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lea Hey sister do not be scared of the shrink his or her blood is as red as yours and min they put there paints on the same way as you and I. Do not be intimidated by the shrink. I personally think shrinks are ignorant money making quakes they do not have the answers to our mental issues they only experiment on use by trying out deferrent drugs and maybe they get lucky and hit on one that work’s on us. I am talking from experience I have bin going to a shrink for 20 years now when ever I go there I end up teching him something about the human mind your a number to them and like sky said your the bottom line for there business. I can not tell you to come clean or or not to come clean because I don’t now much about you and your history and what other medications you are taking . The only thing I can suggest to you if your not sour what to tell the shrink is be nutral I am anticipating the shrink will ask you how your doing on your Ritalin jest answer I do not need a scrip today I have cut back and I have some left over the end. Your Friend FALCON

Hey SKY I am proud of you my brother I new you had it in you to stay clean you and i are not out of the woods yet the main thing here is you are giving 110 % of your will power brother you have my full respect and I don’t give it out unless you errand it and you have. Get up and do that thing Your friend and comrade in the fight to quitting adderall FALCON

Motivation_Follows_Action Hey sorry I am late with this post I jest read your post on relapsing today NO I am not going to beet you up because I like you and you do have honer and good corrector. So I will give you a big hug and a peck on the check and tell you you did not fuck up lets jest call it a little hiccup the main thing is that you realize what has has happind and learn from it it was not a mistake it was a learning lessen for you and it probably made you a stronger person don’t beat up on your self to bad I hope you will get the job butt if you don’t please go easy on your self it jest wasn’t meant to be or maybe it is meant to be and you will get the job. Your patients are getting the best of you get a hold of your self you know the corporate world makes desisons in slow motion thy jest take there sweet old time be patient my love you jest may be surprised Jest do all your quit adderall friends don’t start using again you will make it in the corporate world without adderall you don’t need the shit to be successful did you forget the grip this fucken drug had on you you lost your old job because of adderall stay clean Love FALCON

Love it girl are you really from down under.

No sister you are doing what calms your mind right now hay you do what you need to so you can recover wher all in the same boat what are you doing home on a Friday night. I jest got home 11:15 ct I made it a early night I’m a little tiered tonight keep up your good spirets up your doing great. Your Friend FSALCON

Cody and ski Cody hope your withdrawal is not to bad hang strong my brother it does get easier if this old fuck can do it so can you your blood is young and you will probably recover faster then me. I had a good day today I cant fucken believe that’s 3 days in a row. I still have my depression but I know its something I need to deal with the rest of my life it will never leave me alone . SKI Hey my brother I hope you took my advice and got a good night sleep forget the fucken credit cards they will never give you piece of mind thy hang over your head for a long time. Don’t wast your energy thinking about them its only material shit. I know I was there at point of my life big tine like 100 grand it took me 8 fucken years to pay the cards off . I will tell you the adderall did not help your credit cared use it made spending money like I don’t give a shit I will pay them off some day your head is clear now so make a battle plain on how your going to pay them down and stick to your plain jest like quitting adderall you stuck with the plan now you got 90 days under your belt .One more thing brother ski cut the fucken credit cards in half they are poison jest keep one card for emergency hotels car rentals because you do need at least one cared to get these services

neversaynever Hey sister congratulations 30 days your over the hump. I new you could do it you got a lot going for you your 3 year old and your husband whom you will be united with in the near future its a blessing in deskies that you got busted it oped up your eyes to what is real important its family that is the big picture in life we can not be selfish we most put family first then our self’s second. I am proud of you please keep up your great will power us member friends are her for you I guess we are like your internet family in a way stay strong Your brother FALCON

Sky all right brother now you got the spirit bro you will be better tomorrow get a good night sleep and stop thinking so much try to keep your mind calm it will help when I get fucked up I try not to think to much I try to blank my mind of negative thoughts you cant salve all your problems over night its like gutting adderall you know we need to put our time in so we can recover no fast way around it .Its the same with calming your mind it takes practice and patients I call it cultivation of a calm mind its a life long practice you need to work it every day and one day after your mind is cultivated to become calm it will come natural with out much effort its a old TAI CHI practice for a calm and gives you that inner well being we all seek out. Your friend FALCON

Sky My brother come on man get up and do that thing you have had some very good days so far. Your jest in a little slump right now it will pass soon look how far you came hay come bro 3 mounts clean man that is a mil stone bro don’t you give up your drive tomorrow is a new day you will feel better when I am down you lift me back up I am doing the same for now so get up and do that thing bro. Your friend FALCON

Hey Cody hope you are having a better day hang in there brother you need jest to put your time in there is no fast way to recovery .Hey guys I cant fucken believe it I have had 2 days in a row where I feel half way descent .I think its my hiking in the woods every day that’s giving me a little extra energy I better shut the fuck up now so I don’t jinks my self. Thank you all my member friends FALCON

All my fellow members some of you may no my history with bensos xanax the mother of all bensos. I had a 20 year addiction with xanax .I was taking 8 milligram in 24 hours 1 milligram every 3 hours during the day and in the middle of the night the manufactures recommend doses is no more than 4 milligrams per day. You can not go cold turkey on bensos they must be tapered down gradually for xanax the tapering down schedule is 0.25 milligrams for every two weeks it took me 11 mounts to get off xanax warning do not go off cold turkey with any benso drugs you can die or have irreversible brain damage .It is the nastiest withdraw there is no fast way to get off bensos O there is one way you need to be hospitalized put to sleep for two weeks and monatured 24-7 butt even then you will still have withdraw when you wake up butt you are mainly out of the woods as far as having a seizure goes. Stay away from bensos thay are a bitch to stop after using them long therm the drug stops working on you. Your tolerance levels goes sky high the more you take the more anxiety you get its a viscus circlal. FALCON

Hey guys finally see some light felt descent today its a little better then felling like hard shit had a burst of energy butt I am shore its short lived. I will probably feel like shit again tomorrow at lest I know that I am making some progress Clean 113 days today Thank you all my friends FALCON Hang in ther cody it took me over 3 mounts to feel this day.

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Searchingsoul9 OK sorry for upsetting you I jest needed to open up your eyes. I want so bad to help you because like I said I know some young girls that have your condition and I have watched them deteriorate into bones and skin and ended up in the hospital .I do realize money is a issue with lots of people you should look into public add in your state I think you may be qualified I hope. Good luck baby girl and again sorry for the rude awakening my intentions are only to see you healthy. FALCON

Hi yes its me again the pain in your ass MIA yes I know that feeling very well I will stay on your ass Intel you get the proper help you need. 1st question is this the same Dr whom gave you 3 mounts of adderall stash if it is run run fast and don’t look back this Dr is not the right one for your conditions you have many psychological and mental issues you need to deal with. Question # 2 Do you really what to quit using adderall are are you jest bull shiting your self and our members .Quistion # 3 are you willing to give your stash to your mom and finally tell here you need help. Quition #4 What will you do about your alcohol use it seems like its getting out of control. Quistion #5 what are you going to do about your ED OK baby girl you got my attention today I believe you are going to set your self up to failure by going to school right now the school will always be there for you when you get your health butt your health is a ticking time bomb getting ready to go boom its jest a Mather of time. ED your body is running on pure adrenalin with no real nutrition your fuel is your your adderal eventually there will be no more reserve left in you to function a normal life you will be in the hospital soon not by your own free will butt by your body starting to shot down .I have seen it before with girls your age with ED problems you will collapse and be in that place I call hitting the bottom ED adderall alcohol not a good combination at all something will give in and I am afraid it will be your orgens. I am no fucken DR. I am jest another addict like you trying to live life no its not easy its a hared trip we are on. I will ask you again will you get the proper help you need to get your body and mind healthy so you can finish your education you will not make it in school at this point in your life your plat is overfilled job getting up in the morning to go to school ED issues adderall addictions heavy alcohol us pulse your physical health is poor Hello girlfriend . Ho are you kidding no one butt your self stop lying to yourself if you think you will heal yourself by reading a forum or you think school is the answer for a happy life well its not maybe in the futher when you get the help you desperately need butt not now not in tell you get a Handel on your issues. Please get the professional help you need ASAP. I am really concerned about you I do not want you to hit bottom and be forest to go into a sicke unit at the hospital.Your very concerned Friend sincerely yours FALCON

Motivation_Follows_Action What ever works do it jest stay off the shit when you feel the erg to use think about how you felt right before you quit using adderall and how adderall fucked up your life it will bring you back on track fast . Keep your chart posted it jest may help someone out in there own recovery Sincerely yours FALCON

Hi when thous feelings come knocking at your door remember the big picture your doing it for your family your kids and your husband and your health you are keeping the family together now its all on you yes its a huge responsibility and your doing OK your head is in the right place now jest keep it up things will get better for you it takes time you know we need to pay the piper now with our time only time without adderall will heal us. Sincerely Yours FALCON

Hey sky sorry brother butt the bottom is a place where your life is jeopardize when you basically have a disability and can not function any longer most people at this point need professional help some people can get up and recover by sour will power . In my opinion this is hitting bottom unfortunately some people need to hit that point to recover from there addictions. Your friend FALCON

Hey choase you know I care about you and only want to see you turn your life around I remember your post a few weeks ago before you started welbutran you where pretty fucked up with PAWS can you remember . You do have my respect brother I wish I can run like you but my time is over the hill and I need to limit my physical exertion I fucked up my body from all the years off abuse it has limit my work outs to hiking every day. I need to get out into the fresh air and cleans my mind . I don’t have all the answers the only thing I can offer you guys on this forum is my experience in life that’s the only thing I have to offer you guys learn from my mistakes don’t make the same mistakes I have it would make me happy. Common sense is one of our strongest things we have to keep us safe if you loose your conman sense you will get hurt or hurt someone else that was my point on my post no disrespect . Every bottle of medication comes with a long list of warnings and side effects printed out for you when you get your prescription from the pharmacist always read it . Your Friend FALCON

Choase Hey brother read the bottle on any antidepressant do not drink will taking this medication . You are a runner right do you rehydrate after you run yes you do when your drinking you are dehydrating your body of water that means your brain is thirsty for water that’s WY we get hung overs that is WY we feel like shit after we drink my philosophy is a class of water for every drink you have. Hey second thing you cant get shit faced when you drink everything in moderation as I always say no your limit I have no problem with some soulsal drinking butt you need to no when to stop. I mean no more then 2 or 3 drinks that is soulsal drinking not drinking to the point where your out of control always maintain control of your self it should be part of your new life chance program. I used to drink them down big time I have changed I do not drink like that any longer my limit is 2 jack Daniels on the rocks I am feeling fine and totally in control and having a good time everything in moderation my friend I can not preach full sobriety because I am not a monk and you are not a monk nether but if you cannot control your alcohol use you are a alcoholic and you can not drink any more not even one this is when you most be in sobriety and not drink any alcohol at all jest like we cant use adderall any more we are addicts we cant use adderall any longer because one pill leads to two and so on . I don’t think you are in that category of drinking at least I hop your not. Next thing when you where on adderall you can drink and drink all fucken night long that was me non stop drinking along side of all the other shit I was on so my point is when you got up in the morning what was the best remedy for a hang over that’s right choase pop some adderall your hang over is gone am I right. Since you do not have the pleasure of poping adderall any longer you feel the full effects of your binge drinking you fallow me so fair its all common sense that’s all it is when we use adderall all common sense goes out the window. I can not tell you all the stooped ass shit I did when I was doing adderall drinking and poping pillis I hop I put some conman sense back into your head Your Friend FALCON

Searchingsoul9 Hi I hate to be a kill joy butt I know you would have relapse I new it by raiding your post you said you have 3 mounts of stash how the hell are going to stop using adderal. Like I said before you are not 100% committed into stopping adderall you are not ready you are a Yong girl with to meany issues in your life ED anxiety adderall addiction alcohol .Its like an alcoholic trying to stop drinking but he has a case of scotch in his home how the hell are you going to stop using adderall with 3 mounts of stash in your posesen its not possible you need to hit rock bottom before you stop using hit rock bottom yes its the only way you will get healthy im so afraid to say I jest hope you will not have any permanent damage to your organs when you do hit the bottom so please don’t give me any more of your bull shit baby girl you are not ready for the commitment to stop using adderall jest as I said before you need professional help you will never stop using with all that stash you have who are you kidding around with not me baby girl I can read you like a novel. Sorry for being so direct and I hope I did not hurt your feeling that is not my intention I jest want to see you get the proper help you need to get healthy . Your Friend FALCON

Bebra 77 Hey you sound a little calmer we are all on the same boat together tomorrow is a new day and you will have a fresh new out look. Please don’t relapse you will hate yourself if you do keep your post going tomorrow I want to know how your day is. Your friend FALCON

Debra77 Debra baby get a hold of your self your having a bad day they come on in waves don’t you dare relapse you have traveled to fair 4 week baby that’s a lot of time you have invested in your recovery come on sake it off tomorrow is another day you will feel better in the morning please don’t do it hang in there keep on line we will talk you down. Its 110 days for me and I still have more bad days then I have good days but there are good days that I have also and I caries thous days when thy come. Your friend and supporter FALCON

neversayneverHey sister your doing OK you are making very good sense .We all need to know that the addiction is etched into our memory and we need to live with that the rest of our life we will always have that erg to use again it will never leave us. Jest looking at the orange pill will give you flash backs from the past and give you severs up your spin our will power most be stronger then the erg to use adderall ..See I do care about you your friend FALCON

Members 7 posts LocationSan Antonio, TX Posted Today, 09:11 PM I have been off this medicine now since Dec 13 and I still feel awful. I have gained a ton of weight. I'm exhausted and just want to sleep. My skin has improved but that's about it. I honestly think I'm starting it up again. Why not? I dang sure don't feel any better than I did. I figured I would have some energy and a little motiviation by now but I have zero. I'm miserable.