option is death by OD or suicide I know it’s a hard reality to except but that’s the way it is you are doing your best trying to convince your man to get clean. He needs to make the decision on his own your harping on at him will only drive him ferreter away from you. ASHLEY if you are reading this post lets try to help our sister ANGIE your advice is usually logical THE FALCON.

K K keep on the path your going on your step down method is working. Your symptoms are all normal chronic fatigue is all part of getting clean we all experienced it . Don’t give in stick to the plan you described to us on your forum. Your almost there baby don’t forget you still have the drug in your system you need to clear it out of your body completely before you see the benefits. Don’t weary about getting fatter exercise will take care of that issue when your ready. Try to control your eating habits getting off adderall makes you hungry if you get the munches eat fruit and vegetables all ways have it ready with you at all times trust me K K you will have your Natural energy return to you very soon, THE FALCON

MR. STANFORD Thank you for your kind rebuttal you went easy on me. I do appreciate it and you have my respect. Don’t be afraid my brother fear is a very strong emotion. Fear must be concord in order to become successful in your guest to have money successful folks and our brothers and sisters in arms have trained to dismiss there fears. Fear is not a weakness of character do not be scared my friend. Success will come to you in one form or another it depends on how hungry you are for it sounds like you are hungry for success so you will be successful in what ever you do this is what my intuition tells me. Jest keep your options’ open I jest feel your fear of getting thru law school will beat you up and the adderall you need will rob your soul. Last comment I have Ben a poor man and I have bin a rich man making 250.000 a year for most of my carrier I am back to being a poor man regarding to wealth or how much money I have accumulated butt I am content see Iv Ben on both sides of the street. Success comes in deferent forms Helping your fellow man without any monumental return is a successful . I hope my point is taken . I guess we are now friends thank you THE FALCON

Yoo hi Mr.ore Mrs. Stanford I am reading your post I want to say you got some fancy vocabulary there I had to look at a dictionary to translate most of your words reading your post trying to decipher what the hell you are trying to say speak in plan English next time. I only have a high school degree. Well here are my thoughts in my basic non intellect language O yes I forgot I did Go to college the name of the school was fuckin school of hard knocks yes it was a real education and a real school. Her is my question to you my brother or sister I suspect you are a brother whey don’t intellect people put more information on there profile its beyond me. What are you all hiding the facts about your self its not only you my brother its 98%of the members what am trying to express’s is be your self you are not being judged. So if you cant get thru sandfert U without adderall How the hell are you going to perform in a court room will you still need adderall to perform your lawyer tasks. Or will you not need adderall anymore after you your intellect law school. Which is it with adderall or without adderall. It sounds to me like you will need the stimulation for life am I right or am I wrong. Sorry for being so hard on you my brother I jest am trying to open your eyes trying to say in my own basic language get off the shit before you get to stanfert because if you are unable to get thru school without adderall you currently will not get thru a law trial without addearll see my point go for it the naturall way if you can. Don’t Push your self thru law school if you need adderall to do it with. I suspect you are trying to live up to someone’s expectations for you think hard about law school its not for everyone so don’t beet up on your self if you think you cant get thru law school without this evil drug. My brother adderall will fuck you at the end and adderall will win the battle it will take your soul away from you sooner or latter the longer you take adderall the more your tolerance to the drug increases it’s the way it is. I hop you don’t think I’m a ass I’m jest trying to clean your reading classes so you can see a bit better If you would like to give me a privet e mail fell free to do so. Hopefully your friend 24 days clean yes baby finally having ok day THE FALCON