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Kyle_Chaos Hey brother I’m going to be a little tuff on you now. I feel like you not only let your self down butt you also let your friends members of this web site down to. So my brother her I go what the fuck are you thinking about you where doing so well off the shit yes you relapsed big time not jest one or two pills butt 20- 20xr its suicidal the amount of shit you took it could kill a 1500 pound hours why don’t you jest get it over with and do some meth. It would have Ben a lot cheaper for you or are you scared of meth maybe theirs to much battery assed in the shit you crazy kid . I jest like to know what triggered this binge and also how much alcohol did you drink dont bull shit with me brother. I know you drank with the adderalls Hay brother I think you have a drug abuse problem. There is no other explanation on whey you took so many pills that’s one hell of a binge your. I will call you lucky chaos from now on because your still alive after that kind of fucken binge if you need help with a drug abuse issue you have all the recourses on bass to help you with your drug abuse problem you may have some underling problems you need to deal with first this web site cant help you with a underling issue so go to the air force bass clinic and get the consoling you need .In my experience you did not relapse you crashed brother theirs a deferent’s. We don’t want to loose you bro so for your friends on quitting adderall web site please get the help you need don’t be ashamed or feel down on your self we all fuck up jest learn from this keep your post going we all are here for each others support. So lets start back at step 1 quit using adderall and what ever else your on you can do it brother I know you can I still have hop for you I know your strong you did it once you can do it again one good thing is you haven’t gone back to adderall long term so it will be easier to withdraw again.

I agree with quittonce your are putting your brother between you and your addiction if he tells you that you cant have a pill you will get angry at him whey do you want to jeopardize your relationship with your brother because that’s exactly what will end up happening .By by giving your brother the responsibility of you adderall doses you are telling him that you are NOT 100% committed into quitting adderall don’t play games with this pill it always will win the play it is a strong Opponent .You need to be in control of your on adderall bottle You should be in charge of your own shit don’t give the responsibility to your brother. I went cold turkey over 80 days ago and I will never take adderall again it nearly cost me my life along with bensos and alcohol .One last comment to make I still have a nearly a full bottle of adderall on my night stand by keeping it there and looking the battle gives me my will power not to use the shit again I look at the bottle and I get disgusted of how the shit fucked up my life it all started out with a normal use and escalated into a living hell. I will discarded the bottle on my own terms‘. Then my game will be won. FALCON

Hey lucky sounds like your over the hill good for you girl you sound very up beet and your thinking a lot more clearer keep up your great will power .Thank you for your feedback on fish oil it dos work I have Ben taking 8,000 milacrames a day for the past 6 years to control bad cholesterol it works well. Yerba mate tea is a good stimulant it does contain some caffeine but it’s a great alternative to coffee it’s a little milder on your stomach because its low assiduity Keep us posted on your progress your friend FALCON

Cmcloughlin1218 Hey brother I know exactly how you feel I am also inflicted with depression all my life . I also self medicated my self with all kinds of shit more shit then I want to go into now. I am also a father of two kids 20 and 24 and I am a screw up myself it seems like everything I do I fuck up the drugs I have taken in my life time did not help my situation in keeping a job. I finally learned late in my life how to stop using drugs and deal with life the natural way clean and sober it took me a life time to get to learn these skills I am angry at my self for letting my life pass me by. So learn from me and my fuck ups. I hit rock bottom so many times butt always managed to get out of the hole but this lasts time I was near death hit the bottom so fucken hard there was no way out butt up luckily I had some good people lift me up . I came across this great web site by destiny Like you have. I guit using adderall about 83 days now. I understand where your coming from believe me my brother it sounds like we came from the same school . Keep taking your antidepressants as described by your doctor it will take a little time for your antidepressants to start working on you so be patient and hopefully you will not have any bad side affects from them .Also when the erg to use drugs come knocking on your door think about your babies they need a father that they can look up to kids are very perceptive they pick up on everything so show them your love as often as you can get clean find a job and move on with your life clean and sober. FALCON

Hey friend Adderall is not a drug you can turn on and off 7 years on the shit is a long time and Im sure your addicted .I am glad to heir your dissection to stop using adderall butt don’t think its like a peparation for a new job like buying a new pair of shoes or a new tie .When quitting aderall there is a crash landing period and a withdraw period you must go thru. I am truly hoping you will be ok at your new job without the shit. I don’t want to rain on your parade I jest know how difficult the first 2 weeks off adderall is. Doing cold turkey at the same time you start a new job will not be an easy task. If it gets to ruff on you with out adderall may I suggest you step down you will have less ill effects I don’t want adderall to fuck up your new carrier . I am jest giving you the heads up on what to expect for your first two week off the shit pack your lunch with plenty of red bull best luck in your new job if you need use you know where to come please keep use posted on your progress good luck in your new job. THE FALCON

Ski dido dido dido your finaly getting it great job my brother I am so proud of you and your post. It was right on target --------- Goldman you got some fantastic advice from ski go with it baby . FALCON

Goldman sorry I thought you where a dud you’re a chick ok got it. Hey you sound very low right now. Please don’t let this be your last post if anything please feel free to message me personally it’s a private conversation I would like to help you with your angry feelings .I feel you are over reacting now when you quit using adderall you get all fucket up and your emotions are exaggerated and not in the right place this is what I think is going one with you plus you sound like you have a little depression going on this is all a normal reaction from quitting adderall and a normal reaction for your recovery we all went thru these feeling. I my self am going thru a bombardment of memories emotions feelings anger depression anxiety loneliness even it hits me to. The only deferens between you and me is I am older and I have learned how to control all these ill feelings basically I say to my self fuck it I can not control how other people react in deferent situations the only thing I can control is my self this is the attitude you need to adapt because if you let every thing get to you you will go crazy crazy big time so learn and train your self how to control your feelings. Your father loves you baby he may not show it in the way you expect him to you need to understand your father with his faults and everything else he dos. I can consult you about all kinds of shit jest give me a post on the messaging at my profile page hang in there baby .I promise you trust me things will get brighter for you jest have patients you are only in the beginning of recovery Love you your friend FALCON

Kyle_Chaos Hey brother don’t beet your self up jest learn from your relapse. I get it you jest needed a little taste to see what the fuck you where missing well you got your taste now you feel like site for using again this quilt is punishment for you so jest move on and finish your recovery butt if you use again we will need to track you down and kick some butt you catch my drift brother. Your friend FALCON

Goldman my brother you have noting to apologize for your post are very important to the content of this forum. I personally enjoy listing to your great progress you accomplished off of the evil fucket up adderall you are doing fantastic post as much as you need to if it helps you in your recovery that’s what this forum is all about supporting each other that’s the main objective here. With out this forum for quitting adderall. I could not have quit using the shit its bin a life safer for me I hit bottom very hard and would probably be 6 feet under by now without this web site. Your friend FALCON CLEAN for 80 days now

Goldmen thank you so much it means a lot to me when Im appreciated and respected . I love helping my fellow brothers and sisters there are to many people out there in the rat race that are narcissist .My believe is give everyone you come in contact with full respect and help in any way you can. There are so many people out there that are angry at life and bitter maybe life hasn't bin fair to them or whatever. I don’t blame them life is not fair at all. I cant blame anyone for being angry and grabby .My point is when someone is mean to you maybe life has not bin fair to that person so don’t take it personal jest give your respect anyways it will give you good character. FALCON

GetToIt Thank you for the kind words brother it gives me grate pleser when I can help with my experience. It also helps me in my own recovery process by knowing I can make a deference in someone’s life with a little wisdom and conman sense. I also thank all my quitting adderall members for reading my shit GOD bless you all. THE FALCON

quit-once Hay brother you are not a mouse so don’t compare your self with a little mouse brain you do not have memory loss do to the weed everyone needs a little to deal with the rat race we live in I see no problem with a Daly toke of weed . What you have is called getting old my brother you know what I mean. Also don’t beat your self up your not fucket up the brain is a amassing organ as you know it can repair and heal it self with time and adapt. I think maybe your memory loss may have a little to do with your condition of face blindness do you agree. There is also a great deal of evidence for the municipal qualities of weed it is good for many deferent conditions it’s safer than the junk we bin on like adderall , bensos ,sleeping pills and alcohol. So go easy on your self my friend. FALCON

Sorry for the late response hello and welcome I have read your post her is my opinion for what its worth. Your looking for work now and your scared you will not be able to perform your new job without adderall you are probably Wright you wont be functional if you do the cold turkey meted you need to crash land which means do nothing butt eat sleep and do supplements and jest baby your self because no joke it’s a ruff 7 to 10 days when you finally feel some relief . You said you will be 4 days short this month so if you are 100% commended in quitting adderall right now hers what you need to do you need to start stepping down your does Cut your 20milg pills in half go down to 40 milagrames per day space your does every 2 to 3 hours you then should have pills to last you to your next refill on dec 17 be honest with tour doctor tell them you are stepping down and you what to quit the adderall Reduce 5 milg every week intell you get to 0 milg you will be a littele tierd butt you will get thru it jest fine drink red bull. THE FALCON

Everything in moderation is my new model if you smoke weed once in a why’ll I believe its OK. I know someone who smokes a bong every night he is a burn out you can tell jest by talking to him he speaks very slow and forgets what he is trying to say. There is a deferent’s in getting stoned and getting high when your stoned out you jest site on the couch and vegetate out and you cannot conduct a conversation that makes any sense . When your high you are very aware of your surroundings and you can have a coherent conversation whit someone this is what I call being in control of your self. If you smoke a bong you will get stoned and loss your senses if you get high you have full control of your senses getting high is having 1 or 2 tokes of weed moderation is the key word her .I am talking from experience when I was between the age of 17 and 25 I smoked 3 or 4 joints a day I was stoned most of the time for 8 years strait at the age of 25 my old man died and I became head of the family this is when I stopped smoking weed all day. I needed a clear head to take care of the family business . I still indulge in a little weed 2 or 3 times a month but I do it in extreme moderation like I said 2 hits at the most jest to catch a little buzz and still be coherent and conduct a conversation that makes sense. The point I am trying to express is if you smoke to much you will incur a temporary memory loss Iv Ben on both sides of the street No bull shit. Your friend FALCON

Hey a question for you all its how much is to much that is the real debate here .A little story what would happens if you drank 5 coups of coffee in a 2 hour time line in the morning try it one time and you will experience what to much caffeine will do to your nerve system butt don’t make your coffee like piss water make it like the king of coffee makes it strong and bold. Well hers my story my first week of quitting adder all. I did this I drank 5 coups of coffee in the morning in a 2 hour window I fond my self walking around like I jest snorted a gram of coke .Then I found my self with a numb face had no feeling at all then I was holding my chest because my heart rate was 180 bpm then I found my self holding the phone getting ready to call 911 to come and take my sorry ass to the ER lucky for me I new how to bring me back down I drank a gallon of cammamel tea it columned me back down in about 30 minutes well theirs my story all you no it alls try it see what the fuck happens to the nerve system from to much coffee every thing in moderation like I said on my last post 3 cups of strong coffee in a 8 to 10 hour timeline will get you thru your day jest fine for most people some people of course have a higher tolerance to caffeine. THE FALCON

I will agree with cassie there is a limit to all substances even caffeine it is still a substance and to much of any substance is not good for you everything in moderation is the key .You can over stimulant your self on coffee, tea, red bull , gurana , yambe or whatever your using as a stimulant it is well documented at the hospitals ER room people coming in for taking to much of the so called legal stimulants. No more then 3 cups of joe in a 10 hour paired is expectable in my opinion . FAL:CON.

MajorLazer Hey there young blood first of all you have a stupid doctor why in the world is he proscribing you 2 deferent kinds of speed he is a fucket up doctor a quack or what ever. Its only my opinion of course I do not have a PHD butt I did graduate from the college of comen sense .My comen senses tells me you are in deep shit my little brother we need to get you off this shit ASAP before you DIE and your parents will need to put you in the ground .It is not your fault little bro its your doctors fault for medicating you with this shit you probably needed the drugs to get you thou your school years butt you do not need it any more .You can live a very productive life stimulant free You are already experiencing symptoms of speed withdraw first is tolerance the longer your on speed the more you will need to take to be effective for you. You are loosing sleep not good it will bring you into zombie land if it hasn't already. Your social life is spiraling down you jest what to be alone and be tweaked out your heart is pounding like it wants to blow up and it will pop sooner or later. All these sings are telling your body STOP GIVING ME SPEED .So here is my question to you little brother are you ready to quit using speed are you ready little bro think about your family if or even when you die from this shit we call adderall speed junk .I see you have some sense in your head because you came looking for help and you can see the problems the speed is doing to you and your body .This is the first step in quitting adderall its the realization that your fucked up. You fond this web shit not by accident you where led here by a higher power so take advantage of it our members where in the shoes as your in now and we will give you the support you need in getting clean welcome little brother good luck in your withdral and recovery time. Your new friend THE FALCON

Hey Sky I am so happy for your success 60 days clean that’s reel cool brother. Keep up the will power never go back to the shit I still remember your first post you where so tweaked out now you sound very coherent and in the loop god bless keep it going your friend FALCON

MikeyB1ue Hey brother you are not of week character you are on a very potent nerve stimulant it is a battle trying to quit adderall you where two weeks clean and you went back on the shit it jest shows you how potent adderall is. as you already experienced adderall will slowly rub your soul and make you go into zombie mode. All the symptoms you are having is typical of the long term use of this shit we all go thru it and this is why our members quit using this shit we have all reached the point you are in now this is why we all decided to get clean you cant live your life with adderall it will roub you bro you got thru your college so be don with adderall you are in the work force it sounds like this fucked up adderall is fucking up your carrier so my brother make your mind up for once and for all to quit taking adderall you cant stop and start the shit like a seesaw this will only cause you more discomfort there is no easy way bro it will take grate will power and about 1 year of real recovery this web site will help you when your mind is made up to quit using adderall. The ball is in your court now take the bulls by the horn before the shit will destroy your life relationships and your carrier. Its never to late you can do it jest get in the right mind set and make the commitment I know you can do it don’t drag it out get your life back under your control you will be happy again please believe me brother good luck FALCAN

Hey KK welcome back to the forum its good to heir you are a mount clean now . It is all good you are on track tierd no motivation depression its all part of the recovery process don’t worry. I am 70 days clean now and I still have all the symptoms you are describing from what I am understanding it takes 6 to 9 mounts to get your natural energy levels back .You and I will jest need to tuff it out. Hang in there you have bin clean for 30 days please don’t relapse stick to our game plan . I am very familiar with depression it has become part of my life I have clinical depression for 20 years now. If you do not get some relief from your depression in 30 more days you may need to temporally take a antidepressant drug something like wellbutran is a great drug for quitting adderal it has a slit stimulating affect it bumping up dopamine levels keep on posting let use know how you are doing FALCON

unod1a Hey Please don’t bash antidepressants. Iv bin on them for 20 years now . I have drug resistant depression the drugs’ work for me for a brief period of time then thay stop working and I need to change medications often some people need antidepressants on a temporary basses some pealle like me need to take antdepressants ther hole life .You are lucky that you are not inflected with this chemical imbalance .It bathers me tremendously when people like yourself are so ignorant about what real depression is you have no Idea about what clinically depression is. People have no choice butt to live with this disability on a Dayley basses every one gets depression in moist casses its temporary it goes away as fast as it came . Depression can be broth on by life trauma like the loss of a loved one maybe loss of a job or quitting adderall veterans coming home from war with post dramatic stress syndrome. For us with clinically depression it does not go away we need to live and learn how to deal with depression and in some casess if not treaded people will commit suicide to relive themselves from the pain yes my friend it’s a real pain internal pain. So you are totally ignorant by telling some one not to take antidepressants. .Count your blessing friend you are not suffering from depression. FALCON

Hi brothers and sisters the holiday season is amongst us now it is a very difficult time of the year to get thru especially people recovering from drug dependents. We will do some reflection of our life the past and the for coming future its scary I now. We will visit with family and friends even if we don’t like to its all about respect and something we must do .We will remember our loved ones who have past on we will remember the veterans who sacrifice there life for the freedom we enjoy in the USA today .Yes it’s a bag of mixed emotions good and bad ones .Her is my point lets not forget the journey we Ben thru quitting adderall we all went thru hell with  cold turkey and the mental battle from the  recovery  lets not let temptation and the erg to use drugs get the best of use this holiday season keep your will power strong if the erg to use drugs come knocking on your brain jest look back to the hell adderall caused in your life and hopefully it will deter you from using drugs. I would like to wish you all a happy healthy holiday season. THE FALCON

Yoo SKY no worries I understand where your coming from. I’m proud of you brother you keep up your will power. And don’t forget my message.

All right All right great job SKY your donning supper good my brother you have come a long way sins your first post about 4 weeks ago .I am proud of you and you have my respect a man who keeps his word is a thru gentleman. Lets not call the afternoon nap lame now. You will make use all feel bad. Lets jest call it a power nap a regenerating 20 minutes of piece. congratulations bro keep it going your friend FALCON.

StartingOver3 Hey Tom supper great job my brother. You did it congratulations its good to heir a good successes story. Jest don’t forget where you jest came from its very easy to relapse at this point of your recovery .How are tings with Megan if you love her go get her bro jest don’t be pushy about getting her back take it slow. Good luck in your new life keep in touch. FALCON